Firebrand Risk
P.Track.12
November 17, 2025

Mimi’s Cafe was one of the nicer restaurants in the Avenue’s area. It was loudly crowded for lunch with the red booths bursting and several dark tables moved together. The warm lighting and cream walls added extra cheer and comfort, allowing the crowds to be better tolerated on an otherwise wet, dreary day.

Nellie had donned a pleated skirt over some gray leggings. She wore an oversized checked sweater, and had half of her long, auburn waves tied up with a golden bow. She chewed her lip, twisting her hands nervously in the bottom of her sweater. She glanced over her shoulder to where Nathalie sat on the stuffed bench in the foyer meant for those waiting for a table.

“Still doing all right, hon,” the waitress asked, pausing. “Want anything else to drink?”

“No, water is fine, thank you,” Nellie said. She played with her lemon wedge. “There isn’t another part of the restaurant, is there? Like, another dining room in the back?”

“Sorry, hon,” the waitress said, smiling sympathetically. “I’m sure they’re just caught on the light at Honeylocust. Takes an age to turn.”

She nodded, trying to return the waitress’s smile but failing. She kept her focus on her lemon wedge, taking small sips of water for something to do. Her ears caught angry hisses, recognizing them. She twisted to look over her shoulder.

Nathalie was quietly berating Amias. She gestured angrily towards Nellie, causing Nellie to quickly spin back to the table or else be caught watching.

“Terribly sorry,” Amias said, rushing to fill the seat opposite. “The traffic is so much worse than expected for such a crumble of a town. Ah.” He tapped a passing server’s arm. “That blackboard says something about mimosas? Is that an all-day affair or–Never mind, just bring a pitcher.”

“Uh… sure,” the waiter said, looking around for anyone else to intervene. “What kind?”

“Beg pardon,” Amias asked.

“What kind of mimosa? The peach is–.”

“Dear boy, a mimosa is not so complex,” Amias said coolly. “And if you dare serve me a Bellini and say it’s a mimosa, I will take offence.”

“So… plain,” the server asked. He recoiled at Amias’s look. “I’ll go put that in for you.”

Amias had dark circles beneath his warm brown eyes that had not been there the previous day. His short black hair that somehow looked expensive was not as meticulous, and there was more shadow on his face than just his neat, thin moustache. He picked apart a roll from the basket recently placed, half eating it and completely destroying it.

Nellie quickly propped up a menu as his eyes shifted toward her. “I had the baked brie before,” she said. “I might get that again.”

“An appetizer as a meal,” Amias said, taking a glance at the menu. “How… frugal.” He peered at her plastic cup of water. “I’m treating you, my lamb. Order yourself a drink full of sweetness and caffeine to go with whatever meal you desire.” He perked up. “Ah, alcohol!” He took the pitcher of mimosa from the waitress. “A glass like my goddaughter’s would be preferred. Less fill ups.”

Sure,” the waitress said, sounding anything but. She took the flute, eyeing Amias warily before smiling at Nellie. “Know what you want, hon?”

“Um, a lemonade and I’ll try the bacon and seafood pasta,” Nellie said timidly.

“Bacon with shrimp,” Amias said, wrinkling his nose. He offered no further comment. “What is this jambalaya pasta? That sounds adventurous. I’ll give that a go. Oh,” he flipped to the back, “and the bread pudding, lava cake, and toffee butter cake for after.” He looked at Nellie. “Does your aunt like salmon?”

“Yes,” Nellie said.

“Place an order for the salmon citrus salad for takeaway, if you would,” Amias said. “That woman glaring daggers at me from your foyer will need to eat.”

The waitress kept her customer service smile frozen, her eyes on her notepad as she jotted down the massive order. She scurried off. It was a waiter that dropped off Amias’s large, plastic cup without a word or any interaction.

Nellie watched him gulp at his mimosa, frowning. He was not as put together as yesterday, and yesterday included an encounter with an unhappy Ash.

“Are you staying in Murfreesboro,” Nellie asked.

“Yes, in fact,” Amias said, refilling his cup. “I’m renting a townhouse. Charming unit. I wasn’t expecting to find such a comfort.”

“So… you slept okay then,” Nellie asked awkwardly, allowing Amias to see she was scanning him up and down.

Amias smirked wryly. He took a short sip of his mimosa, redirecting his attention to the server bringing the food. He directed the placement with friendly relish, and took his time placing his napkin on his lap and deciding between his fork and spoon.

Nellie was relieved the combination of bacon, shrimp, and crab turned out as tasty as she suspected.

“Are you staying for a while,” Nellie asked.

“No,” Amias said. “I’ll leave tonight, tomorrow at the latest.”

“And you rented a whole townhouse,” Nellie asked.

“I’m a spoiled creature.” He gave her hand a pat. “We’ll walk around this shopping district a tad. I will answer your questions.”

“Do you know what happened to Ira,” Nellie asked without missing a moment. “He’s not even looking at my messages.”

Amias still wore his smile, but there was an edge to it. He had a similar reaction yesterday; he was dismissive of Ira and his father. He took his time picking through his jambalaya, and took another long sip of his drink.

“I cannot speak much to what he’s up to or where he is,” Amias said.

“He said he was searching for his mother, and that she was a dragon, and so was mine,” Nellie said bluntly.

“Ah, yes, that,” Amias said. “This meal is spicer than expected. I may need another drink….” He flagged down the nearest waiter, ordering a single mimosa and a glass of water. He nursed the cup before him while he waited, and clearly to keep himself occupied.

Nellie drummed her fingers on the table, narrowing her blue eyes at him.

“Ah, that looks more like the Commander,” Amias said. His smile wavered when Nellie did not take the bait. “My meager understanding of it is that he is indeed searching for his mother.” His eyes fell. “Elspeth Plantagenet was… a figure of great renown. Her disappearance has been troubling.”

“Disappearence, or dragoning,” Nellie asked.

“To that I cannot attest,” Amias said.

“Dragons are real then,”Nellie breathed.

Amias laughed lightly, his eyes following the waiter returning with the requested drinks while the waitress brought the desserts. “Of course not,” Amias dismissed. “Creatures of fantasy! Unless you count those monstrous lizards at the local zoo.” He continued to laugh in a polite manner, abruptly stopping and leaning over the table as the servers walked off. “They are real. So very, very real.”

Her face lit with a beaming grin. She gave a small squeal, wiggling in her seat. Ira was far too serious to just lie about dragons, or use them to describe something abstract.

“Then… my mother–?”

“Yes,” Amias said, holding up his head to stop her from speaking it out loud in a crowded restaurant. “In fact, what happened to Brue was the missing piece to what happened regarding–.” He flipped his hand about as if unwilling to once more speak the name Elspeth Plantagenet. “How exactly this–” he paused, eyes rolling up as he searched for the proper term– “situation befell your mother is still unknown. Magic of some like, I suspect. But, the knowledge that it happened to her did solve the question of what happened to… the other woman. Or what we suspect happened to her.”

“Why are you being weird about saying her name,” Nellie asked.

“She is of some note,” Amias said. “I do not wish to invite people to eavesdrop.”

“Um… this is the middle of Tennessee in the US. People don’t know or care about Europeans.”

His lip curled. “Quite.” He slid the lava cake towards her. “Cut into that, my dear, and make sure it’s proper.”

She happily obliged, though she would have eaten it even if it did not pour forth liquid ganache. She tested the taste, smiling at the dark chocolate goodness not being sickeningly sweet.

“What other questions have you for me,” Amias asked, helping himself to a forkful of bread pudding. “Your mother’s condition is correct. How she came by it I do not know. I believe those were the looming ones.”

“And if you knew what was up with Ira,” Nellie added.

“Which I don’t,” Amias said. “I assume he is off doing this mother searching as you believe. I also assume he’s unharmed. Heaven help those who strive to harm the little prince.” Amias rolled his eyes. “Though his mother had more snarl, his father is nothing to look lightly upon.”

“You don’t like Ira, do you,” Nellie asked. She held the lava cake up. “Taste this.”

“Like,” Amias chuckled, bemused. “What a notion! I merely have opinions on his family and he’s a key part of that family.”

There was nothing about Clayborne York that struck Nellie as something a person would form an opinion on. He owned two bed and breakfast locations that had excellent reviews, and a hotel that only had thirty rooms. It was enough for a decent income, Nellie knew the hotel at least was in a desirable area just outside of London so would see the rooms full nearly year round, but it was not anywhere close to being an empire with influence and opinions.

The hostility–opinions–may have come from Clayborne York training with the Order of Ferblanc, but that was too petty. Ira said his father only trained with them and never joined whereas Rhys joined, and climbed the ranks enough to be tapped as a commander in his new job. Amias did not seem to dislike her father, but that could have been fondness for her mother.

He was odd about Ira’s mother. Nellie had not looked into her, only finding spare moments to glimpse Clayborne’s information. His profiles were few and far with only the sparse information about his little properties, though it was mentioned he was married with one child when a personal life section was included.

