Firebrand Risk
Kalon 9
July 07, 2025

Kalon fought her way into the crowded salon. She murmured apologies for stepping on toes and jabbed elbows, each time getting more and more irate. She threw herself against the counter like breaking from drowning. Her long, brown curls were disheveled with her hair clip dangling uselessly in the tangle, caught in the solitary royal blue streak.

“It’s mad in here!”

“I’m aware.” Strauss bounced her baby girl on her hip, shushing her as she gave the crowd an irate stare. “I told you lot to clear out! We’re closed!”

“Good business though, right?”

“Hardly! I only had two or three actual customers all day. The rest of those hens were just tagalongs to sit and gossip with them. I swear, each woman brought half a dozen friends in with her.” Strauss’s glare deepened as she let out a long groan. “Hold Isabelline a tick.”

Kalon took the baby as Strauss circled around the counter, grabbing her broom. She had the baby girl watch her mother chase the gaggle out with great sweeping motions for a second, ensuring she was calm, before carrying her off to the backroom.

Mal sat in a playpen, studying plastic scissors. His head jerked up as Isabelline whimpered. He scrambled to pull himself up, his blue eyes tearing up as he opened his mouth to reveal three bottom teeth.

“Maaaaa!”

“Shush, Mal, I’m right here.” Kalon awkwardly dipped to keep Isabelline from Mal’s grabby hands while also rubbing his back. “Shh, I’m here. Just wait for Auntie Strauss to fetch Isabelline.”

Strauss appeared just as Kalon finished her statement. She still looked agitated but happily plucked her daughter from Kalon’s arms.

“Your hair is still a state.”

Kalon twisted her curls into a knot, clipping it up. She pulled Mal from the pen, resting him on her hips.

“I'm sorry to keep dropping him on you when you've been so swamped.” She stroked his brown hair. “And while he's cutting teeth.”

“You must stop apologizing each time you fetch him. It's safer here than at the library right now.” Strauss smirked. “And I'll remind you, often, that you agreed to take Isabelline for just as many days once she’s teething.” Her smirk waivered. “How was it at the library today?”

“Gramps shot a person. Not fatally, of course, but it sets a tense tone all the same.”

“Mrs. Gousa still hasn’t put forth her summary, I take it?” Strauss groaned at Kalon’s head-shake. “At least when that old First Son popped back up and died, it was sudden. I had just a week or so of madness, and that disappeared as soon as Mrs. Gousa put forth her summa.”

“There was no gossip beforehand as well.”

“Exactly! And, with that being a United Americas thing, we have a removement from it all. It was a proper spectacle we could gawk at. But this!”

Strauss burst into tears. She cradled her daughter, trying to comfort her as she started whining in distress over her mother’s outburst.

Kalon took Mal’s chubby hand as he pointed, open-mouthed. She kissed it, swallowing the lump in her own throat.

They took a few minutes to apologize and comfort each other for the emotions and the distress to the kids before Kalon left with Mal. She adjusted him on her hip frequently as they headed towards the library; her mind wandering off to the reasons for the chaos, trying not to think too hard on it.

The official announcement that the Paris Colony heir would be a father caused great excitement for the following five months. It had been busy at work, but an enjoyable sort where there were constant pauses to speak theories and hopes with those visiting the library. Everyone had been in such a joyful mood that no one even attempted stealing or vandalizing. This mood turned completely celebratory once the baby girl was born; cafes offering free food and drinks to whoever wandered by, clothing stores giving away baby items at heavy discounts, and everyone having a friendly wave or greeting to any person they made eye contact with.

The euphoric atmosphere lasted two months, only starting to wane when the horror occurred.

She paused beside the largely ignored, badly maintained news kiosk. The screen that should have smoothly cycled through trending stories was stuck–flickering, heavily lined with damage–on a still of the Foxcroft granddaughter and Paris Colony heir dressed up smartly, standing outside the Lord’s mansion house, holding a bundle of delicate pink and lace. The smushed face of their newborn daughter barely visible among the blankets. The headline yelled: Paris Colony Granddaughter Missing, Presumed Murdered.

“Maaaa!”

She snapped to. “Sorry, Mal, Mummy was spacing.” She adjusted him again. “We should hurry back to get your dinner ready.”

The library was closed up for the night, dark and imposing. Mal’s hungry whines and Kalon’s heels echoed throughout as they made their way to the dwelling beneath. She was fast to deposit him into his chair, leaving him to protest the abandonment and lack of food.

She dug through the fridge to pull mashed sweet potatoes and overcooked chicken, shredded beyond recognition. Her brow knitted as she spotted Grams’s lunch still plated and wrapped, completely untouched.

“Maaaa!”

“Yes, coming!” She grabbed the lunch too, placing it out. “You act as if Auntie Strauss wasn’t feeding you snacks sporadically all day.”

Gramps appeared from the stairs. He strained to put his pistol on top of a bookcase, far from reach of anyone else. He immediately went to Mal, patting his head and taking the chair opposite.

“I’ll feed your boy. Scrounge something up for the rest of us.”

“Grams didn’t touch the lunch I made.”

The old librarian’s keen eyes darted towards the kitchen, and then to his wife’s working area. He took Mal’s food up.

“Take it to her. I’ll see about food for us if he eats quickly.”

She hovered outside the doorless doorway, clutching the plate of cold chicken with both hands. The room beyond was well lit with the ceiling light, desk light, and floor lamp all on, but it might as well have been pitch black and freezing. She inched into the heavy atmosphere.

Grams was hunched at the desk. The glow of her laptop caused her to look wraith-like. Her colorless hair was unkempt and added to the haunted effect.

“Grams?” Kalon carefully placed the plate on the desk in a clear space. “You should eat.”

There was no argument from Grams on this point. She leaned away from her screen, blinking the red strain from her eyes, and deftly plucked a chicken leg from the plate.

“She could be dead.”

Kalon felt a chill at the bluntness. “I thought she was…? The blood was hers.”

