There was little noise coming from within Rowlett’s Mechanic Shop as the sun waned overhead. The white-washed concrete building stood out among the dusty road before it and the open field of tan, swaying grass behind it. Two barn doors fixed on metal tracks were rolled open at their widest, and just above them were the freshly painted red letters that bore the shop’s name.
Within the shop, rows of shelves, stacks of metal, and parts of every kind lined the walls. Short windows butted against the tall ceiling and lined the back and side walls to let in air and additional light into the room. The occasional metal clang was surpassed only by short bursts of the rhythmic clicking of a ratcheting wrench.
All the while, there was not a single word uttered from the two men working within the shop, building the silent tension between them and thickening the air.
The older man, with his tanned skin contrasted against his short, peppered hair and a dirty white work shirt, was frowning so much the wrinkles of his face were tugged downward. His bushy brows were furrowed over narrow eyes, and the dark brown irises within glanced across the stuffy room at the second man. Despite his short stature, he more than commanded his presence in the room thanks to his wide shoulders.
The younger man was also tan-skinned, but he was tall and thickly built. The hair on his head was black and shaggy, while dark hair ran down his muscular arms and peeked from the top of his own dusty work shirt tucked under a pair of overalls. His youthful face was lightly weathered from spending his teenage years in the shop; but, while he did appear disgruntled, his dark eyes held much less contempt than the man at his back.
“How was your visit with Ms. Stephanie last night?” The older man, at last, broke the weighted silence.
The younger man paused his work as he tightened his grip on his wrench. “It was fine.”
“Y’all datin’ yet?”
Hudson scowled, thankful his face was turned away. “No.”
Timothy straightened his short posture, pressing his hands on the panel of the tractor between them. “What do you mean, ‘no?’ She invited you to–”
“No, Paw,” Hudson shot over his shoulder. “I told you–I ain’t interested in her like that. ‘Sides, she’s real sweet on Adrien–”
“So, you’ve lost another one.” His voice was cool, yet acidic.
Hudson shut his eyes and attempted to redirect his mounting anger in a deep breath.
The silence returned, and the two continued their work. Timothy was still clanking around in the tractor’s chassis, while Hudson remained near the motor to check for loose nuts.
“I'm startin' to wonder if it's the clutch goin’ out.” The older man scratched his chin. His eyes darted to his son when there was no response. “Hudson!”
The younger mechanic jumped and straightened up. “Oh,” he blurted, looked at the wrench in his hand, and returned his gaze to the tractor motor. “The struts?”
“The clutch! Pay attention, son; your head’s in the clouds today!”
He grunted and ran his hands through his hair. “I’m sorry, Paw.”
“Henry can’t get any work done without his tractor, so we need to get it fixed!”
“Yes, sir–here, lemme check it.”
The two men switched places, the older supervising the younger to ensure he was performing his duties properly. Sure enough, Hudson went straight to the gear box to inspect the inner workings.
Unfortunately, despite his son’s accurate work,Timothy’s frown only lengthened as he stood idly by. “What about Lillith? You two’ve always been close. She’d make a fine wife.”
The wrench nearly slipped from Hudson’s hand as he turned to face his father. “Paw, you know I don’t see her that way.”
“Then maybe you ought’a start!” He snapped.
Hudson froze, his expression a mixture of outrage and shock.
The older man thrust out his hands. “Don’t look at me like that! I don’t know how you’re expectin’ to continue on our legacy if you don’t quit dilly-dallyin’ an’ get married!”
The younger man averted his eyes. “Paw, maybe I’m just not–”
“I’m not gettin’ any younger, you know–and neither are you!” He interrupted. “One of these days this shop is gonna be yours, and how are you gonna pass it on if you ain’t got kids to pass it on to??”
“It’ll get passed on to someone else in town, just like how Grandpa took it over from the Romano’s–”
“Who else in this town would take it over? Everybody else’s kids are following their parents’ trades.”
“I don’t know; but I’ll figure somethin’ out by then!”
“‘By then,’” Timothy repeated mockingly. “So, you’ll pass on your problem to somebody else’s family?“
Hudson scooted closer to his father. “Is it so hard for you to think I wouldn’t follow exactly in your footsteps? That I wouldn’t check off all the boxes you think I oughta check?“ He shook his head as if perplexed, “I am not you!“
Timothy’s initial surprise from Hudson’s outburst had faded into a caustic sneer. “Boy, is that abundantly clear.“
The son winced, his eyes piercing into the floor.
“I guess I’d better accept that our line will end with you!!”
The wrench clattered on the floor. “Is that really all I am to you?“ The young man stepped forward, seething. “Just a–a person to fill a hole??”
Timothy did not speak as a mixture of outrage and regret smouldered on his face.
Hudson grimaced and walked out of the shop.
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“And, this is why in Romans…”
William’s practice sermon was cut short as a figure stepped into the open doorway of the chapel. He set down his Bible onto the podium, recognizing the tall, bulky silhouette. “Hudson.”
The man in question said nothing as he stepped inside and started up the aisle. He passed the rows of wooden pews neatly lined within the small chapel’s white-paneled walls and thin stained glass windows. His form hunched further the closer he got to William until he slowed to a stop at the front pew.
William frowned, noticing Hudson’s haggard expression. He also quietly slipped out from behind the podium and gestured to the pew beside them.
Hudson slipped onto the wooden bench, hot tears already stinging his eyes long before William had begun to speak.
“Another disagreement?” He asked gently.
“My life is a disagreement,” the man muttered caustically.
“I wouldn’t say that.”
“Paw would.”
William frowned and leaned on his thighs to match Hudson’s slouched back. “You know, despite everything he says, he cares about you. Ah,” he held up one of his hands when Hudson’s head darted in his direction to retaliate. “Just listen to me for a moment.”