“Ah,” Amias said, staring beyond Nellie. “Your aunt has retreated to eat her meal. Excellent! And the toffee butter cake is still untouched. Very good.” He abruptly stood, and downed the rest of his single mimosa. “I’ll return shortly.”

“O-okay,” Nellie stammered.

She slumped as Amias headed towards the bathrooms, understandable with the amount of liquid he had consumed. She twisted to see that Nathalie indeed was not sitting on the bench in the foyer any longer. She craned her neck, rising slightly from her seat to see if she could find her to no avail. She poked at the bread pudding with a frown. This meal was much more than she had on her. Hopefully Amias was not trying to ditch out.

A boy dropped into Amias’s seat. He grabbed the toffee butter cake, stabbed it, and hungrily ate a bite.

Nellie blinked in surprise, as if trying to make sure there really was a pre-teen boy that appeared and was eating her dessert. She looked around the dining room for anyone that might be missing a kid, but no one so much as looked in their direction.

“Excuse me,” Nellie said. “You’re at the wrong–.”

“I’m Morgan,” he said, swallowing his next large bite roughly. 

The way he spoke his name indicated English was not his first language, but he was still a native speaker. It was too slight to be firmly labeled an accent, and Nellie would not have noticed it if she was not familiar with accents generally.

Morgan chewed, closing his hazel eyes in pleasure. He had a warm complexion a few shades darker than her lightly tanned. His hair looked black inside Mimi’s, but she suspected it was just very dark brown, though she could not say why. He wore it longer to cover his ears, but not long enough to touch his shoulders. It was cut jagged but somehow came across as expensive, styled, and cool which went with his shirt that was European in style and name.

Morgan’s fork clattered on the empty plate. He dabbed his mouth daintily. “I was famished! Hope you weren’t wanting any.” He leapt to his feet. “Let’s go before your aunt returns to her post.”

“Go? What? The bill–,” Nellie said lamely, standing.

“Amias is taking care of it,” Morgan said.

“But–?”

“We won’t go far,” Morgan said. “Just over to the shopping district. Come on, hurry up!”

She followed Morgan, shooting her waitress a bashful smile as she slipped by her for the door. She stole a look back but did not see Amias reappearing to pay the bill. Her insides twisted with guilt, but she kept pace with Morgan out the doors and into the full parking lot.

The dark clouds hung low and ominous over them, cooling the low 70s temperature. She crossed her arms tightly and looked around the parking lot, spotting the Crown Victoria just around the corner. She could not see through the windshield from that angle, but assumed Nathalie was inside finishing up the lunch Amias bought.

“Why’re you just standing there,” Morgan asked, trotting for the busy road that separated Mimi’s Cafe from the big parking lots for the Avenues shopping center. “There’s a break in traffic. Hurry!”

Nellie sprinted after him, crossing the street into the parking lot. Fat, cold rain drops started to fall, the frequency picking up until it was thick and steady. She hugged her wet sweater to herself as she found herself on the sidewalk under the awning in front of the import store.

Morgan put his hands into his hair, shaking the rain from it. He slicked it back off his forehead, and Nellie was struck by the difference. He looked more mature, more noble, and a bit cold. There was something else that had her staring hard, but she could not figure it out. Something to do with his smile or his eyes.

“You’re staring,” Morgan said.

“I am,” Nellie said unflinchingly. She stared more obviously, ducking slightly to look directly at his face. “There’s something off about you.”

“OMG, Perenelle?”

She flinched, straightening, and putting on a happy face for Emma, Sophia, and Olivia. They were all semi-dressed up just as she was. Emma had her shiny blonde hair in a carefully crafted messy bun, wearing tan UGG boots and tight, black leggings. Sophia wore her darker shade of blonde in a high ponytail with a claw-clip meant to look like a piece of sushi. Olivia’s curly hair was in a chunky braid that curled over the shoulder of her cropped sweatshirt.

“Hey, guys,” Nellie said. “Where’s Ava?”

“She just headed for the bookstore a minute ago,” Sophia said, her eyes scanning Morgan with great interest.

“I thought you said you didn’t feel good,” Olivia said with a hint of accusation. “We invited you. Did you have something better to do?”

“Clearly,” Morgan said. He smirked impishly. “I’m her cousin. Flew in last night.”

Nellie whipped around so fast she gave himself whiplash.

Amias told her that she inherited Brue’s smile. Brue and her brother probably had the same smile, and he passed it to Morgan. It was the similarity that caused her pause; the smile and the shape of their eyes were the same.

“Amias brought you,” Nellie breathed.

“Not exactly,” Morgan said. “I heard he was coming to visit and followed.” He looked at the three girls pointedly. “I’m stealing her away for the day. It’s been ages since we’ve seen each other.”

“Oh, sure, of course,” Sophia said hastily, ushering the other two towards the edge of the awning. “Text us tonight, Perenelle!”

“We’ve got to hang out before break is over,” Emma added.

The three of them psyched themselves up and darted into the rain.

“You’re my cousin,” Nellie hissed.

“Who else would I be?” He shook his hair again so that it hung in its lazy mop. “Come on, let’s waste some time before Amias and your aunt find us.”

She followed Morgan into World Market, shaking her sweater sleeves vainly against the damp that seeped into them. They wound their way through the nonsensical shelving in the middle of the store–displaying whatever was seasonal–to the snacks and food stuffs in the back.

Morgan picked up a chocolate hazelnut spread from Spain, turning the glass jar over with boredom. “Do you go by Nellie or Perenelle,” he asked.

“I guess both,” she said. “Or… Nellie, but I never told anyone it was okay to call me that since moving here.”

“I’ll call you Nellie then.” He put the chocolate hazelnut spread back, picking up lemon curd. “I’m just Morgan.”

“Not Regere jr,” Nellie asked.

Morgan snickered but did not seem amused. He put the lemon curd back, turning completely to browse the shelves of cookies crammed at their back. “He would send regards if he knew I was here.”

Nellie picked up a package of Jammie Dodgers. She frowned at the price, waivered, and took a more possessive grip. She would need something comforting after ditching Nathalie, and she could bribe her into a better mood with a few.

“Where do you live,” Nellie asked. She flushed at Morgan’s incredulous look. “What am I supposed to ask you then? There’s too much!”

“Lisbon,” Morgan said. He gave a shrug. “Well, mostly.”

“Mostly?”

“Six to nine months out of the year,” he said.

She gave it a few seconds, but Morgan did not seem interested in elaborating. “How come? Divorced parents?” 

“Hardly,” he said. He waved flippantly. “Work travels. It’s tedious. Give me your phone a minute. Unlocked, please.”

“Why,” she asked suspiciously, taking her phone out of her skirt pocket and holding it close.

“So I can add myself to your contact list.”

“Why don’t you give me your unlocked phone,” Nellie said.

“It’s at the townhouse,” Morgan said. “I make it a habit to never have it while I'm out.” He smirked. “Harder to track that way. May I?”

She reluctantly unlocked her phone and handed it over. She hovered next to Morgan, popping up on her toes to gain another inch on him.

“Pretty dog,” Morgan murmured, navigating away from the homepage screen.

“Smoke wolf,” Nellie corrected.

“Canidae,” Morgan retorted, handing back her phone.

They stood in awkwardness, silence between them deafening them to the rain pounding on the metal roof and the noise of the store filled with people perusing the wares. Nellie had been truthful when she said she was not sure what to ask him, and Morgan for his part was not very forthcoming.

“Oh,” Nellie exclaimed, causing her cousin to jump. “The clearance snacks are back here. It’s good for trying some really random stuff.”

“Clearence… as in expired,” Morgan asked, raising his dark eyebrows.

“It’s not rotten or anything,” Nellie dismissed.

She circled to the back of the shelves with Morgan on her heels. She crouched, tip-toed, and bobbed around the assorted snacks while Morgan turned his back to browse the tea selection against the wall.

“There isn’t such a grand selection,” Morgan commented. “Suppose having any loose leaf in this country is progress.”

“Another tea snob in the family,” Nellie joked. Then she clarified, “My uncle is very English about his tea.”

“So is our shared grandfather from the little I remember of him,” Morgan said.

Nellie fumbled her Jammie Dodgers. “He’s dead!”

“What, no,” Morgan said, scowling. “What a leap! No, he just doesn’t like me. Doesn’t visit any. I was probably seven the last time I saw him.”

“How old are you now,” Nellie asked. She fumed at Morgan’s sly expression and exasperated head shake. “You aren't giving me a lot to work with, cous!”

“Eleven; yes, you’re older,” Morgan said. “Not by much. Don’t swell your head over it.”

It made a bit more sense why he was grating her nerves the more time they spent together with this knowledge. The only disappointment was that it was more likely he was only shorter because of his younger age, although that was not such a big deal. It just highlighted she was older and more mature no matter his jetsetting lifestyle in Europe.

Nellie abandoned the clearance shelves. There was nothing interesting. She meandered towards the drinks wall with Morgan hovering behind her. She pursed her lips to fight against a smile; her little cousin was in unfamiliar territory and was sticking close.

“Want me to buy you a soda,” Nellie asked.