“Oh no, not the baby.” Grams took a mighty bite. “Not much hope there.” She swallowed. “The mother. That Foxcroft girl.”

Her breath caught. “Pardon?” She dropped into the armchair Grams used for more cozy information gathering sessions. “I don’t understand….”

“Of course not, my girl. More of a shadow of a rumor at this point.” She waved flippantly towards the doorway. “They feel something though, I suspect. They feel something wrong about the sudden lack of attention on her. They just don’t know they do.”

“Surely the lack of attention is to allow the poor woman to mourn.”

“That’s precisely why there would be more attention.” Grams set her sharp eyes to Kalon. “Do not let your good heart be fooled into thinking colonials wouldn’t attempt capitalizing on this politically. They are not like us.”

“They are people.”

“People are not all the same.” She turned her focus back to her food. “You’re too quick to forget that Arios Washington supposedly met a similar fate as a child. He was written off for political gains, and everyone would’ve continued to buy that had he not come back from the dead.” She gestured to her screen. “Something is happening in Paris Colony. Did the mother murder the child? Did the in-laws? Is she murdered at all?”

“But the Foxcroft granddaughter disappearing from the public eye…?”

“Yes, that is what I’m attempting to discover. I cannot in good faith put out a summa until I get that piece.” She held her empty plate out to Kalon without looking away from her screen. “Her vanishing is not something her in-laws want. That is the only tangible bit I’ve got. Now, is it guilt? Grief?” She wagged her plate impatiently. “Clear this out and leave me to it.”

“Do try for some sleep tonight, Grams.” Kalon wrinkled her nose. “And perhaps a shower….”

She leaned against the wall, taking breaths to calm the swirl of information and emotions Grams had helped ushered. She exhaled as Mal called out for her, putting on a smile and hurrying off to relieve Gramps.

---

The heavy overcast reflected the mood of the people perfectly. No sooner than Grams relented and released her summary–giving way to the official narrative that the Paris Colony granddaughter had been slain–did an additional development emerge.

Alouette Foxcroft had disappeared from the eye due to being found collapsed in her room two days after the attack on her daughter. The details remained tightly hushed. The rumors flew in the streets, in the salon, in the library, all of them grim.

Kalon bounced Mal on her hip as she carried him through the early, gray light. “Auntie Strauss is going to be quite busy and a tad upset, so you need to be on your best behavior today.” She frowned. “I hope all this sorrow doesn’t cause long term affect to you and Isabelline. It’d be horrid if you have a negative outlook on life due to all this.”

She slowed as she became aware that there was a person leaning on the building ahead. There was an agitation to their posture, like a cornered animal ready to lash out. She held Mal tight to the point he started to push her away in protest.

“Thought I’d run into you eventually if I camped out here.”

Her shoulders relaxed as she recognized the strange accent. She offered Khoa a smile, but it weakened when his posture stayed coiled.

His inky black hair was longer, partly obscuring his dark brown and hazel eyes and creating a frame that highlighted his face shape and gave his neck a longer, more elegant appearance. The rip-like scar on his mouth and cunning glint in his eyes reminded Kalon that she needed to wade into any interaction with him.

“I almost believe you wouldn’t come by again.” She adjusted Mal. “He’s getting big, isn’t he?”

“Do you have a car?”

“Do I–? What? Why?” She turned slightly, just enough to put Mal a fraction further from Khoa. “No. I’ve never–.”

“The old man doesn’t have one?”

“He has a van, but the thing is ancient. I’m not sure–.”

“Borrow it.”

“What? You want me to steal–?”

“Ask him first if you need to. I can drive.”

She narrowed her green eyes, scowling in irritation. “What is all this about?” Her heart missed a beat. “Is Innit all right?”

“He’s a bastard, but whatever.” Khoa crossed his arms. “He’s done what he said he needed, but now he’s lookin’ for any reason to do more. There ain’t no reason for it. It’s annoyin’.”

“So… you want me to see him… because he’s getting on your nerves?”

Khoa shrugged. “Good a reason as any.”

Kalon cocked her head. “Is it?”

“If you don’t want to see him, just say it and I’ll leave. I can always see if Bex has something to distract him from being an idiot.”

“No!” She cleared her throat to cover for her hasty, higher tone. “I’ll see him. I want to. I….” She pet Mal’s brown hair, smiling at the wary way he stared at Khoa. “I need to prepare first. Drop Mal off. Ask for the van. Et cetera.”

“Fine. Don’t be too long.” Khoa pushed away from the wall. “Probably keeps that van out in the parkin’ garage with the other townie cars. I’ll wait there. Just for a couple of hours.”

She waited until Khoa had vanished around a corner before heading the two doors down to the salon. She deposited Mal into the playpen in the back, receiving a great cry of protest that she ignored. She tucked a container of food and two bottles into the small fridge in the corner before kissing the top of her son’s head.

“I’ll see you tonight.”

“You’re in a hurry this morning?” Strauss swayed side-to-side, pressing Isabelline close. “Any news?”

“Not yet, but surely Grams will find something tangible soon. We’re going on a week now. They can’t stay quiet forever.” She picked at her violet nails. “I’m seeing Innit soon.”

“Innit? As in Mal’s father?” Strauss’s eyes hardened. “Kalon….” She shook her head. “No. I won’t say anything. Do as you think you must.” She bit her lip. “Are you telling him about Mal?”

“I haven’t decided. His life is so… complicated. I can’t see how that would do Mal any good. He has enough setbacks without dragging in a person that may always have one foot out the door.”

“Twat.” Strauss laughed weakly. “Sorry. I’ll say no more. Promise.”

Kalon headed out before Strauss broke that promise, and before her nerves sabotaged her into being late to meet Khoa by way of getting into a banter. She fought her way through the line already forming outside the library.

Gramps took his hand off the pistol on his hip as she entered. “Oh, there you are. Was young Malvern difficult?”

“No… I heard word of Innit.” She looked away before she could get a solid look of what expression Gramps had, picking her nails. “Can you manage on your own today?”

