The group home allowed Penny to stay after winter break ended, but made it very clear that they were the most temporary of temporary. Her caseworker ended up extending her search to the very edges of the school district, with multiple warnings that she may need to prepare to switch schools. Those conversations were frequent once the school year ended.
Hodge was her solace. She spent nearly every day in the glade, brushing him smooth and detangling his mane. His body had lightened to a glowing silver, and she could see golden dapples emerging on his haunches. His mane and tail tuft were now white with waves and loose curls; the tail tuft ended with a tight, little spiral that half the time she left alone if she wasnât fluffing it out.
She flipped through her book lazily, humming in mild amusement. âYou having cloven hooves means you need to chew cud⊠Oh, wait, pigs donât chew cud. I guess that means you donât need to? So⊠youâre like a horse and pig mixed together?â She laughed at Hodgeâs loud snort. âSorry, I know youâre unique. Iâm trying to figure out what I can.â
She spent the next forty minutes combing out his mane and weaving pink and yellow ribbons into it. She brushed his forelock with her fingers, fluffing it up around his black, spiral horn. Her fingertips lightly touched the base and traced up to the tip.
âThere must be something I can use to take care of it,â Penny mused. âLike with your hooves. Thereâs hoof polish. Doesnât feel like the same thing as your hooves though....â She heartily patted his neck. âGo ahead. Act natural.â
Hodge blinked his large eyes at her before he went to graze. She took out her phone, recording five-second clips and taking pictures from different angles.
Her Instagram account had been gaining hundreds of followers a week since she started showing photos of Hodge. There was much debate in the comments about if he was real or not, with the final verdict typically being the non-believers badgering the others into accepting unicorns did not exist.
She never tipped the scale one way or another, never responded to comments at all except to say thanks if someone said something particularly meaningful or offered a good suggestion. The arguing was too amusing.
Hodge jerked his head up, ears pointed forward before flattening into his mane.
âWhat'sâ?â
Penny heard it too. The unmistakable sounds of ATVs, and fast approaching. She rushed at Hodge, waving her arms and hissing âshooâ. The unicorn gave her a hurt, reproachful look before moving at a slow trot through the ivy curtain. She raced for the same curtain, jerking still, and spinning back to collect her things.
The ATVs crashed into the glade seconds later. She guiltily put her bucket and backpack behind her back, nervously smiling at Garrett and Colton as they sped by. Coltonâs ATV made a wide turn, flattening more of the ivy, and doubled back to her.
âPenny?â He turned off the engine, blinking at her in surprise. âWhat⊠what are you doing out here?â He looked around. âHowâd you get here?â
âWalked⊠Iâve been taking pictures of the glade. Iâm obsessed with it.â
âRightâŠ,â Colton trailed off, looking at her as if she lost her mind. âWant a ride back?â
Her eyes darted to the treeline. She could sense Hodge waiting, watching, could practically see him pawing impatiently at the ground as he waited for her to call him back out.
It would be suspicious if she sent Colton away. He might even stick aroundâsecretly or otherwiseâto see why she wanted to stay.
âYeah, sure, thatâd save me a walk,â Penny said. She glanced at the bucket of horse combs and her backpack. âUmmâŠ. Oh! Colton, look!â
She threw the bucket towards the rock when Colton turned, flinching at how red it was among the green. She shouldered her bag, and jumped on behind him, shrugging when he turned in his seat to look at her quizzically.
âThought I saw something up on the trail,â she said sheepishly. âReady?â
They sat on Coltonâs front step drinking soda. He caught her up on his adventures with Levi and Gage (whose girlfriend never did materialize over the school year). Destiny and Whitney had found some other girls into crochet and knitting, so were regulated more as friends that just exchanged waves in the hall. Penny had guessed as much having found herself hanging out with either the guys or the girls, and gradually more with the guys over the seventh grade year, but it sounded as if they hadnât texted or spoken to Colton and the guys since summer started.
âNot much different from you,â Colton said.
âMe? I haven't ditched you guys,â Penny protested.
âNot as obviously, but you don't hang out like you did. You come by sometimes and text, but you're always running off to do your photo thing.â Colton drained his bottle. âBut Garrett says it's normal. You hit seventh grade, new people and all that, and it's worse if you're girls and guys.â
It felt a bit unfair and as if Colton was blaming her. Gage had ditched them long before she started pulling away. Levi too. She was managing her photography, keeping under the radar at the home, keeping her grades up to add no additional concerns or reasons to be moved, and keeping Hodge a secret. Having any social life was doing well. Colton had no idea.
âYou know⊠you mentioned that place wanting to get rid of youâŠ,â Colton trailed off. âI said something about it to my momâŠâ
âWhy?â
He shrugged. âShe complains me and Garrett are too much. I thought maybe sheâd want to take a try at having a girl around.â
âYou asked her to foster me?âÂ
Little bubbles of happiness burst in her chest. Coltonâs mom seemed nice. She got along with Colton and Garrett. The best yet, Hodge was in the backyard.
Her smile faltered. âOh⊠I think it takes a long time to get approved for thatâŠ.â
âYeah⊠she said that,â Colton said uneasily. âAnd⊠um, isnât sure itâs a great ideaâŠ.â
A cold wave washed over her. She was still damaged goods, even according to her friendâs mother. She set her mostly empty bottle aside and got to her feet.