“I’d love a strong tea after that sweet cake, actually, but all they have for pre-brewed are those Asian milk teas you find in the vending machines,” Morgan said.

“They might have the bottled green tea in stock,” Nellie said optimistically. “That cuts the sweet well. It’d be over here with the fancy waters and soda.”

“That sounds promising,” Morgan said. “Thanks… unless they don’t have any. Then–.” He shrugged.

The way the drinks were shelved did not make much sense to her, so she set about bobbing and weaving to search for the bottled green tea. The jasmine was in stock–also quite bitter and strong–but the flowery aftertaste was not at all what Morgan had in mind.

“I should ask; do you know what happened to Ira? I can’t get a hold of him,” Nellie said. “Amias assumes he’s off looking for his mom, but he was here looking for her and still used his phone. He’s not even reading my messages.”

“Maybe you’re irritating him,” Morgan said. He picked up a pineapple ramune soda with interest. “I don’t really speak to him, nor he to me.”

“Why,” Nellie asked. “Seems good to keep close to others who know about magic, and dragons, and cryptids.”

Morgan grinned. “The world is large, dear cousin. So much larger than a handful of people.” He looked between the pineapple ramune in his right hand and the melon one in his left. “Have you tried any of these? They look fun.”

“I’ve had the melon,” Nellie said.

“Then the pineapple,” Morgan decided, placing the melon back. “You can try a sip since you're paying for it.”

“That won’t cut any sweetness leftover from that cake.”

“So I shall suffer, but it’s of my choosing.” He handed her the soda. “Amias is probably right. I’m sure he’s fine. I would not be terribly surprised if he was being kept busy by his father. He does have a lot on his plate, as the saying is.”

Nellie chose a lychee ramune with the thought of allowing Morgan a sip. They headed towards the check-out, hugging the wall where all the dishes, glassware, and utensils were displayed. They got sidetracked by the crazy array of coffee mugs, snickering snidely at the on-the-nose feminist ones shaped like chubby torsos with words like ‘beautiful’ or ‘powerful’ painted on the front.

“Oh, I got another question,” Nellie said. “Do you know Penny?”

“Penny,” Morgan said, scrunching his face. “Can’t say that’s familiar. Why?”

“Ira talked to her a lot,” Nellie said. She laughed. “Me and my… we thought maybe she was his girlfriend but he always pretended not to hear us when we asked.”

“She probably is then.” He grinned wickedly. “That’s too good!”

The line was long and the registers slow. They eyed the extra stuff near the register, all various forms of useless but enticing in their novelties. Nellie had to remind Morgan a few times they were only getting the sodas and Jammie Dodgers as he pawed over the items. She carefully typed Nathalie’s number into the card reader, trying to keep the numbers straight.

“Amias said you guys were leaving tonight,” Nellie murmured.

“He was rather frantic when I showed up last night,” Morgan said offhandedly. “Suppose he would cut his visit short to get me back.” He spun to her so quickly that the cashier startled. “Let’s skeeve tomorrow!”

“Ditch what,” Nellie asked, handing a ten to the cashier. “I’m on break. I can do what I want. …Within reason.”

“You must be as curious about his highness looking for his mother here, of all places, as I am,” Morgan said. “Why don’t we do a bit of sleuthing? Maybe it’ll answer where he is? Or maybe he’s even here again but not wanting to get sidetracked away from his quest like the last time.” His eyes were sparkling. “Do you have any idea–?”

“Perenelle Herle!”

This time Nellie and Morgan joined the cashier in jumping out of their skins. Nathalie stood tall with the automatic doors open to her back, rainwater streaming off her. Her blue eyes blazed. Her hands were clenched into shaking fists at her sides.

Amias flitted in behind her as she stormed up to the counter. He held his arms out, allowing them to drip, looking much like a half drowned cat–exhausted and wild.

“How dare you run off like that,” Nathalie fumed. “I was completely sick with worry!” Morgan gulped as Nathalie rounded on him. Her face softened only slight enough for Nellie to notice. “Mr. Baig will see to you.”

Nellie took her change and receipt from the cashier, not meeting her stare or answering her mutter to have a nice day, as she stuffed them in her shopping bag.. Her face burned with embarrassment now that the shock of Nathalie’s intervention wore off. She dashed after Nathalie without a word.

Nathalie had pulled the pearlescent Crown Vic up to the store. It had both front doors open, windshield wipers going, and hazards blinking. She had clearly some idea as to where Nellie would wander off to. Amias must have done what he could to delay her. It surely added to her fury.

“Get in,” Nathalie ordered, dropping into the driver’s seat and slamming the door.

Nellie could see the rest of her Spring Break evaporating right before her eyes.

“Nellie,” Morgan called, rushing into the rain.

“Master Morgan,” Amias pleaded, staying beneath the awning.

Nellie paused with her foot on the car. The seat was soaked already, a few minutes more would not matter. She found bitter tears falling from her eyes, grateful for the rain hiding this from her young cousin.

“Perenelle,” Nathalie said sharply.

“Master Morgan, please, come away,” Amias begged. “She’s gotten in enough trouble.”

Morgan pointedly ignored Amias. He gave Nathalie a cool glance down to where she sat, and wrapped his arms around Nellie in a hug that felt completely calculated and not at all affectionate. In her ear, he whispered, “Text me later, and we’ll work out tomorrow’s plans.” Then, he pulled away and returned to Amias, declaring, “I'm soaked though, Amias; how dare you let me get so!”

Nellie slumped in her wet seat. She pulled out the Jammie Dodgers, peeking at Nathalie from the sides of her eyes. She cleared her throat, flinching at the glare Nathalie shot her.

“Want a Jammie Dodger?”

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I like Mimi's. They had one in FL not far from one of the houses we lived at, and was happy to see one in Murfreesboro. It's French/Louisiana-French food mostly. I've had the baked brie 2 or 3 times. So tasty. (We had brie in the house with some regularity since I was small, and in Australia I used to do brie and crackers for the cabin/camp. Haven't done a baked brie yet.) And, yes, the Honeylocust light takes forever! When I'd get caught at it going to the groomer, I knew I'd be a minute+ late.

Elspeth goes by Elsie. Amias either doesn't know or feels weird calling her that. I had 'Elsie Plantaneget' written down before I looked to see what Elsie was short for: Elizabeth or the Scottish version Elspeth/Elsbeth. I thought the 'p' was weirder, so went with that one.

I've always really, really liked the name Morgan and at one point thought I'd name my kid that, but as I got older I started liking it less for a girl and more for a boy. I did have it on my list for middle names if I had a boy. I'm not sure if it'll still be there after all this is done, lol.

World Market is the import store I'm always going to. Somtimes they do have really cringe things like those feminist mugs. When they get stuff like that, they put them front and center for a few weeks, and you later find a bunch in clearence months later. This is a store where someone started talking to Minnie, asked how old to me, and since she was exactly number of months because it was the 21st I said X months today, and the lady goes omg a leo, and that was not considered odd for that place. That type of store. Fun people watching.

This is the longest chapter so far. And why it was finished now and not on Saturday like I was thinking it would be.

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September 03, 2026
There But For the Grace of God

Original Song by Eric Woolfson & Alan Parsons
From the Freudiana album
Vocal cover by Jill D'Entremont

No one is an island, no one born alone
No man can turn the tide of fortune on his own
Though some may bravely try...

Say there but for the grace of God go you, my friend
Say there but for the grace of God go I...

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This has always been one of my favorites from the Freudiana album, with absolutely incredible vocal by John Miles that I only hope I can measure up a fraction to. And, because this is me, I added a billion more backing vocals while I was at it :)

2 hours ago
DO.Penny.16

Penny had never seen a mansion until arriving at Silas Javernick’s compound. It was somehow more unlike a house than the group homes and facilities she had been in while being the most homey place she had ever been.

She had an enormous bedroom with a queen sized canopy bed–that she never drew the curtains on because it made her feel suffocated–and a giant picture window that faced the stables. The decor was vaguely feminine without the frills, and she was told by Mrs. Adams upon arrival that she could swap out things as she wished, but had yet to take advantage of that.

There being stables was a feature that put the mansion outside of the house feel. Hodge had been captured and carted to the compound with her, and now resided in a large box stall that was always kept with fresh shavings and clean water. He was turned out in the small, attached paddock periodically, but mostly kept indoors. His adjustment was going bumpier than Penny’s.

Her stitches were gone. Her nightmares had started to calm down. A month came and went before she knew it, and the only source of disquiet now what that she had yet to meet Silas Javernick. Her only contact was with Mrs. Adams who acted as the caretaker and her lessons master. She no longer had to go to school and try fitting in, but found the workload much more intense. She had regular lessons about creatures and the history of the Realm alongside regular subjects. There was a big focus on unicorn lore and handling.

“Mr. Javernick will return tonight,” Mrs. Adams said, jarring Penny from a medieval tapestry. “He is quite eager to meet you. I want you in that blue set I sent aside for the occasion.”