“What do you think will come of this?”

“I’m not sure….” She stuffed her hands in her pockets to stop her picking. “I believe I owe it to Mal to gauge if his father is in a spot to be his father though. And,” she swallowed roughly, “I’m worried about him. I want to see if he’s all right.”

Gramps was silent long enough that Kalon looked up at him to make sure he had not wandered off. His mouth was a tight line. His eyes narrowed in concentration.

“I imagine you are bringing this to my attention not only because you’ll miss work while we’re so busy, but because you need something else? My pistol?”

“The van.”

“You cannot drive.” His expression soured. “Ah, it’s that other boy that told you all this. Perhaps you need the pistol as well after all.”

“I’ll bring my baton.”

“I’ll allow it, but I have a request. Do not tell him about young Malvern. Speak to him if you must, but keep your boy’s existence unknown.”

She gave a reluctant nod.

“I also strongly advise you to say nothing to Pistachio when you fetch the keys. If you’re quiet, she’ll likely not notice you at all.”

She crept downstairs, took her baton from her vanity, and picked up the key from its hook. She tried to say something to Gramps as she left, but unsure if she wanted to express gratitude or optimism, she mumbled incoherently instead.

Khoa was standing at the mouth of the parking garage looking irate at the pace she walked.

It took a few minutes to start the van. Grasses had grown into the rusted crevasses of the body, and some type of rodent had used the gaps in the engine for hibernation. The brakes creaked and the whole thing rattled more than Kalon remembered, but Khoa was successful in getting it from the garage and out onto the street.

“Innit’s got a car. I’ll drop you off and bring this one back to swap with mine. I’ll stash the key in that hole that had the weeds.”

“You have your own car?”

“Bex let me borrow his.”

“Really? For more than half a year?”

Khoa shrugged. “It ain’t like I planned on being away that long.” The corner of his mouth curled. “Besides, his parents made him.”

“Bex has parents?”

He gave a snort and an eye roll, but elaborated no further.

She craned her neck to watch the roundabout pass. She had not left Dijon since Gramps brought her home. There was a melancholy weight on her chest over it, but none of the anxiety she had expected.

She leaned back in her seat and glanced at Khoa. “How’s Innit look?”

His sleek eyebrows knit together. “Like Innit? Blue eyes. Freakishly blond hair. He ain’t got fat or gross or nothing.”

She went to clarify but shut her mouth and leaned against the window. She would bet Khoa knew exactly what she had asked and was trying to toy with her, some type of retribution for making him wait, for making him feel the need to seek her out to start with.

She drummed her fingers on the dashboard. “What are Bex’s parents like?”

“Dunno.”

“Of course you do!”

“Why? Because of the car thing?”

She narrowed her green eyes at him. “How long is this drive?”

He smirked.

---

The drive was thankfully not much longer than an hour outside of Dijon. The town was nestled in a dramatic bend in the river, giving it waterfront on three sides. The architecture was similar to Dijon with stone roads and whitewashed stone buildings, except more than half these buildings were ruins. There were rusted out cylinders–airplane hulls–among some of these ruins.

Khoa wretched the van into park. “He’s campin’ out in the Rivotte Bastion. Just follow this road straight down. You’ll know it when you see it.” He pointed to the squat, square tower in front of them. “Looks like that, in case you’re too spacey.”

“Is there not a car park near it?”

“Lots of them.”

“Well?”

“What?”

“I’m in heels, Khoa. Can’t you drop me nearer? Or best option, just escort me directly to Innit.” She sighed at his stare. “What if Innit doesn’t agree to drive me back? Or, what if he’s already gone off somewhere else? I can’t be wandering a strange town all day. I’ve got to get back to the baby.”

She opened her mouth angrily as he cut off the engine, but shut it as he threw open his door.

“I ain’t goin’ to try re-parkin’ this heap. C’mon, let’s get this over with.”

She followed Khoa half a step behind due to her shoes and not knowing where she was. They kept the river to their left, moving with a conflicting lazy agitation.

The Rivotte Bastion was soon in sight, looking as square and squat as the tower they parked near. The walk would have been easy enough for Kalon on her own, and it was near enough there was a slim chance she could have gotten within sight and shouting distance of Khoa should she had discovered Innit was not there and needed a ride back.

She hugged herself as a cold breeze came off the water. She took out her hair clip to better warm her neck, looking sideways at Khoa with his short hair and t-shirt.

“Are you chilly at all?”

“What’re you gonna do about it if I am?” He looked her over. “You ain’t got a jacket to give me.”

“I was attempting to show you humanity and compassion.”

“By reminding me I’m cold?”

“My mistake.” She eyed him, focusing on the scar on his mouth. “This is going to be a stupid question–.”

“Great.”

“--but was that painful?” She tapped her mouth to show what she meant.

“You’re right, that was stupid.”

Further elaboration did not come, but it was just as well with the entrance to the bastion just feet away.

Khoa swept his hand dramatically, bowing slightly. “Your prince charming awaits.”

“How did you manage to make something so cheesy sound so ominous?” She rocked up on her toes to attempt to see better, but did not wander in. “Are you certain he’s still there? It’s rather dark.”

Khoa spun, narrowed his eyes against the light, and pointed. “His car is over there. He’s here.” He leaned against the doorway, setting her in his sights. “Are you scared?”

“Of… the dark?”

“Of seeing Innit.”

The comment caused her pause. It had not occurred to her that she had hesitations in seeing Innit. It was not as if they parted friendly, and she had kept Mal’s existence from him. There was no way to know how he would react to that, if she decided to tell him at all.

“Of course not. I’m rather looking forward to it.”

Khoa scoffed, pushed away from the doorway, and headed inside.

Kalon crept after him, wrinkling her nose and scooting around molding cardboard boxes from someone attempting to use the bastion as storage. The mess did not appear to register with Khoa, and she soon fell behind as he rushed ahead.

“I’ve read too many stories about stupid women walking into obvious death traps to be doing this….”

