Ms. Beauchamp smiled warmly at her from across the cheap, pressed wood desk. The multiple rings glittered on her chubby fingers while her beaded bangles clattered as she moved her hands to fold contently on her desk.
Penny stared at the lime green cellphone. She turned it over and over in her hands, feeling the number buttons and sliding it open to feel the keyboard.
âItâs really late to be a Christmas present,â Ms. Beauchamp said. âBut, look, the keyboard makes texting your friends easier. Isnât that a neat feature?â She settled more authoritatively in her chair. âNow, with that out of the way, why donât you tell me about your Christmas vacation?â She glanced at her notebook. âAnd about this⊠gnome?â
âThis is really mine,â Penny asked, holding up the phone. She inspected it more closely on Ms. Beauchampâs nod. âThey wouldnât let me go to church.â
âIâve spoken to them about that. As faithful as they are, I think they didnât quite understand that a little girl would have such strong faith without an adult leading her on. They canât promise every Sunday, mind you, not with their own church activities, but theyâll try.â
Penny did not believe that for a second, but gave a little nod. She began exploring the phone, finding it had Ms. Beauchamp listed as a contact along with the Lambertsâ landline. She could feel her case worker staring at her, waiting for more conversation. The gnome had been mentioned and brushed off during their brief meeting shortly before Christmas.
âYou do have quite the fantastical imagination,â Ms. Beauchamp said after the pause grew too long. She consulted her notes. âThere are records of it popping up at every placing.â
âIs it bad,â Penny asked. âI get bored. Iâm trying to entertain myself.â
Ms. Beauchamp smiled again, shaking her head. She reached over and gripped Pennyâs hands.
âImagination is perfectly fine and normal,â she said. âPerhaps⊠tone it down around your fosters? Adults sometimes just get worried for no good reason.â She shuffled her papers and straightened. âAnything else for this meeting?â
âSince I have a phone of my own now⊠can I have the number for St. Brigidâs,â Penny asked hesitantly.
The case workerâs bubbly smile instantly faded. She fumbled her notes and cleared her throat.
âYour ride should be here,â she said dismissively.
She was sure to tuck the phone into her pocket before meeting Mr. Lambert out in the hall. They rode back in silence with a few disgruntled looks from him. She eagerly rushed from the car the moment it was parked, running up the stairs to her room.
âDonât you slam that door,â Mrs. Lambert screamed up the stairs. In a calmer voice to Mr. Lambert, âDid the case worker say anything?â
âI didnât see her,â he admitted. âI expect weâll get a call tonight for a debriefing.â
âShe better not write off her delusions as imagination. Weâre entitled to a bigger stipend if sheâs special needs.â
Penny shut the door and flopped onto her bed. She studied her new phone, flipping the keyboard open and shut. She would need to get Brookeâs number. It would be fun texting between classes or when they were trapped with their foster families.
A small camera icon drew her attention. She tapped it and the little screen showed her room. She grinned broadly, clamoured to the window, and pointed the phone at the neighborâs garden.
Brooke was sitting in a snowbank near what usually was hydrangeas. She shoved her phone back in her pocket and hurried down the stairs, slowing at the annoyed hisses of the Lamberts coming from the living room.
â--add another kid,â Mr. Lambert said. âOr, trade her in, get one thatâs really special needs. Maybe a deaf one. Thatâd be a nice change.â
âThe Wilcox had a deaf one for a minute,â Mrs. Lambert mused. âIt was a good chuck more, but the thing screamed too much. I donât know if my nerves can handle that.â
âJust hope sheâs reclassified then,â Mr. Lambert said.
âBetter that then three of them,â Mrs. Lambert said. âTheyâre far too broken. I worry enough with that Aaliyah and our Emily getting along as well as they do.â
âConcerning,â Mr. Lambert agreed. âToo bad too. Sheâs such a cash cow. That drug-addled mother of hers will never get custody.â
The phone rang in the kitchen, breaking the conversation and the spell it had on Penny. She slipped on her rubber boots, and headed outside. She ran to the hedge that separated her yard from Brookeâs.
âHey, Brooke!â She waved her phone. âGive me your number!â
The excitement over the new phone faded much sooner than Penny was expecting. Brooke put in her number, flipped between keyboard and no keyboard a few times, and then went back to scratching in the snowbank. Her bare fingers were raw and red from the cold.
âYou okay,â Penny asked, plopping next to her. âYou've been quiet since we got off break.â
âHolidays are hard,â Brooke mumbled.
It was much harder going through Christmas without the familiarity of St. Brigid's. She missed Aisling from sun up to sun down, and having the Lamberts prancing around in fake cheer for the neighbors while being snide to her and Aaliyah inside the house made the pain deeper.
A stifled sob startled her from her sorrowful thoughts. Brooke was wiping her eyes. Penny felt her own sting.
âDid you know, the world is supposed to end this year,â Brooke said.
âWhat?â
âMayan calendar,â Brooke said. âIt says the world is ending this year. âŠI don't think I'd care if it did.â
Penny couldn't fathom the world ending. It seemed dumb the world would end just when she hit double digits.
She took pictures of the frozen grasses and their footprints in the snow until she was too cold to sit any longer. She bid Brooke goodbye, and crept back into the house. Her body tensed the moment she walked through the door. The irritated sounds of her foster parents were coming from the living room and kitchen as they yelled conversation at each other.
It sounded as if they had the debriefing call with Ms. Beauchamp, and it sounded like she was not going to classify her as delusional. She hurried up to her room, stopping when she found Aaliyah leaning in her doorway.