Penny hummed to indicate she heard and understood. Her eyes dropped back to the tapestry recreation of the penned up unicorn. The burning question she had ever since meeting Mrs. Adams boiled to the surface.

She cleared her throat, aiming for nonchalance, saying, “He knew my mother, right? He’s not… not my father… is he?”

“Of course not,” Mrs. Adams said without hesitation. “How absurd. Now, if you’ve finished analyzing, put that away and be dismissed. I expect an accurate description and interpretation tomorrow by lunch.”

The rest of the day was spent wandering through the garden surrounded by a picket fence and grooming Hodge. She was allowed to use whatever she wanted to keep him clean and happy, and was given old remedies for hoof polish and mane conditioning to try out. Some of these were strange enough that she posted pictures of them, and whatever worked or didn’t work she was sure to do before and after shots. Those had a surprising following on their own, and she saw her follower count climb to fifteen million. Not that she paid much attention to it.

There was never a high from gaining followers, but whatever happy little blips she had felt had evaporated around the time of that horrific camping trip. Life was more fragile and fleeting than she had grasped; Beth-Ann, Aaliyah, and even Brooke had shown her that.

“It was never about believe or not,” Penny muttered, combing Hodge’s neck. “I was a bored little kid with a phone and a unicorn. I’m not responsible if people believe in you or not.” She packed away her brushes and gave him a hearty pat. “I know it’s fenced in, but you should try going outside more. It’s not your glade, but it’s better than shot and dissected.” She booped his velvet nose. “I have to go look nice for this Javernick guy. I guess a snob is better than a pedophile….”

The blue outfit–a royal blue knee-length skirt, pale blue blouse with a ruffled collar, jacket in royal blue and navy houndstooth–was set out on her bed when she returned to her room. She stared at it, examining each article, for far longer than needed. It took even longer to put it all on. She caught the briefest glimpse of herself in her vanity mirror, stomach twisting, and sat on the edge of her bed out of sight of the mirror.

The sky outside streaked red and died away into inkiness as she sat, staring down at where the hem of her skirt met her knees. She jolted as a knock sounded on her door, and cringed as Mrs. Adams’s disapproving stare floated across her mind.

“It-it’s unlocked,” she called.

A short, stout man entered. He set his twinkling blue eyes on Penny, and gave her a warm, easy smile. Despite the friendliness he exuded, she recoiled as he approached, drawing up her feet onto her bed and taking care that her skirt was plastered down.

“It’s good to finally see you, Penrose. May I come closer?” He approached on her shrug but kept a few feet of distance, and did not dare to attempt to sit. His smile broadened, but there was something other than friendliness and joy in his face. “My goodness… you look a great deal like Keena. Aisling said you did, but I still wasn’t prepared.”

Slowly, she lowered her feet. “You talked to Aisling?”

“I did. She reached out about a year ago asking for help in finding you. Apparently, there was a priest that had been asking around after her, said he knew you, but when she was able to get leave to see you, you were no longer in the area.”

Her lip shook as tears fell from her eyes. That priest had tried to help after all. He had not only used her to get information about Brooke and Mr. McBride. She buried her face in her hands, choking on a sob.

“I had Mrs. Adams send word to her the moment you arrived. Once she has leave again, she’ll visit. I don’t expect you’ll need to wait long.”

“My goodness me!” Mrs. Adams stood in the doorway, looking scandalized. “Mr. Javernick, what on earth are you doing here? Your dinner is growing cold.”

“Now, now, Mrs. Adams; it can be reheated.”

“All the same, sir, I’d rather not,” Mrs. Adams said sternly. “Penrose, dry those eyes and head downstairs. You two can get acquainted over a hot meal.”

Dinner was some kind of fancy steak wrapped in pie crust. Penny ate her portion in no time, earring disapproving throat clearing from Mrs. Adams the entire time. The old woman’s quick tongue had apparently been stopped by the presence of her boss at the table; he did not give Penny’s lack of manners a single glance.

“Mrs. Adams said you knew my mother,” Penny said after she caught her breath from gobbling her meal.

“I did,” Silas Javernick said, daintily picking through his own dinner. “We were great and constant friends for a decade.” He smiled down at his plate.

Penny lowered her silver chalice of water. “...Were?”

“Are,” Silas said hastily.

Her heart dropped into her stomach. Something had happened when she was around twelve. She had understood Aisling was never a candidate for guardianship due to her vows, and with the rest of the Fox family dead, that left only her mother. Until two years ago when the caseworkers started bringing up foster for adoption.

“Mr. Javernick?”

“Silas. If you’d like.”

“Mr. Javernick… What happened to my mother?”

He set aside his fork and knife. “Mrs. Adams, I think a cup of tea in the small parlor is in order.” He stood–Mrs. Adams staggering with difficulty to do the same–and smiled down at Penny. “Shall we?”

It was a bit of a show just to be sat down and told her mother was dead, but Penny humored him and allowed herself to be led off to the small parlor. She wasn’t sure what made a parlor a parlor and not a living room, and had a brief wonder how many of these random living rooms were really called something else as she sat into a worn, over-stuffed leather chair.

“Thank you,” Silas said, taking the tea from Mrs. Adams. “You can retire for the night. You’ve well earned the extra rest.”

The elderly woman let out a disgruntled huff at the suggestion and stalked off to the best of her ability.

“Well then, Penrose, where to start? I’m sure your aunt told you many stories already.”

“Aisling didn't like to talk about Keena,” Penny said. “She told me more generic things, like she was the oldest and sensitive to magic, but not a mage.”

“Magic is strong in your family,” Silas said, nodding. “Your grandfather and aunt both had the gift. I believe all members, your dear late grandmother too, had sensitivity to it….” He traced his finger on the teacup handle. “Your mother was… something else. A phenom; that’s what we called her.”

Aisling could do magic. That was far more phenomenal than being able to sense it, no matter how strong the sensitivity was.

“You know, you and I have been connected from your start,” Silas said, smiling fondly. “I was always hoping to meet you.”

Her heart missed a beat. “M-Mrs. Adams said you weren’t my father.”

His jovial face darkened. He looked into his cup, swirled it, and sipped. There was a pause after with him continuing to stare into his now empty cup before he took a breath and set his eyes once more on her.

“Your father was not a nice man,” Silas said frankly. He set his cup aside and draped his arms on the chair’s arms. “I helped your mother put you in care. And, I kept tabs on you for her up until the state meddled.”

Penny blinked, her eyes narrowing in a glare. Silas spoke about her going into the system, of helping put her there, as if it was a great accomplishment.

“You…,” she started, speaking slowly and carefully, “helped my mother give me away?” Heat rose in her chest. “And, you think that was… good?”

The hint of a smile that had started returning when talking about him helping Keena get rid of her fell away.

“She never wanted to,” Silas said.

“Oh, so, you talked her into it,” Penny said scathingly. “Good to know.”

“It was to keep you safe,” Silas said. “Your mother—.”

“Keep me safe,” Penny spat. She launched to her feet. “Didn’t Mrs. Adams tell you where she got me? Did you know why I was in jail? Aaliyah could’ve been me. Brooke. Beth-Ann. Even Paige, getting ready to age out with a big, dark nothing on her horizon.”

“Penrose—.”

“No!” 

She felt the tears coming, and stormed for the exit. He would not get to see her cry. She stopped, whirling back now that the distance was safe enough he wouldn’t catch on.

“You were a terrible friend to force her to get rid of me,” she growled. “I hope she realized that before she died.”

“She’s not dead.”

Penny stuttered in her exit upon those words. Hesitantly, she looked back at Silas, waiting. She crossed her arms huffily, glowering at his gesture to sit back down.

“I don’t expect Aisling to have told you why you were given up,” Silas said. “No, likely not with you being only nine when you were separated. I expect she stuck to the histories of the Holy Cor and Knights of Ferblanc.” He cleared his throat as Penny continued staring with zero give. “As I was saying, your mother was considered a phenom; people like that are a rare sort. They change things. A place. People. Everything, if you let them. And, others are drawn to them. …Good and bad types.”

She had questions starting to build, but was not ready to play into Silas’s conversation.
“So? What’s any of that got to do with her not being dead?”

“I don’t believe she is,” Silas clarified.

Penny’s hackles rose. “Goodnight.” She spun on her heel and stormed off.

She was halfway up the grand staircase before turning around. She ran out onto the grounds, making a beeline for the stables. She hunkered down in Hodge’s stall, cozying up to the unicorn and burying herself in the clean shavings. His deep, sleepy breathing lulled her to sleep.

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It's a short one, but I didn't want to jump into another scene with the length of this. I thought Silas would get to say more about Keena before Penny broke off the conversation, but it didn't work out that way. You meet Nellie first, so meet Silas first through her, but he has more connection with Penny/Keena. A big connection being he was the person that helped Keena give Penny up, and then helped get Aisling assigned to the group home to watch over her. (He was also friendly with Keena and Aisling's mother, in the way that you're friendly with a good neighbor and might have a cup of coffee with them outside on nice days.)