She jumped at the sounds of crashing, like some of the boxes were kicked or shoved over. She inched towards the sound with her heart pounding. She paused at Innit’s voice.

“Why’d you do that! Now it’s all–.”

“You ain’t payin’ attention, that’s why! You even move since I left?”

“You don’t get it, Khoa. I’m so close to figurin’ out if she’s dead or not. …Magpie ain’t sayin’ nothing…. There ain’t a chance in hell he knew about this….”

“Yeah, he’s probably cryin’ his eyes out. Leave him to it, and move on with your life.”

“What life? All I got is tryin’ to sort out–.”

She jumped again as another set of boxes was knocked over. She could see Khoa standing stiff-legged over the destruction, fists clenched as he bore down on Innit. He sat on the floor, with only his platinum hair visible to her.

“Stop!” Khoa growled-groaned up at the stone ceiling. “Just stop it, Innit. You did enough. You ain’t doin’ nothing but wastin’ time.”

“Yeah? And is me tryin’ to help you wastin’--?”

“Yes! You can’t save me, Innit!” Khoa kicked over another stack of boxes at Innit’s inaudible murmur. “Y’know what? Fine. But I ain’t stickin’ ‘round for you to use me as an excuse.”

Kalon jerked and leapt aside as Khoa spun and charged her direction. She shrank as he stopped behind her, casting a furious look her way.

“Told you he was being a dumbass.”

“You… said bastard….”

Khoa’s lip curled. “Whatever he is, he ain’t my problem.”

She turned to track Khoa’s rtreating form, teetering on following after him and demanding a ride back. She looked back at the blond figure hunched over his laptop, eyes fixed on the screen. The milky light washed him out and made his hair glow. Her mouth twitched against a smile, and she turned back his way, slowly creeping forward.

Eyes still locked on his screen, Innit straightened slightly. “Kalon?” He looked up, mouth drooping open. “K-Kalon!” He set the laptop down as he scrambled to his feet, leaning forward and just as suddenly pulling back. “I don’t…? How are you here?” He scowled. “Khoa….”

“He took off in the van and left me without a ride home.” She gazed at her toes, swaying anxiously. “Give me a lift back?”

She dared look up when it was quiet too long, exhaling to see Innit stuffing bits of clothing and his laptop in his suitcase. She stepped aside to allow him to pass, giving him a smile that was not returned. She trotted after him, sticking close to his back until she stepped from the musty bastion.

She followed him to the lot Khoa had flippantly waved at, over to a slate gray Cadillac with knicks and dings that added character more than detracted. She touched a chip in the door.

“It’s well loved and still a beauty.”

“It was Dice’s.” Innit slammed the trunk down after tossing his bag in. “You can get in. It’s not locked.”

She climbed into the front passenger seat and watched Innit push the ignition on. His knuckles were white on the wheel, his arms tense as he steered them from the lot. She followed the curve of his arms to his shoulders, his neck, his ear–the tip red–and eyed his angular jaw. Her eyes darted away as his blue ones shot to her.

“You let your hair keep growin’. Added some color too.”

“Yes.” She tugged her royal blue lock straight. “My friend thought it accented my complexion and caused my dull hair to look less dull.”

“I never reckoned your hair color was dull.” He cleared his throat. “If you like it, that’s what matters.” His fingers tapped the wheel. “So… why’d you get in a car with Khoa? Did y’all get more friendly?”

“I wouldn’t say that.” She chipped at her violet nail polish. “More of an understanding of sorts. …I know he’s sick.” She smiled weakly. “He was so angry with me when I asked if you had it.” She reddened. “I-I mean, of course I knew rationally that you didn’t. You would have told me.”

“You reckon? Seems like the type of thing I’d want no one to ever know.”

“Perhaps, but if I tried to get into your pants, you wouldn’t have let me, and you would’ve had to tell me why.”

“Or I could’ve slept with you and vanished. It ain’t like I’ve never done that before.”

The air thickened between them. Kalon looked at the scenery a second before allowing her eyes to wander back to Innit. She studied his slender fingers on the steering wheel, not daring to gauge what his expression was.

“I reckon that’s something we should talk about….”

“It was hurtful and at times I still am cross over it.”

“Just jumpin’ right in.”

“I had such a horrid morning, and I had thought that night would validate everything I had said about you. About our relationship. But, no, instead you run off and I hear no word of you for near two years!” She threw her hands up. “I looked such a fool on top of all the heartbreak and–.” She swallowed her next words quickly, laughing shakily to cover it. “I worried about you, you know.”

“Sorry.” His cheeks tinted red. “That ain’t enough, and I meant for right now and for then and… I ain’t got any idea what’d I be able to say to make it okay.”

“Words would never be enough.”

“I reckon so….”

Kalon drummed her fingers on her knee. “Don’t just not try! Some sort of explanation is in order.” She sighed heavily. “Have you at least accomplished what you abandoned me for?”

“Abandoned is harsh.”

“Accurate.” She gathered her hair to one side to fiddle with her curls. “I thought you were going to propose to me, Innit, in case you’ve forgotten that bit.”

Innit’s eyes bugged. “What? We definitely did not have that conversation. There ain’t no way in hell I'd forget that.”

“Oh… perhaps I was too vague with my expectations of that night….”

“What I remember is you sittin’ there, cryin’, and that look you had when you accused me of not lovin’ you.” He tightened his grip. “I saw it almost every night before fallin’ asleep.”

Her heart flittered. She reached over, gently brushing the short hair around his ears. She smirked as she saw him gulp.

“I nearly feel awful for that making me feel better.”

“I reckon that’s something….” He took her hand, giving it a squeeze. “Reckon we could start over?”

She recoiled, knitting her fingers together in her lap. She tensed as the air grew heavy once more. Her mouth went dry.

“We can't.”

Innit’s face went redder as he re-tightened his grip on the wheel. “Right. No. Sorry. With how you touched my ear….” He shook his head. “Forget it.” His fingers bounced against the wheel. “There ain’t no way it’s another guy though, right? Not with you comin’ out here and gettin’ me all hot ‘n’ bothered. You ain’t like that.”