âI should head back. I got to show my face around the home soon so they donât worry.â
âGarrett canâ.â
âI got my bus pass; itâs fine,â Penny dismissed. âText later? We can all hang out or something.â
She thought of going back for her grooming bucket, or to say a proper goodbye to Hodge, but didnât want to risk Colton or Garrett driving through the glade again. She alternated between a brisk walk and jog to the bus stop, then promptly sat and cried on her knees until it came.
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Her caseworker looked much more exhausted than during previous visits. She no longer had pink streaks in her hair. There was a dullness to the blonde locks, and she had started the habit of wearing large frames to filter out blue-light; she previously complained about headaches and blamed the screens.
Penny sat still in her chair, her green eyes wandering to her open phone whenever she was sure the caseworker was too preoccupied to notice. A small, satisfied smile tugged at her lips at the 9.9 million count next to the followers label.
âItâs not looking goodâŠ.â Penny quickly covered her phone and watched the caseworker. âThe home feels theyâve been more than generous⊠I did reach out to the Lamberts to see if theyâd clarify on the aggression thing, but they didnât want to talk. No hope getting that expunged.â
âFigures.â
âThe Sizemores did express some interest. Not enough to take you tomorrow, but they do have you on their mind from time to time.â She glanced over the top of her glasses. âThey have your previous foster sister, right?â
âAs far as I know.â
âCould be an option thenâŠ.â
She shuttered at the idea of once more living with Aaliyah. The home was full of kids worse, but in the group setting there were other targets.
âWhat about foster to adopt? That could open other options.â
Penny vigorously shook her head.
âRight⊠Well, that leaves really only one path forward, and I was trying to avoid itâŠ.â She removed her glasses with a heavy sigh, and knitted her fingers in front of her. âYour home has been impressed with your behavioral shift, and thatâs another reason they wonât keep you anymore. They recommended a home for girls your age. âŠItâs not in your school district.â
The girlsâ home was over an hour away, closer to the city. She would be bumped down into a middle school for eighth grade. This home was more strict with outings, usually needing a chaperon or buddy for even basic walks. Visiting Hodge would be completely out of the question unless she snuck out in the middle of the night, and the buses wouldnât be running then.
âI think thatâs all⊠Youâll have the weekend to pack up. They want you moved before the first day. Complete fresh start and all.â The caseworker pinched at her eyes and stifled a small yawn. âSorry I couldn't get it worked out for you. You're one of the nice ones. If all my cases were like you, I wouldn't be going back to school to find something else.â
âOh⊠I had a feeling you were quitting,â Penny muttered.Â
âChanging careers isn't quitting. âŠSome of these other kids are vicious though. All I want is to help, but they couldn't care less.â She cleared her throat and straightened. âAnyway, questions?â
âYeahâŠ.â Penny fiddled with her phone, keeping her eyes down. âI wasnât always an adoption candidate, so⊠was there some kind of update with my mom?â
The caseworker raised an overtweezed eyebrow. She went back to her computer, typed something, and propped her face up with her hand. She had a glazed expression. She gave a shrug.
âIt doesnât say anything specific. Says you were given up at birth, so you not being a candidate until recently is kind of weird. Letâs seeâŠ,â she scrolled, âyeah, nothing specific. My guess is there was some kind of contact between her and the system, but all that evaporated. Either she flat out said she wasnât able to get her life together before you aged out, or she just fell off the map.â
âShe was keeping tabs on me?â It made sense considering Aisling was her caretaker when she was small. âIs there anything in there about my aunt? Aisling Fox, or she might be under Sister Mary Agnes.â
âNothing⊠There were inquiries made about where you were sent after your first home changed administrations, but it doesnât give any names.â She leaned into the back of her chair. âUnless they suddenly appear in the next day or two, youâre still going to be sent to that girlsâ home. I wouldnât waste your energy thinking about this.â
It was the first real instance that a caseworker told her that Keena had tried to keep in her life. Something had changed that.
It was also the first time she had been told Aisling was looking for her. She had known that instinctively, but it was nice to hear it said out loud.
The more pressing issue was this move. It was imminent and she saw no way out of it.
She sighed heavily as she waited for her bus. She opened her phone, went to the camera, and turned it on herself. She took a breath and hit record.
âHey! Behind the photos. Iâm Penny. A foster kid, about to be moved again. Hodge pictures will be on hiatus for a bit.â Her eyes teared. âSorry.â
She uploaded it to her Instagram and tucked her phone away.
Aisling was probably still looking for her, but if Keena had truly given her up this time, entertaining adoption could keep her from being moved too far. She could always sabotage her placement if the parents started to seriously consider keeping her, give Keena or Aisling more time to find her.
She stayed seated as her bus to the home drove off. She took the one that came out near Coltonâs.
Hodge was half in the glade. The ivy curtain was draped over his back like a cape. He gave a happy nicker as soon as he spotted her, but did not trot over. He lowered his head and went back to grazing.
She sank onto her usual rock. Her eyes grew more and more teary as she watched Hodge until she couldnât hold it back anymore. She hugged her knees and buried her face in them to stifle her sobbing. She was jolted out of her hopelessness by Hodge knocking her off the rock with a hard nosing.
She gave a watery laugh, hugging him around his face and then again around the neck once she stumbled up to her feet.
âIâll come back,â she said. âThey wonât keep us apart. I swear it.â
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Where I mostly grew up, it was rural so after sixth grade you went to a combination junior-senior high school. It's not surper uncommon in non-rural areas. More common is having a middle school in the equation, so I figured where Penny was since leaving NY was rural WV and now she's being moved to slightly less rural WV.
And anything else I was going to say is gone because I'm having "what's that" shouted at me.
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