That unnamed priest really was trying to help Penny find Aisling. He was multitasking in helping turn in Mr. McBride. I almost had him try to mention something about someone getting back to his requests the last time you see him, but I think it would've messed up the timeline too much, so left that out. Aisling would've been individually reprimanded in addition to St. Brigid's being investigated due to her sometimes obvious favoritism towards Penny. That, plus her being part of the Holy Cor and not really a Marian nun, would've made things complicated, convoluted, and drawn out. I lost track of times/dates in my head a bit, but it should be about five years between Penny being removed from Aisling and the Holy Cor to right now.

I guess the only other note is to say that the fancy steak in a pie crust is beef wellington. I'm 100% sure Mrs. Adams told Penny that's what it was called, likely tells her what each part of every meal is called as part of her refinement lessons, but that Penny ignored her so just had 'fancy steak in a pie crust' in her mind. (Sidenote: beef wellington is made with puff pastry not pie crust, but when I made it I used pie crust since I had no puff pastry, lol.)

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October 29, 2026
DO.Penny.15

An ear-splitting scream rang out across the house; Penny throwing herself into a sitting position, drenched in cold sweat. Her shaking hand went to the large, bandaged bite beneath her pajamas, feeling the small bumps of the stitching.

The bedroom was plain and of a modest size with just one window. Pre-dawn gray light was beginning to shine through, washing out the sharp corners of the walls. It was a cold, listless room, but familiar in that Penny had used it before when the Sizemores watched her during her time with the Lamberts. Comfort was still not a word that came to mind despite this familiarity.

There was no more sleep to squeeze out with her nightmare coming so soon to sunrise. She stared at her blank ceiling, mouthing what she could remember of a mantra, prayer, or hymn that Aisling used to repeat to her over and over when she was small. She stayed put until she was certain breakfast was well underway downstairs.

“You need to work on those nightmares,” Mrs. Sizemore said crossly, setting cold cereal on the table. “Trauma or no, we have jobs we need to get up for.”

“Don’t think seeing a girl’s guts all spread around is an easy get over,” Aaliyah muttered under her breath, further covering her comment with a long drink of coffee.

Penny and her briefly met each other’s eyes before continuing with breakfast in silence.

Her fostering by the Sizemores had been delayed a week to treat her injury, be debriefed by police and rangers, to start off on therapy, and to be sure the Sizemores still wanted to deal with her now that she had extra baggage (and a smaller stipend with new expenses resulting from that baggage). Whether Aaliyah was explicitly told what had happened, or if she overheard something, she had been giving Penny a pass on her usual bullying. She was not nice to her in any regard, mainly ignoring her, but in ways Penny appreciated that more.

Her friends at school, and Colton, wanted to hear all the details, ask how she was, but there was an unspoken rule between all of them not to bring it up. It felt stagnant between them, and as if everyone was trying too hard not to pull away into other groups or activities to escape the crushing lapses of awkward silences.

There was the tiniest highlight of Colton now avoiding her as much as she had been avoiding him before. He would make a show of greeting her, sometimes putting his arm around her shoulders as they walked, but then spent the rest of the school day apart or with a friend or two between them. Penny knew it wasn't sustainable; it was a question of which of them would be the first to say it out loud.

She flinched as Colton dropped his arm around her shoulders as she arrived at school. He quickly withdrew.

“Did I touch your…,” he trailed off, his eyes lingering on her shoulder.

“Only surprised me,” Penny said. Her green eyes darted to her hand as he took it, swinging it in time with their steps. “You’re extra happy today.”

“My mom says you should come around for dinner,” Colton said. “This weekend or next. It feels like… I don't know, like things are getting to be okay again.”

Heat flared in Penny’s chest. “Okay again?” She crossed her arms and stepped away. “Beth-Ann doesn’t ever get to be okay again.”

“I didn’t mean—You know what I was trying to say,” Colton said defensively. “What happened was awful. You know I believe that.”

She unbristled. “Sorry….”

“Paige wants to come. Whichever weekend works out for you,” he said. He smirked. “It’s kinda grown up, right? The girlfriends coming over for dinner.”

She froze as he leaned over and kissed her cheek. She barely was able to force out a smile as he bid her goodbye, heading off to his class. She touched her cheek, walking in a stupor towards geography.

Hodge was not going to like this.

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The unicorn was antsy when she visited that evening. He flattened his ears when she petted his neck, but allowed it. He refused the butterscotch chip molasses cookie she made for him. She knew he'd gobble it up the moment she left.

“You know it's a bribe,” Penny muttered. “You’re too good and honest a creature for that. Oh, hold still a sec, you’ve got a major burr.”

The task of painstakingly removing burrs with her fingertips was oddly soothing. There was a degree of focus to it so that she didn't pull too hard or prick herself too badly. It was good for clearing her mind, to stop it from showing her images from that night. Hodge had been getting a lot of burrs since that camping trip. Much more than before.

“My counselor wants a specialist to evaluate me tomorrow,” Penny said. “She isn't saying it, but she thinks I'm a lost cause. …Guess that tracks.” She patted his neck, receiving a disgruntled snort. “I know. I know. I got to stop all this with Colton. It isn't fair to either of you. It's…,” she moved away from the unicorn, “it's that I don't think we can go back to friends after this… Maybe if he wasn't into this boyfriend-girlfriend thing so much….”

Colton was the only friend she had that she still saw consistently, and that was with how much she gave him the cold shoulder. There would be no one left if she dumped Colton. There may be no one left if he dumped her. It was always possible there would be no one if they stayed together, everyone growing bored with their couple act.

Penny finished up a braid in Hodge’s mane. She gave his neck a long, steady stroke. “I had no one before. So long as I have you, it’ll all be okay. …I wonder how Brooke is….”

She shook her first friend from her mind, bid Hodge farewell, and hurried out of the glade. She was halfway back to the Sizemores when a chill ran down her spine. She slowed, froze, as the hairs on her arm rose. She spun around, immediately feeling defenseless and helpless when all she managed to grab as a weapon was her cellphone.

A willowy man was climbing from an old car with a mud splattered front bumper. He wore a lot of black, as if he could not do without it, and his lank, jaw-length hair looked previously dyed or bleached with the ends being off colored and not sandy brown.

Penny lowered her guard as an odd sense of familiarity crept into place over the initial alarm.

“Penrose,” he asked. His voice was distinct, with a croak and rasp that she could not mistake. “Penrose Fox, right?”

“Who wants to know?”

His lip curled. He took a step forward, stopped as she took a step back.

“I heard about your case,” he said. His jacket shimmered slightly as he opened it, showing off the inside pocket. “Can you see that from there? Do you know it?”

She took two micro-steps forward, squinting. Her heart missed a beat. A smile hesitantly formed on her face as she locked in on the marking: 🜩.

“Y-you’re with the Order of Ferblanc….”

“Somewhat reluctantly, but yeah.” He let his jacket fall loose. “Friend of mine told me about what happened. You met her. Bowen Crabtree.” He gave a dismissive wave. “Nevermind. Probably didn’t exchange names with her busy killing that not-deer chomping on your shoulder.” He winced. “Sorry… that was too blunt.”

Penny shrugged, reading over her stitches and staring at the pavement. There had been a rescuer, but she had only barely registered the person was a woman with all that had happened. She had not even delivered Penny back to camp, merely taking her to within sight of the clearing before dashing off–-presumably to handle the rest of the herd and clear a path for Beth-Ann to be found.

“She’s the keeper for that stretch. If you were wondering. She wasn’t some random park ranger.”

“I figured she must’ve been… I think,” Penny said. “Beth-Ann, officially, was mauled by a mountain lion. A random person would’ve completely freaked out and gone with rabid deer or something.”

“It’s easier.” He pointed to her phone still in her hand. “But… you don’t share the whole idea of keeping the Realm quiet, do you?”

She shifted away from him, crossing her arms tight. “You never said your name?” She glared. “You could be a bad guy. Being part of the Order doesn’t automatically make you a good guy.”

He laughed a deep, slightly wheezing, laugh. “Ezekiel Zickefoose.” He gave her a courteous nod. “Eek, if you’d like, but never in front of other Knights.” His smile faltered. “You can sense something off about me, right? Like magic, but not exactly the same. That’s my superpower; naturally more resilient against magic. Pretty useful for a Knight.”

“Yeah…,” Penny said, sidestepping. She looked at her phone, gulping at the time. “Well, Mr. Zickefoose, it’s cool getting some connection to the Realm again, but I do have a curfew. I’d exchange numbers, but…,” she looked at this grown man trying hard not to be a full blown goth, “kind of weird. Sounds like you know about Hodge, so you can just DM me.”

“Right… I’ve held you up. I wanted to meet you before tomorrow.” He gave a small, sly smile. “Your counselor thinks I’m some type of mental health consultant. I just wanted to let you know that I'm not.”

She stared, eyes once more flicking over his appearance.

“I can’t really help with what happened except to be someone who knows what really happened.” He dusted his hands together. “There. Now your hour tomorrow we don’t need introductions. You can just talk. Bowen said you’d need it.”

“Thank you,” Penny said, unsure. “Umm, I do need to go….”