“Not another guy in that way….” She took a deep breath. “I had your son while you were gone.”

There was no indication he had heard her. His expression was neutral, his fingers as tight on the wheel as before. She had not even seen any quickening in his breathing. She frowned as the seconds dragged on.

“Innit, did you–? Innit! Road!”

He jumped and cranked the wheel to avoid flying off a curve. The car screeched to a halt with Kalon slamming into the dashboard.

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The one thing with writing on g.docs is I can't highlight and see how many words I have (or haven't figured out how to do it) so just put up sections when I feel like I've been writing them too long. I was not going to cut the end off like that (spoiler: super mild car misshap, no big deal at all) but you don't really need to see Kalon going 'yooo wut you doing' and stepping out to just not be sitting in the car.

There is clearly something bad going on with Alouette and it ties into Magpie having Rouen, and Alouette master plan (sort of). Oh, and Isabelline is a color. I thought it was appropriate for the hair dresser/tattooist to name her kid after a color.

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I an continuing through The Chronicles of Narnia, and they are such interesting books. C.S. Lewis is such a clever writer, creating books that can be understood as children and continue to grow in meaning for adults. And if you're a Christian, the symbolism and parallels with Christianity are very powerful.

So, of course I wanted to draw Aslan, and I wanted to make sure I got his splendor in all the waves of his mane. Wisps of magic and power flow, and the light itself is created in his step.

The amount of layers and layer blend modes I used in this one is insane... but it came out exactly like I had hoped :)

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"Are-are you there too, Sir?" said Edmund.

"I am," said Aslan. "But there I have another name. You must learn to know me by that name. This was the very reason why you were brought to Narnia, that by knowing me here for a ...

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August 31, 2026
DO.Penny.8

Penny woke the following morning in part to her aching stomach and in part to some type of commotion outside. The reason for her stomach was a simple solve; she had stormed upstairs without dinner and never returned downstairs. She spent her night growling her misery and frustration, throwing everything out of her drawers and off her desk.

The commotion stayed a mystery as she lay in bed, blinking the low-grade headache out of her eyes. She dragged herself from bed, stumbled to her window, and pulled down one of the cheap, plastic blinds to peer through.

Her stomach dropped.

She was downstairs minutes later, still wearing her clothes that she’d fallen asleep in the night before. She sprinted across the front yard, only stopping when she collided with the hedge.

The Wilcoxes were standing on their front step speaking to an officer. An ambulance was pulling out of the driveway with lights flashing.

“What happened,” Penny yelled at the adults. “Where’s Brooke?”

“Penny!” Mr. Lambert stormed across the yard. “Inside!”

“Where’s Brooke?”

“Inside, now!”

Penny dug her nails into Mr. Lambert’s hand as he grabbed her arm. She tore off his grip and ran back into the house. She shoved Aaliyah aside on her way to her room, jumping onto her bed, and hitting Brooke’s number in her phone.

There was no answer. The second call also went unanswered. She sent a text, waited, and nothing.

Mrs. Lambert arrived in her doorway, hands on hips. “You’re going to be late for school! Change your clothes. Get downstairs—.”

Penny shoved by her and raced down the stairs. She stared at Emily and Aaliyah–both pausing in their cereal intake–breathing heavily.

“Did you hear anything,” she asked frantically. “Where’s Brooke?”

She ran from the house as they silently stared at her.

The police were gone, and the Wilcox car was leaving the driveway. She ran into the street and forced them to hit the breaks.

“You crazy—,” Mr. Wilcox started angrily. 

“What happened to Brooke,” Penny demanded. She circled to the driver's side since his window was down. “Is she okay?”

“We don't have time for this,” Mrs. Wilcox snapped. “Her case worker can't get there before us, David; just drive.”

She was forced to jump back as the car crept forward, and then picked up speed. She screamed an expletive after them from the middle of the street.

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School was buzzing like a mass of hornets. No one could focus with Mr. McBride leaving in a police car yesterday and an ambulance leaving the Wilcox house that morning. There were several rumors about them dating, about a lover’s pact, about them staging everything to run off together. Some whispers hissed that Mr. McBride escaped jail and hurt Brooke. Some rumors said she was dead.

Penny was frazzled by lunch. She stared unseeingling at her disappointing tray of beige food, sitting on the very edge of the hard, plastic bench of her usual table (there being nowhere else for her to sit, there was an invisible wall between her and the others since Spring Break ended).

“Penny,” Colton hissed at her. He looked around to make sure the others were not out of line yet. “Hey, Penny, psst! You okay?”

She shook her head, her throat too dry to speak. Her eyes stung.

“She’s probably not dead,” Colton said, trying to sound reassuring. “It’s a misunderstanding.”

“It’s my fault,” Penny croaked.

“...How?”

“I… I told someone about Mr. McBride….” She sniffed. “I d-didn’t think it’d spread around. I d-didn’t think B-Brooke….”

“Penny?” Destiny sat, concern all over her tearstained face. “It-it’s going to be okay. It’s just rum—.”

She ran from the table. The others were starting to sit, all upset and willing to pull her into their grief. They’d hate her worse once they learned she was responsible. This was much more serious than scaring Levi.

She sat in a bathroom stall until long after the bell to return to class sounded. She waited until the sounds in the hall died out before slipping out. The low-grade headache flared after her sobbing session and she could feel the hot, burning anger starting to fill her stomach as it did yesterday. She started to tremble with rage as she headed from the school.

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The parish office looked like every other stereotypical, sterile cubicle setting. There were glass walls to give it a more open appearance beyond just boxes and half-open doors. There was a large desk built from the wall and floor, the kind found in dentist or doctor offices that was immediate when the door was opened.

The receptionist smiled at her with a slight puzzled expression.

“I want to talk to the priest,” Penny said coolly.

“I think he’s in a meeting right now…” Her eyes darted to the clock. “Shouldn’t you be in school?”