He grimaced and drooped back forward.
“You know as well as I do your father has become very shop-oriented these days. He lives and breathes that shop, and he’s always concerned about its future. So, at times, he may see you as a part of that shop too.”
“A part that needs replacin’,” he scowled.
“A part that he wants to hone and protect.”
Hudson’s dark eyes slowly slid to William’s pale blue.
“He wants to make sure you are all set to continue his work; whether that’s training you in all he knows, or making sure you have a future in place.”
“But his future ain’t gonna happen,” Hudson scowled. “He wants me to ‘hurry up and get married’–but to who??” He huffed in annoyance. “The girls in this town are great an’ all, but… I don’t see any of ‘em as romantic partners. An’ most of ‘em already have their eyes on someone else anyway–or they’re too young to be courtin’ a lug like me…”
William remained still as Hudson worked through his thoughts.
“Is there somethin’ wrong with me?” He turned his head toward the older man ever so slightly, tears again stinging the corners of his eyes.
“Absolutely not,” William asserted.
“Then why can’t I…” A tear fell from his eye and he opted to leave the sentence unfinished as he wilted in his seat.
“If I may attempt to stand in your father’s shoes,” the preacher continued carefully, “I think his biggest concern is not you, or your actions, as much as it is his sense of control.”
The mechanic’s eyes lost their focus.
“Timothy prides himself on being able to fix anything that comes in the shop. He has full control over his tools and his work. But, he does not have control over you–and that’s a struggle for him as much as it is for you. So, while I will admit he could use so much more patience and kindness in this matter,” William set his hand on Hudson’s knee, “I do believe all of this is him trying to make sure you are okay.”
Hudson rolled his head backward against the pew. “‘Cept he doe’n’t have any patience or kindness–none whatsoever!” He huffed in distress. “He just–he can’t understand that I’m diff’rent than he is! He can’t understand how I can look at somethin’ another way! And he’s never understood it!” He gnashed his teeth. “Gosh, William–if this is really how he’s tryin’ to help me, he’s doin’ the complete opposite!”
William watched Hudson’s expression scrunch and turn away.
“He makes me feel useless.” His words moaned into the empty chapel.
The preacher allowed the silence to return before continuing. “I’m sorry, Hudson.”
“Just ‘cause I don’t wanna court nobody here… just ‘cause I don’t have a way to start a family…”
“You never know what will happen,” he tried.
“There ain’t no one left!” Hudson darted his head back to face him, tears again running down his cheeks.
William bit his lip. With each generation, Westfall’s inhabitants were slowly dwindling. Children were not being born in numbers they used to, leaving a shallow pool of young men and women to choose from. And there was an even greater chance this generation would bear even fewer children.
Hudson sighed, heavily wiping his face in his hand. “I’m sorry,” he admitted through his fingers.
“Don’t be; I know this is very hard on you.”
“I’d like to think things’ll work out. I keep prayin’ every day that they do. But Paw… he’s never gonna be happy.” He let his broad hands fall to his lap. “Not if it i’n’t how he wants it.”
“Then, what you need to focus on is how to make you happy,” he pointed a finger at Hudson’s chest. “You can’t control what other people will think, but you can control what you think.”
Hudson’s eyes were still focused on where William’s finger had pointed.
“I want you to try to look for peace where you are.”
“That’s not gonna be easy when there’s not peace in the shop,” he frowned.
“That will be the biggest struggle; yes,” William returned his hand to Hudson’s leg. “But you can find peace knowing you are doing everything the best you can.”
The mechanic was beginning to tremble again. “But, am I?”
“What do you mean?”
He squashed his lips into a frown and shook his head. “Do you think I should just... marry Lillith??“
William blinked and tried to stifle his smile. “I’d certainly ask her first.“
Hudson’s face turned to him, and his expression hesitant.
William’s smile warmed and he patted his leg. “Hudson, I would only do that if you want to. Don’t let someone else push you into something you don’t feel is right.”
The young man huffed a sigh and leaned over his knees. “My momma would’ve understood.”
Another pang tugged at William Bauer’s heart. It had been a little over ten years since Josephine Rowlett died from complications in childbirth. It ripped a gaping hole in the Rowlett family and was only the beginning of the great divide between father and son. Josephine had always acted as their bridge; without her, Timothy no longer knew how to cope with a son who was so much like her.
“She would have,” he admitted softly. “And I hope–and I will pray– that one day, your father will too.”
The chapel again fell into silence as Hudson wrestled with his thoughts and William sat by his side. It had not been the first meeting to discuss Hudson’s feelings of inadequacy under Timothy’s watch, and he knew it would not be the last.
William could only hope that his words were true: one day, the great divide would be mended.
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Part 2 of Worthless/Useless is now Hudson's struggle with marriage expectations. In as much as Westfall does not have arranged marriage, the marriage pool is so small at this point, it ironically almost ends up that way. Anyone eligible has probably already had their eyes on someone else as they've grown up, and Hudson just hasn't been looking at anyone else that way. I understand because I was the same way 😅
Unfortunately this frustrates Timothy who can't relate/understand why Hudson doesn't. William was a close friend of Timothy (before Josie's death shuttered him away from everyone) so he also understands Tim's mindset, but he can absolutely see how this frustrates Hudson. It's very much a mess, just like Gemini and her family. Also, these shorts take place when both Hudson and Gemini are 21 years old.
But, spoiler alert, although you may already guess, things finally begin to mend between Hudson and Timothy in the main story - not just because Hudson finally finds a girlfriend, but also because certain circumstances (and people) get Timothy really thinking about everything and realizing how harsh he was. He, at least, is given a chance to make things right :)