He didn’t try stopping or delaying her further, but Penny could feel him staring after her as she walked on. She bolted once she turned down the next street, stealing a glance back.

“What a weirdo….”

Ezekiel Zickefoose stayed on the edges of her mind as she sat down to dinner and prepared for bed. There was something about his voice she couldn’t shake, something about how he looked that sparked familiarity. She must have been familiar to him as well with how he immediately jumped to his nickname and watched her go. He had no real reason to intercept her, pretext of giving her the heads up or not.

Her phone buzzed, distracting her from staring into the nothingness of her ceiling. Her heart plummeted when she saw it was Colton’s customary goodnight text. This one asked a follow up question, so it felt too rude to leave it answered.

Did you get a chance to ask about dinner?

A simple ‘no’ worked, but was too blunt. She deleted it and tried again, but ‘not yet’ wasn’t right either. It was dancing around the glaring issue, the one she was hoping he’d pick up on enough to call it quits mutually. Her insides squirmed with guilt as she slowly wrote out:

Dinner won’t work. I don’t think dating works. Sorry.

She hastily silenced her phone and put it screen down so as to not see the light from the notifications. She gulped the stale air, half surprised to find tears leaking from her eyes. It was hard to say if it was the crying itself or knowing she hurt her–now former–friend for so much longer than needed that embarrassed her most. It was being a coward not explaining it all in person.

Penny took deep, slow breaths and forced her mind back to Ezekiel Zickefoose. There was not much to latch onto outside of his voice and appearance. She stared hard, hearing Mrs. Sizemore leave for work for the overnight shift. She continued staring with nothing to grasp as her eyes grew heavy and the sounds of thumping came from the stairs. Her eyes were shut, breathing starting to even out as her ears caught murmurs from Aaliyah’s room, drawers or something being shut or banged about.

Aisling’s room was being raided by an unknown man and woman; they were packing a bag for her because her mother had died unexpectedly. That man… he was goth trying hard not to be with a croak in his voice.

She sat up, breathing hard. The familiarity… the voice and fashion… how he seemed to know her–depite them not meeting before–it all added together. That woman with him at that time may’ve even been Bowen Crabtree, but she had no reason to think that and couldn’t remember enough of her rescuer to connect the two.

“...Please… not tonight… please….”

Penny stared through the wall that separated her room from Aaliyah’s. She blinked slowly, ears straining, annoyed at the distraction from this revelation that Ezekiel Zickefoose was connected to Aisling. She flinched at the sound of a slap and a yelp.

She was out of bed and throwing open Aaliyah’s door before she knew she had even moved.

Mr. Sizemore was bearing down on Aaliyah as she cowarded in the farthest corner of her bed. Her buttoned pajama top was torn open. She held her face where she’d been smacked.

“Ger back to your room,” Mr. Sizemore demanded. He straightened when Penny stayed frozen, and lumbered towards her menacingly. “Get back to your room, and you keep that mouth of yours—.”

Penny heard static. She saw red. There was a scream from Mr. Sizemore, high pitched and pained. Her foot hurt, and it took a minute for her to realize she had kicked him and was continuing to kick him. Even once she realized, she kept kicking every inch of him as he thrashed about on the floor trying to protect himself. She grabbed a lamp, threw it over him with a guttural yell. She searched for anything else to use.

“Penny!” Aaliyah grabbed her shoulders, shaking her. “S-stop! You’ll kill him!”

She kicked him once more in the stomach, or groin, grabbed Aaliyah’s wrist, and ran down the stairs. Her mind was racing, tripping over itself, not making sense of anything. She kept her grip on Aaliyah tight, and the older girl didn’t stop her or fight her off. They dashed from the cul-de-sac, down into the woods, and out into Hodge’s glade. Only then did Penny stop to catch her breath, and release Aaliyah.

“Y-you idiot,” Aaliyah snarled. “You messed up everything!”

“What?” Penny glared. “I just—.”

“Took me out of the only place keeping me from a homeless shelter,” Aaliyah snapped. “I got nowhere to go!” She scoffed. “You never got it. Brooke resented that. Pretty Penny, too pure for the creeps. You’d get believed. Couldn't have that.”

Penny took a breath. “How long’s it been going on?”

“All my life,” Aaliyah said, faux-nonchalance breaking with a crack in her voice. “Or, Mr. Sizemore specifically? Since the Lamberts used to pawn us off on them.”

A shrill, braying whinny rang out. In the dark, Hodge looked like he glowed. He charged from the woods, lowering his head to point his black horn forward into a skewering position. He went for Aaliyah, but Penny blocked him, shushing him and speaking calming nonsense.

Aaliyah fell backwards. “Th-that’s from—It’s r-real. That’s a real unicorn!”

“Ssh, Hodge, easy there,” Penny said, ignoring Aaliyah. The colt kept trying to charge around her, to get at the intruder. “Easy there, handsome; she’s a… Easy there, boy.” To Aaliyah, firmly, she added, “You might want to back up a bit. You’re too close to me. He’s protective. And unicorns are aggressive to non-vir…gins.” She whipped back to Hodge, her face hot as she tried blocking the choked sob from her nemesis. “Back up! Back! Hodge, quit it!”

“Penrose!”

Hodge immediately diverted his aggression to Ezekiel Zickefoose upon his arrival into the glade, rearing up to spin around and charge. Penny opened her mouth to yell for Hodge to stop, choking on her words when a road flare sparked to life. 

Ezekiel waved it, roaring and yelling at the colt until he bolted for the woods.

“Hodge!” Penny abandoned Aaliyah, racing towards the treeline, but was caught around the middle. “Get off me!”

“No, Penrose,” Ezekiel scolded. “The cops are searching for you and that girl. You need to get back on the street before they start combing the woods.” He put his hands firmly on her shoulders. “That little spook won’t destroy what you have with that animal. Don’t worry. He’ll be back. Now, hurry up.”

There was another ten to fifteen minutes of snapping Aaliyah out of her shock and getting back to the neighborhood. It was another second after they set foot on the sidewalk near the Sizemore house before the police found them. The house was a swarm of lights, one of them being an ambulance.

Penny was separated from Aaliyah–no real loss–and taken away in a different car. The officers tried talking gently to her on the ride into town, but by this point her adrenaline was plummeting. She was doing all she could not to fall asleep. Tears pricked her eyes when she pictured Hodge’s wounded, frightened expression. Ezekiel was wrong for scaring him off how he did.

She was brought to a windowless room with a table and three uncomfortable, metal chairs. It looked every bit like the stereotypical interrogation rooms from random clips she had seen on the internet. She was given a bottle of water and then left alone. The room was too cold to sleep in despite her grogginess, and the chair too uncomfortable to bother attempting it.

A grizzled officer entered. He handed her a blanket and sat opposite of her with his beady eyes on his clipboard.

“We talked to Aaliyah,” he said. “She said she and Mr. Sizemore were having an affair. She apologizes for leading him on.”

“That’s bull–That isn’t what happened,” Penny said.

“I guessed as much.” He glanced over his clipboard. “Did he ever touch you?”

“Mostly ignored me… Guess I was lucky.” She straightened. “Why would Aaliyah say that?”

“Scared. I hear it a lot, unfortunately. Especially from kids like you two. Let’s see…. Did you mean to injure that man?”

Penny shrugged. “Is it bad? I don’t really remember it.”

“He’s not fathering any kids any time soon.” The officer’s mouth twitched but he quickly wiped his face back to neutral and stared at the clipboard. “There is a predicament with all this. You being a foster, and attacking your foster parent… we can’t exactly release you back to them. I tried contacting your caseworker, but she seemed…. Well, she answered the first call, and hasn’t gotten back to us.”

“Which means…?”

The old officer sighed heavily. “I suppose you go into holding until morning. Possibly the detention center after. Just until we get things sorted out.” He shook his head, his expression sour. “What a waste. Plucky little thing like you, we should give you a steak dinner and put you up in the best hotel for the night.”

There was not much comfort knowing she had done the right thing, not when faced with a long, cold, lonely night in a holding cell. She suspected it was more comfortable than the ones they kept adults, but that was not saying much. The cot was loosened bands between a frame; she had little choice but to be stuck hanging in the middle, and there was no real protection from the draft sweeping beneath all during the night.

She bounced between irritation at Aaliyah for failing to be truthful, and horrible, uncomfortable sadness at how things had turned out for her. Brooke popped into her mind often; Aaliyah’s charge that she had resented Penny went with it. She nearly drifted off, but whether due to all these bad thoughts or just the situation at hand, she would find herself snapping awake with a mingled image of Beth-Ann or Mr. Sizemore, both lying on the ground, sometimes both dead, sometimes both writhing.

The exhaustion kept her from fully processing that a young, female officer was standing in front of her cell with a tupperware similar to those used in airport security.

“I have your phone, a change of clothes, toothbrush, and we got you a bagel sandwich from down the street.” She opened the door and gently placed the tupperware on the floor. “There is someone here wanting to talk to you. Think you’ll be up for that in twenty to thirty? Give you a minute to change and eat?”