“Where’s the priest,” Penny asked. “It’s urgent.”

“Let me check if he’s finished,” she said, eyeing Penny warily. 

She picked up her phone, forced a smile, and turned away.

The anger was still simmering, now creeping towards her chest. Penny took deep breaths and leaned against the desk. She stared through the clear walls, watching random employees going to and from their cubicles. She perked up as the priest appeared with, she guessed, a deacon.

She went around the desk, ignoring the receptionist ordering her to stop and come back. She snaked through the cubicles until she arrived behind the priest and deacon.

“I trusted you,” Penny snapped.

The priest froze. The deacon froze. A few heads popped out of their cubicles to find the source of the commotion.

“Penny?” The priest patted the deacon on the shoulder, murmuring to him to continue on and wait. “Shouldn’t you be—?”

“I trusted you,” Penny repeated, growling. Hot tears cut down her face. “I told you all that in confession! It was private!”

“Penny, let’s go to my office,” the priest said, firmly but gently. He gestured. “Come on.”

She begrudgingly complied, glaring at any adult that dared to look their way during the short walk to the priest’s office. She dropped into an overstuffed leather chair with her arms crossed tight. She bristled at the calm in which he took his own seat.

“I heard about that English teacher,” the priest said. “I assume that’s what you’re upset over?” He held up his hand as Penny opened her mouth. “Confession is strictly private and confidential unless there is something criminal said. What that man was doing was wrong, and I was obligated to say something.”

“Brooke….” Her lip shook.

“Your friend is upset,” the priest said. “Yes, I can understand that, but you did nothing wrong.” He ducked to catch her gaze. “Penny. You did the right thing. You hold onto that. And, I’m sure, eventually, your friend will see this and things will—.”

“They took her away this morning!” Penny choked on a sob. “Th-the ambulance was there, and t-took her away!” She lowered her head in a completely useless attempt to hide her rapidly falling tears. “Some kids at school said she’s d-dead. No one will t-tell me anything…”

The priest was visibly paler. His mouth was slack, which he tried to cover by clearing his throat. He struggled up from his chair.

“Wait here,” he said. “I will make some calls—.”

“No!” She shot up, the heat rising through her again. “No! I should’ve never said anything to you!”

“Penny—.”

“No!” She backed towards the door. “You’re no different than any of the others. You let me think I should trust you, and that was wrong! Brooke might be dead, and it’s because I thought I could trust you!”

“Penny, please, calm–Penny!”

She flung open the door, shoved aside some adult that had been approaching, and ran from the building.

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Unable to stomach going back to school, Penny hung out in the woods until the sun started setting. She tried calling Brooke twice more; it now went straight to voicemail. She sent another text that also went unanswered.

She dragged herself back to the Lambert house. The car the Wilcoxes had left in that morning was still missing. Everything was eerily still in the cul-de-sac.

The Lamberts were also eerily quiet during dinner. Aaliyah ate little, mostly moving food around on her plate. Penny, surprisingly, was able to eat all her food and even snuck extra from the fridge when she put her plate in the sink. She didn’t know if it was because she had eaten so little for the last twenty-four hours, or if the anger still smouldering in her stomach required fuel.

She didn’t bother closing her door after changing into her pajamas. She lay still, starting at the streetlight streak across the dark ceiling, listening to Mr. and Mrs. Lambert murmuring downstairs. They were uncharacteristically subdued, making specifics impossible to hear.

“They’re taking a break from fostering,” Aaliyah said quietly from the doorway.

“I don’t care," Penny said.

“You should,” Aaliyah spat. “They’re returning us. Like we’re nothing but an ugly sweater.”

“I don’t care,” Penny repeated more firmly. She sat up. “Go away.”

“You should care,” Aaliyah said icily. “You ain’t going to stay little and cute, Penny. You’re creeping towards teen, and no one wants those around.” She faked a look of dawning. “Oh, right, you aren’t even an adoption candidate. You still think that aunt of yours is coming for you. Aww, or is it your mommy?”

She glowered. “At least mine loves me.”

The smirk was instantly dropped from Aaliyah’s face. The space between them was charged, full of static that nearly crackled audibly in the air.

Aaliyah tossed her beaded braids. She left the doorway, pausing.

“Brooke ain’t dead,” she said. “I heard them saying she’s fine. She’s just locked in the psych ward until the Wilcoxes send her back into the system.”

Penny leapt out of bed. She hurried to Aaliyah and hugged her tight, immediately getting shoved hard to the ground. They glared at each other—Aaliyah disgusted and Penny irritated—before going off to their separate rooms.

She shut the door this time, no longer needing to eavesdrop to know what happened to Brooke. She watched the shadows on her ceiling, heard Emily sneak into Aaliyah’s room, heard their near-nightly murmurings start up.

The two teens cried a few times, specifically about Brooke or about Aaliyah’s impending departure was not clear. Penny didn’t strain to listen. She was busy fighting relieved sobs, trying not to choke on the stream of tears falling into her ears.

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Shorter, but too long to include with the previous chapter. It's always way choppy because it worked better with Penny's emotional state verses a few random transition sentences. But, whew, this was a fast turn around on chapters, lol. Don't get used to that.

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August 29, 2026
DO.Penny.7

“And they’re still mad at me,” Penny said with a heavy sigh.

She was resting her head on her arms as they cushioned her from the hard, wooden back of the pew in front of her.

The handful of Spring Break days had passed with everyone giving her the cold shoulder. She had taken refuge in the library or the woods; she partly was hoping to catch a glimpse of the bigfoot again to get a better photo, but had zero luck.

The Lamberts had returned in a refreshed, happy mood that had quickly waned before the week finished. Aaliyah had been uncharacteristically subdued since the end of Spring Break, leaving Penny to get the brunt of the criticism and irritability.

The priest hummed from in front of her. There was no other comment.

“Well… I guess that’s all,” Penny said. “Anything about Aisling?”