Penny didn’t respond, still staring blearily at the woman. She must’ve taken her silence for confirmation, because she left without pressing the issue. Penny could hear murmurs of her speaking to someone before the heavy door of the holding area cut off the sound.

She changed and was halfway through her sandwich before picking up her phone. Her heart dropped at the seventeen missed calls and forty-six unread texts from Colton. She cleared the calls and messages, scrolling to the most recent text at the bottom.

I deserve some kind of response. Ghosting me is immature.

Her jaw clenched, her hackles raising.

Sorry. I got arrested last night and didn’t have my phone until now.

The responses came in short and quick, expressing disbelief but not at her words, at the situation. News of her arrest had spread already. Then came the asking if she was okay, and the pleading for some kind of explanation. He went as far to ask if her decision had anything to do with witnessing Beth-Ann’s death, and expressed he could wait it out.

I thought about breaking up since before then. Hodge doesn’t like this dating thing. I’m never dating anyone.

The dots kept going and going, indicating Coton was doing a lot of typing. But, the response was short when it finally came through.

You’re breaking up because of your photoshop unicorn?

He’s real.

The dots moved again and again, before stopping with no reply.

She turned her phone off, sighing heavily.

“Ready for your visitor?”

“Sure,” she said, tucking away her phone.

It was not her caseworker that entered the holding area despite that making the most sense. It wasn’t Ezekiel Zickefoose or Aaliyah, or anyone she knew. It was an older than old stout woman holding herself up with a cane. She hobbled forward resolutely, and set a stern gaze upon Penny.

“I am Mrs. Adams. I was sent to negotiate your release to my employer, a Mr. Silas Javernick.”

“Should… should I know who that is,” Penny asked unsurely. “Is he famous? I’m not very good with remembering celeb—.”

“Straighten up, please, Penrose.” Penny straightened. “You do not know him, nor do I expect you to, but he knows of you. He was acquainted with your mother.”

“M-my moth–?”

“Yes. Your mother. I was quite clear.” Mrs. Adams gave her a look over. “I’ll have you sorted once you’re out of this miserable place. Will not take but a few hours.”

The arrival of Mrs. Adams, and her matter-of-fact stating that she would be released to someone that knew her mother was a level of surreal Penny was too tired to wrap her brain around. She sat on her uncomfortable bed, and finished her sandwich.

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Bowen Crabtree is a name I saw at baby gym and it was just too good not to use for fiction. I have no idea if the real one is a boy or girl. I was going to try to use it in the Beatrix and Wrenna books, but my first thought was of the loup garou, and I wanted something more traditionally Cajun. Crabtree has some Appalacian ties, so it worked better here. Which, Zickefoose is supposed to be a very distinctly Appaliacian surname that I've been avoiding until I got a "good guy". Eek and Bowen both were in chpt 2 raiding Aisling's drawers; Penny's insticts about the woman that was with Eek being Bowen is correct (because I want to use the name, lol).

The idea of Penny being "too pure" was always going to be a rift between her and others in the system. The reality is that people probably sense something kind of off about her so avoid her, particularly foul adults who would quickly gather she wasn't easy to mislead. It wasn't about purity or prettiness, that was just something other girls would grab at with how they'd been treated.

Penny being arrested for assult and sprung by Mrs. Adams was one of the big scenes fom her childhood, like the one with Hodge being upset she had a three second kiss, that was core to her.

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October 23, 2026
The Not-Rant Session
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It'll likely take me a few sessions to get all this down, but mostly because of the two kids balacing and me being unable to do a lotof movement. So, like with The Rant Session I'll put in the dates. This is being started on October 16th around noon. Here we go!

It's funny how different two years and eleven miles (by highway, I looked it up) changes things. And how some things stayed the same; namely that once more it was a girl and a c-section. I hadn't had a visit with my doctor for weeks, and that is one of my two complaints with her (the other being sometimes the bruskness, which I like, is too dismissive). My stress tests were all going well; these were testing to see if Vee was strong enough and healthy enough to endure labor, and if my body could handle it too. Because, unlike with Minn, she was in the correct, best position to go through labor. I had expressed immediately that I wanted to avoid another c-section, so every visit that was never brought up as any kind of option for whatever reason crazy women have when they get them electively.

During one of the visits when my doctor was gone, which she was gone most of the last two months so my exact visit isn't there at the top of my head, the ultrasound tech looked slightly pale and asked if my baby always measured big. I said she did, and it wasn't elaborated. The NP told me in the review of that ultrasound that Vee was estimated to be 7.1 pounds. I just went 'whoa... my older kid was born at 7.7, that's crazy'. They said the doctor will want to talk more about that later, especially after I casually mentioned my scar from Minn hurting almost all the time. That was another medical-person-went-pale and asked me to describe the pain. Mostly dull, some sharp if I stood too fast (or sometime stood period, it wasn't that consistient) or rolled over at night.

I didn't see the doctor until my last pre-scheduled visit on the 7th, exactly a week from due date. She started by asking what my thoughts were when I heard how big Vee was. Same answer as above; my first was born roughly that size. And she goes 'right, so, I need to check you, and I don't want to say it, but this could be a c-section'. She checks, and jut goes 'nope, nothing, you cannot go beyond your due date, she's too big'. Apparently, I was nowhere near ready body wise to have her within the week.

Now, I was not told why the doctor was so insistant because I didn't argue back. With my own research, and the increasingly smaller fragments of biology knowledge I still remember, I already pieced together the big fear was hemmorage. So, while I was not at all thrilled to do a c-section again, it was better than the ever increasing risk of bleeding out before I even got to labor, or bleeding out during labor. ...I still asked for the last possible day to delay it as long as I could, and was scheduled for the 13th.

(October 17th ~8:45AM): I mentioned in the chat that Minn's godmother was coming to help out since my mom was in London. The original plan was to have my sister come with me because she's my emergency contact (our mom is notorious for never answering the phone, checking texts, or even calling back) and that'd give Minn bonding time with her godmother since they don't see each other often. But, with my surgery set for 7:30, I had to arrive at 5--before labor the hospital opened, so we had to go through the ER--it was very complicated figuring out school buses and stuff of that nature. And the topper, my sister ended up with a cold coming on. Minn came to the hospital with us. My sister came by once she set up breakfast for her kids (my BIL had some sort of work thing so couldn't do the kids that morning) and picked her up. Then it was all prep for the 7:30 surgery. ...Which went significantly over.

I put a preview of that in the chat. The bruises! Standard protocol is nothing to drink after midnight, and my mouthful of water at 4AM was not enough to hydrate me to avoid the 'you're so dehydrated, the IV doesn't want to go in'. This place though, instead of seeming confused by my dehydration like the other hospital, just was all 'every c-section, all of them, sorry about the pain'. A little more comforting that they knew the side effects of no water after midnight.

The bigger of the two bruises is on my right arm. That was from labs. They took two or three vials (probably because when they're asking if you have such and such they want to double check you didn't lie and cause some kind of reaction or contanimation). I was pretty hopeful when the needle went in. It hurt, but I was thinking 'yes that single mouthful of water helped'. And apparently, that would have been where the IV would have gone if I was hydrated. The lady kept squeezing blood out, like juicing me, to fill the vials. It got worse and worse pain wise and volumn wise until she just went 'yeah, no IV here, but hopefully that's enough blood for labs'. Thankfully (and I know this from genetic lab a million years ago) you don't need a heck of a lot, so that worked out. On the back of my right hand is a barely noticable greenish bruise from a failed IV attempt. I told her once that one fail to please avoid going into my wrist joint, so she went to get someone else to help. The failed attempts were starting to set us back.

(October 19th ~11:00AM) The second lady found "a juicy vein" in my left arm, which it the second large bruise from the pictures. It blew out almost immediately, and she just kept saying sorry over and over. Not just because it hurt, but because now we were further behind schedule. Luckily, the last attempt on my left hand worked or I would've been looking at a wrist joint. That thing did not go in lightly, and kept trying to pop out. I was supposed to get two IVs of fluids to rehydrate me before surgery, and now that we were well beyond 7:30, those needed pressure sleeves to force the fluid into my hand/body faster. Drinking from your hand is already a weird experience (that I don't really hate, especially being that dehydrated) but gulping is much weirder. And I'm naked at this point, so got cold very quick with the cold fluids going in that fast.

I was dragged off to the OR to get the spinal, and the OR is even colder, so I just started shaking. And me being how I am, I'm just going 'I hope they know this is from being cold'. Which my spinal guy did, because at one point he just went and got a hot blanket from under the heater and put it on my arms. That was enough to stop the shaking. That guy was an odd man that may've been a tad on the spectrum in the way that all the best weirdos are. We probably would've be friends as teens or something.