“Unfortunately, no,” the priest said. “I admire how patient you’re being with this. It has gone beyond the length I estimated.”

“Yeah, by a month,” Penny said dryly. She sighed again. “I know advice isn’t really part of this, but what should I do about my friends? I’m having a really tough time getting a picture of the bigfoot, and they’re too mad to really focus on the footprint one.”

The priest twiddled his thumbs. There was something more anxious about it than absentminded.

“How are things with your friend Brooke,” he asked. “You didn’t mention her much during your story.”

“I didn’t mention her at all,” Penny said. “She was around sometimes, but didn’t hang out with me or anything like that. She keeps hanging around Aaliyah, and they make fun of me. Call me weird and a baby.” She scoffed. “I know they’re sending nudes. I’m not dumb. Everyone knows Aaliyah does it. And more with who knows.”

“Does she have that same teacher as Brooke?”

“She’s older, so no. I don’t think she was fostered with the Lamberts when she was fifth grade. Why?” She narrowed her green eyes at his noncommittal grunt answer. “Do you think I can get Brooke back to normal?” She slumped in her pew. “I miss having her as a friend. Maybe once she’s not in Mr. McBride’s class, she’ll want to be friends again. She is starting to freak out about the year ending. I could try being… I don’t know, sympathetic or whatever.”

“How is she freaking out,” the priest asked, tripping slightly on the youthful phrase.

“She keeps following Mr. McBride around all weepy and saying things about she needs him. Or something like that.”

“How does he react?”

“Sometimes annoyed. Sometimes friendly.” Penny leaned over the pew. “What’s with all the questions about Brooke? I’m having issues with the other guys now.”

There was a lapse of silence. If the church had been a proper, gothic style cathedral, it would have filled the silence with reverence and small echoes of unseen movement. Penny bounced her leg and opened her mouth to ask, again, if there was anything she could do, but the priest finally spoke.

“Are you familiar with the Cottingley Fairies,” he asked carefully. “I’ve learned about them since you showed me your photos.”

“Is it some kind of fairy study,” Penny asked.

He turned to face her. His weather face was concerned and mixed with something else Penny couldn’t put her finger on. It looked a bit like pity which raised her hackles.

“Penny… you’ve gone through much in so few years,” he said in a quiet, soothing tone. “Perhaps, using fantastical fibs is not the best way to relate to others?” He smiled sadly. “Or is it an elaborate way to create walls?”

“Wait… fibs?” Her eyes widened. “Lies? About what? What’s this have to do with my friends?” Her heart pounded. “Wh-what’s this have to do with that fairy study?” She threw herself back against her pew. “Y-you aren’t supposed to look when I’m doing confession!”

The priest hesitantly turned back to the front. “You’ve a wonderful imagination. God has a purpose for it, I’m sure of that, but God would not want you to use this gift in the manner that you’ve chosen.”

“I don’t—You think I’m lying too?” Her eyes stung, half from anger and half from the overwhelming feeling filling her chest. “You saw the photos!” She recoiled as he started to turn. “You can’t look!”

“Penny,” he said kindly, returning to facing forward, “you have a talent for taking pictures. That much has been made clear. I do not even see anything harmful with your pictures as long as you’re honest about them. You should try that with your friends instead of trying to force them to abandon sense.”

There was another long silence. Penny bit her lip to stop it from shaking.

“If that’s all,” the priest said, his tone now forced lightness, “how about five Hail—.”

Penny launched herself from the pew. She ignored the priest calling after her, ignored the pedestrian she ran into as she exited the church. Her eyes were blurry with hot tears that no amount of wiping stemmed.

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The rain outside distracted her from whatever it was the teacher was droning on about. She watched the raindrops slip down the window. Her mouth twitched at the will o’ the wisp bounding just inside the treeline.

“Penrose!” She straightened and faced forward. “Come do this problem, please.”

There were four different long division problems on the board. There was no way to know which the teacher had referred to. She hovered over the farthest left, eyeing the teacher for signs she was in the right spot.

“Look,” one of the boys yelled.

“Jeramiah, that’s—.”

“Mr. McBride is getting into a police car!”

Desks were shoved aside in the mad scramble as all the kids ran to the windows.

Mr. McBride was not being thrown in the back of a police car, but he was standing next to one talking to the two officers. He looked annoyed and panicky, keeping his arms tightly crossed and shifting his weight as he stood. After another minute–with the math teacher not even bothering to try to corral them–Mr. McBride climbed into the back of the police car, uncuffed, and freely.

“Okay, okay, back to math.” The teacher clapped to gain their attention. “In your seats.”

It was impossible for anybody then to focus on math after that, and the following classes were not much better, diverting into the teachers constantly shushing them and threatening demerits or other punishments as they buzzed to one another. Penny listened rather than participate in the wild rumors beginning to form. There was a sinking feeling in her stomach that deepened, especially whenever one rumor teased the English teacher had been caught dating a student, though names were not mentioned.

“I know our priest was asking parents about him,” a boy whispered in social studies. “He pulled my mom aside last Sunday to ask if I had him for English.”

“Mr. Walker,” Penny said, raising her hand, “I feel like I'm going to puke. Can I get the bathroom pass?”

After being told she was being gross, she was dismissed to the nurse’s office.

“I keep telling them the healthy lunches are poison,” the nurse said, irate. “Better off back with sloppy joes and hotdogs. Go lie down until it passes.”

Penny stared at the water stained ceiling. The office was fairly quiet with small sounds of the nurse’s pen scratching against paper and the random footsteps echoing from the hall.

She replayed over and over everything she had confessed to that priest. She told him all she had seen, heard, and her worries regarding Brooke and Mr. McBride. He pressed her for more information, and she’d been too stupid to think he was doing anything more than being an attentive listener.

She hadn't told him explicitly about the Realm, only showed him the pictures she had taken, and that was some relief.

Quick footsteps arrived on the other side of Penny’s curtain. “Kim! Did you hear about Tony?”

“Ssh! I have a patient,” the nurse hissed.

Penny rolled over in time with the newcomer’s steps as she joined the nurse at her desk. She watched their silhouettes on the curtain as they hunched together.

“Do you think he did it?”

“Probably,” the nurse said nonchalantly. “He zeros in on some wallflower girl every year. It always came across as fishing to me.”

“What about being nice because they're such sad-sacks?”

“No way. He gets too cold with them towards the end of the year. And then just stops talking to them completely once the new crop comes along. If he really cared, he'd check in on them. It's not like they switch schools or anything. It's easy enough to just ask how classes are going passing each other in the hall.”

“You think some foolish girl took the bait then?”

“Why not? He was bound to get at least one. He was so persistent. My bet is on that dreary looking girl that's been skipping after him all year. You know, the foster girl.”

“Poor thing never stood a chance.”

The two women started as Penny ripped back the curtain. She glowered at them as their embarrassment began to flush their faces. She said nothing and didn't wait around for them to apologize or defend themselves; she stormed from the office and quickly found herself outside the school.

It was too early to go back to the Lamberts, so she wandered off to the woods. She climbed up a tree and soaked in the sounds of the forest. Quiet tears slipped down her cheeks. 

It wasn’t exactly sadness she felt; it was more of a hopelessness than that. She had heard adults mutter about their rock bottom expectations of her and the other foster kids. There was a smouldering anger in her gut too as she replayed the conversation between the nurse and the other teacher. No one had even tried to stop Mr. McBride, and the way they spoke made it sound like Brooke was at fault.

Large, lumbering steps shook her tree. The bigfoot rooted below in the nearby bushes. She reached for her phone, stopped, and heaved a sigh as she sat straighter and watched.

“Of course you show up now,” she murmured to it. 

It raised its head, pausing, and then went back to searching. She waited until it moved on before descending.

The street lights were starting to flick on as she approached the Lambert house. It was later than when she usually arrived back, and she braced for the tirade that would come once she opened the door.

“It was you, wasn’t it?”

Penny froze as her heart missed a beat at the quiet address. It took a second to recognize it was Brooke’s voice, and another to find her in the darkening landscape. She was hovering by the hedge that separated their yards, her face obscured by her bangs and the growing dusk. The quaver in her voice was either tears or anger, and Penny could not decide which it was.

“What was—?”

“Don’t play dumb! You were jealous of Tony,” Brooke accused. “You’ve been weird about him forever, and you went blabbing, and now he’s in trouble!”

“Jealous?” Penny scoffed. “I was worried. He was a creep.”

“He was not!” Brooke choked on a sob. “H-he cared about me! He was the o-only one who did!”

“That’s not—.”

“Yes it is!” Brooke whimpered. “You ruined everything!”

She turned and ran for the Wilcox house before Penny could protest.

Penny teetered on the front step. The Wilcox couple did not like her coming around. It wouldn’t be a good idea to knock and ask for Brooke when they–and the Lamberts–were sitting down for dinner.

She walked in and immediately was assaulted with hysterics over how late she was, and dinner being on the table, and being ungrateful. The tantrum continued as she stood rooted to the stop, the exact words getting farther and farther as they turned to static.

“Penny,” Mrs. Lambert snapped. Her hands were on her hips, her eyes narrowed in intense dislike. “Are you listening to me? Answer me!”

Hot, burning rage rose from the pit in her stomach and up into her chest. She bristled as she soaked in the middle-aged woman’s glare. She grabbed the small, decorative table in the entryway full of family photos and threw it at Mrs. Lambert’s feet.

Mr. Lambert, Aaliyah, and Emily raced from the dining room to see what the commotion was; the two teenagers peeking around the corner with baited breath as the adults stared at the overturned table and the small girl. Mrs. Lambert looked shaken. Mr. Lambert was turning crimson but his mouth was unable to form words.

Penny huffed, fists balled up and shaking at her sides, her hackles still raised and teeth bared. She screamed–they flinched–and tore upstairs.

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Ah, the Cottingley Fairies. I remember learning about them as a pre-teen. It was a photographic hoax done by two cousins in England. They took 5 pictures of the younger cousin with "fairies" which were illistrated cutouts. I think the hoax was 1917-1922, but it wasn't until the 1980s (I think) that it was confirmed as a hoax. Since Penny tells the priest about the creatures in 2012, there isn't AI or even good editing on your phone, so this whole time his brain was breaking going "how?". And, since the teen phones in 2012 couldn't do videos, the pictures are stagnent making it easier to believe that Penny staged them.

There should be one more with Penny here. I was going to do a long chapter to wrap up this section, but I think it'd be too clunky.

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August 24, 2026
Sketchbook Musings: Ace Gallagher - Everything else!

I think this may be the last set! Locals only let me do so many at a time or it would give me an error, so here's all the random leftovers :)

A Tier half-transformed as a dracleon back in 2005.

Coronation, 2009

Prince Swift hs crowned and marked by blue fire!

I have made at least 2 attempts at drawing the Alan Parsons Project song "Snake Eyes"... this is one from 2011...

...And this one from 2013. I like aspects of both; maybe the layout of this one but mixed with the realism of the other? I need to study my cobra anatomy if I'm going to try again, hah.

Twila Sketch, unknown

Twila was a little shapeshifting dragon Ace picks up in the jousting book, but I've since replaced her with an owl :D Still a cool feathery dragon design!

And here's just an Ace with epic scarf. I just really like scarves. This was dated 2014!

Train in the Distance, 2014?

I'm not sure when I drew this, but it was when I first linked James to some backstory. Windmachine Guitar Duo has a song called "Train in the Distance" with lyrics that beautifully describe overcoming domestic violence, and since James was a newbie, he got it added to him. It also made me wonder how his speech impediment affected all that too. And who'd have known then Ace would get added to this family and go through it in his own way...

Ava Harley, 2016

Thanks to Tomodachi Life, I figured out James was going to have a daughter :D

And that's all that was in my file! Thanks for joining me on this exciting trip!

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