The spinal this time was not as horrifying as with Minn. It hurt much worse though. Because Vee was so heavy, my spine was very compressed. It was a slower process, with several stops due to the pressure getting to be too much, and a lot of small popping noises of going through my spinal discs. It was just after 8AM at this point. My doctor just goes 'throw her down, they're going to throw you down'. She was already through a few layers before they went to fetch Minn's godmother. She was brought in just in time for Vee to be pulled out at 8:08. And unlike Minn, she made a cry. Not the type in the movies, just the one, and a second when they went to go cut the cord (Minn's godmother got to do it, I think my mom declined with Minn because it freaked her out, lol). They had me see her a second, and then my doctor was like 'okay that's enough, let's stitch her up'. Which I actually appreciated because with Minn there was the awkwardness of my arm starting to numb from the spinal, and they wouldn't take her away until I told them too, but I wasn't sure if I was supposed to tell them too, and the whole time your guts are on tables waiting to go back in. I was shut up in maybe 15 minutes, also much less than the last time.

I forgot to mention that I was given a form before surgery to consent or deny that Hep shot. Easy enough, just sign deny and no one brought it up again or lied about what it was for or tried talking me into it. The form came with a packet on what it was, and the consent to had a big block of text that probably was about side effects. I didn't read it since I was declining. Don't need my newborn vaccinated against a sexual transmitted disease.

I tasked Minn's godmother to follow Vee around, but the ward was really open so there wasn't as much need to hover. Lots of glass walls for the nursery. She went there only for visits with her assigned doctor, for all her glucose tests and other blood lettings, and then for a bath. I went with her for the bath. I never saw how they did them on newborns because I was so done with the other hospital that I wouldn't let them near Minn more than I could help it at that point.

Vee was born with low glucose which was due to her being large. She had a drop after she was detached, so needed 4 or 5 tests to make sure she was stable. She showed improvement on test 2, improved to a stable level on 3, and 4 and 5 were the same as 3. One reason my mom suspects that the doctor didn't do everything in the room like with Minn is because this hospital is Catholic and the other was secular. Minn and Vee both had male doctors assigned to them. Vee's was 1000% better. (Bonus, he was from PA and grew up around a bunch of Poles, so not only knew how to say my last name with a slight accent, but knew both clans that went into making my last name and could pronounce them.) Vee's doctor is the person who finally gave me exactly what I've been asking since Minn was born: a number on how much a newborn could eat.

If you remember, I knew something was wrong with feeding Minn, and I was just constantly shown a button all the nurses wore and told 'her stomach is the size of a grape, just a few drops is fine'. And it turned out to be very not fine. Vee's doctor told me '30ml, maybe 35ml, but if she spits up that's too much'. And he told me what the lactation consultants at this place told me 'boob first, then do formual so you can gage how much you're making, you'll watch the formal start to not be touched much at all one you're producing more'. Formula was never on the table at the other place because I checked exclusively brestfeeding. I checked that this time too, but told them my concerns (last time my concerns were the same too since my sister and mom both had issues), so they kept formal in the mix if I started going 'nope, something isn't right'.

Right now, Vee is mostly formula and nearing 60ml already. I'm not doing boob first like suggested because I just cannot figure out how to get her latched they way the consultants showed me, and we both get frusterated. So, I pump and put it in a bottle mostly. I let her latch on when she wanting just comfort and not so much food. She's much less likely to hurt me being too hungry, and it sort of counts as pumping. The hope is to make enough to get her exclusively on boob via bottle, but I've already made peace with it being okay if it isn't that exclusive. ...20% formula is my limit, lol. (October 23 edit ~11:45) She's hitting 90ml sometimes and about half or more are mixed formula and milk. I have two 60ml in the fridge right now waiting for a 30ml shot of formula. So, yeah, better progress this time around.

But, I'm skipping ahead to some warm and fuzzies. Let's go back and talk about the gore!

(October 20th ~10:30 - we made it a week!) After I was put back together, I asked how long I wouldn't be able to move my legs. They told me 'you'll get feeling back in an hour, by three you should be okay to stand' or something to that effect. Which was shocking because it was 8 hours last time. They did have my legs wrapped in these weird compression things that pulsated. That kept my muscles going for me (and they didn't come in constantly to move my legs around for me like last time).

Having an entirely female staff was a weird highlight. I already did all this being cut open and totally helpless thing, naked for a few days on end, smelling awful from everything going on. And I did it with a handful of men being right there on hand up in my situation. So, it was kind of surprising to me when I realized I saw a total of 3 men the whole time, and none in my room except for the two visits from Vee's doctor (and he announced hmself and paused to make sure it was okay to enter). And those other two were more like one and a quarter. My spinal guy's shift ended right as they were stitching me up, and his relief was also a guy. I think I saw him less than five minutes. So, yeah, there was an extra layer of chill that I think came from the staff being all women that I didn't connect until after I was getting ready to leave. (And I struggle with female friendships so that's saying something.)

My first night was the same with the zero sleep. You're woken up too often by your staff and the baby's staff coming to check things out. That first day and night I was constantly offered oxy, which I denied each time. I was just going 'wow they're really pushing it' because the other place didn't give me any, they just prescribed it for when I left. I was going 'no I'm good with the two extra strength tylonal and one motrin, just like before'. But, by that first night I started to realize this was not like before at all.

(October 21 ~10:30) My legs had full function within the 3 hour window I was given, but I couldn't seem to move. A t this point, I didn't need to stand up except that I was supposed to be since I was still hooked up to everything (no bathroom trips) and Minn's godmother was on top of taking care of Vee. Moreso when part of the reason I couldn't move was conneced to my attempts to feed her.

The pain was excrutiating. Not the boobs, my guts. Biology hat on a sec: when you start brestfeeding your uterus contracts. After birth or a c-section, when everything is still stretched and a little angry, this feels like period cramps. The degree varies. These cramps started out like the worst period I've ever had in my life, and worse than the saline ultrasounds (the first check when you're doing IUI or In Vitro to make sure everything looks good) which had already passed the worst period cramps ever. It was debilitation, nausiatingly painful where I'd be completely tensed up, eyes shut tight and teeth clenched. So... not good for brestfeeding at all, lol.

By that night, everything was removed so I would need to stand and walk to the bathroom. And while I did, it was a shuffle and more, and more pain. And it was worse after I fed her, because then I felt sick from the pain like I needed to go to the bathroom just in case I threw up. Minn's godmother offered to call a nurse for a barf bag at one point so I wasn't trying to scramble, walk, stand, whatever, because there was no way I could.

My night nurse got me to take one step forward and one to the side as a first movement before all this, and I found out that I could side step to the right (or drag my foot half and inch) but could not at all go left. (October 22 ~9AM) At one point, while trying to feed Vee, I just said something about how this was so much worse than with Minn pain wise. Because, with her, it took 8 hours for feeling to come back, but I was left alone at night and was up doing all sorts of stuff. And I was constantly trying to feed her. The pain there was because there was zero milk and almost no colostrum, so she was essentuially drinking my blood. Minn's godmother ended up saying something about the pain difference to the night nurse, and she explained that because they were messing around with scar tissue, and because Vee was large, everything was just going to hurt much worse this time. I was stretched too much on a scar, so it would take harder and heavier contractions to try to put it all back together again. And it suddenly made sense why they kept looking at me like I was nuts for refusing the oxy.

I had at least four different people explain the oxy, all from a different area; lactation, nurse, doctor, the nurse specific for my vitals. I think even the nursery nurse at one point. Did a internet search. Asked Claude AI. Eventually, sometime during the following day, I took one. It was just enough that I could get up and hobble to the bathroom.

The oxy they give you every 4 hours, unless you request it. They only give it to you at request (or at least me because I freaked out so much about it). I think I took 3 or 4 while I was there, and even though everyone talked about 5mg not being enough to pass through to milk, I still had Vee eat formula only for a feed or two after I took it. Following day, the 15th, I was able to get around with none.

I now have two bottles, one from Minn and one from Vee, still in the Walgreens bags tucked up at the top of my cabinet for emergencies. (Like when you smash your finger in a door so the tip is crushed and you almost lose the whole thing... because that happened right after I explained to my dad why I didn't just toss them. He refused to take one, but I have them on hand for things like that.)

(October 23 ~noon) My memory is getting fuzzy with it now being over a week and nothing egregious happening like the last time. The tired is coming for me, lol. There's random things like Minn first meeting Vee I was sure to have my arms free so she could see me and just me, and then got introduced. ...The following day she didn't care to see me at all and went right for her sister. She's doing very well, but is way too overstimulated and gets little break downs wanted to both be the attention and to be affectionate to her sister at the same time. But, all that's normal. I keep telling her we're going to have a lot more fun in a few weeks when I can pick her up, and drive, and just be more normal.

Part of me thinks that's really the harder part, not so much as now she has a sister, but I can't do anything. She's having way too much TV time (my dad's version of hanging out and watching her) and that's making her act up too since it's just more stimulation on top of a stimulating experience. But, she does get to go out with her Memere alone to stores or hang out with her cousins at sushi. She got to go to baby gym Wednesday, and my mom said she'll bring her this coming Wednesday too for her last one. Then, we're on pause until January. Unless the sick is really bad. Then I might extend to Feb.

But, yep, I think that's about it. If I remember more random stuff worth mentioning, I'll just drop it in the chat.

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