âThey know you got a phone,â she said. âJust one piece of advice; they arenât allowed to take it from you.â Her dark eyes studied Penny. âDoes it have a camera?â
âYeah,â Penny said, taking a tiny step towards Aaliyah. âI was just at Brookeâs taking pictures of the garden. It looks cool allâ.â
âYou are such a baby,â Aaliyah said with an exaggerated eyeroll. âToo bad you ainât for adoption. Youâdâve been snatched up with the other babies already.â
She winced as Aaliyah shut her door with a firm snap. She looked at her phone, puzzled why taking pictures of a frozen garden was seen as childish, and headed into her room.
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The halls were covered in pink, red, and white crepe paper chains and hearts. Penny held her phone to a cluster of ugly cupids, clicking a picture, and hurrying to catch up with Brooke.
Brooke had her bangs clipped out of her face with a small, plastic heart barrette. She was reading her English assignment with giddiness.
âEveryone is acting weird,â Penny said, her head swiveling to watch two girls a grade ahead giggle uncontrollably as a boy took books from the locker next to them without so much as a glance.
âSpring is coming,â Brooke said wisely. âValentine's Day gets everyone excited. Oh, Penny, listen to this final note, âshows great promise and improves with every classâ.â
âHard to improve on an A average,â Penny said.
They stopped as a young man Penny quickly recognized as Mr. McBride rounded the corner. He pulled back to stop from colliding with them.
âOh, Brooke, I almost knocked you and your friend right over,â he said, beaming at her. He held out his hand to Penny. âHi. Youâre not one of mine. Mr. McBride. Or,â he looked at Brooke, âTony.â
Brooke bubbled up, holding her English assignment to her chest.
Penny curtly shook Mr. McBrideâs hand. âPenny. Nice to meet you, Mr. McBride,â she said formally. She pulled her hand away and looked at Brooke. âReady to head home?â
âI was hoping Brooke would help me set up for tomorrow,â Mr. McBride said.
âWhatâs there to set up,â Penny asked. âDonât you teach English?â She recoiled at Brookeâs glare. âWant extra help?â
âItâs just putting papers on desks,â Mr. McBride said flippantly. âYou go on home.â
Reluctantly, she headed out of the school alone. She sent Brooke a message saying they should hang out before dinner as she walked, more to have something to do than to wallow over the unease in her stomach. Mr. McBride seemed nice. Brooke liked him; she was happy around him. Penny couldnât put her finger on why it bothered her seeing them together.
âMaybe Iâm jealous,â she muttered to herself.Â
Brooke was her friend. She should be happy that she had an adult in her corner after having no one for so long. Her foster familyâthe Wilcoxâwere just as bad as the Lamberts, but with no other children in the home to divert their attention.
âOh! Thatâs right!â
Penny turned back and ran for the school. She found herself in the nearly defunct computer lab moments later, typing away in the search bar for St. Brigidâs Home. She was directed to a sterile looking page with smiling kids she had never seen before, case workers in business casual that she never saw, and a director she didnât know. There were no signs of Sister Mary Agnes, Mother Mary Clare, or any of the other nuns.
She put the number into her phone as she heard people outside in the hall, shut down the computerâunsure if she was allowed on unsupervisedâand left.
Brooke was outside standing by Mr. McBrideâs car. She was shyly waving goodbye, her face flushed and elated as a small box of chalky candy hearts was pressed to her chest. His eyes caught Pennyâs as he pulled away and she found her insides squirming. She held back rather than catch up with Brooke, and watched her skip away.
A small, blue-white ball of light bobbed in her peripherals. She headed for the woods, stalking after the haunt with her phone at the ready. She switched her gaze from the ball of light to her phone screen as she tripped over logs and fought through branches, irritation seeping in at her inability to get it perfectly on her screen.
There was a squelch and a lurch down as Penny reached a clearing. She found her feet stuck in muck, and wiggling sunk her to her knees.
âPerfect,â she grumbled. She found the will oâ the wisp hovering in small circles just out of reach. She raised her phone, snapped a picture, and gave a snort. âItâs funny to you, isnât it?â
She fell backwards, pulled herself back, and got her feet out with a wet suction sound. She flipped onto her stomach and dug her hand into each of the holes as they rapidly shrunk, managing to pull her shoes free.
The walk home grew increasingly uncomfortable as the February air froze the wet muck to her legs and arms. Her feet were frozen and ached, having decided to carry her mud-filled shoes. She snuck inside and inched her way up to the bathroom across from her bedroom, cringing at every small noise she made.
She started washing with a loofah, keeping all her clothes on and trying not to get soaked by the shower. She would need to sneak her muddy clothes into the dirty laundry and simply pray that Mrs. Lambert didnât notice them.
âPenny,â Aaliyah said, banging open the door. Her eyes flashed at the mud coating the bathroom. âOooh, youâre in trouble.â
âPlease, donâtâ.â
âMrs. Lambert! Mrs. Lambert, you should see what Penny did!â
Penny stumbled from the shower-bath, slipping and falling in a heap on her mucky shoes. She scrambled to the door, slamming it in Aaliyahâs face just as heavy steps sounded in the hall. The door was flung into her, cracking across her forehead.
âWhat is all this,â Mrs. Lambert shrieked.
She felt herself dragged from the bathroom; she flailed and freed herself, and ran on all fours into her room. She threw the door shut and felt the doorknob instinctually for the lock that should have been there while a small memory floated in the back of her mind of the Lamberts lecturing her shortly after she arrived on how they didnât allow foster kids the ability to lock the doors.
Mrs. Lambert burst through the door. She screamed and ranted as she dragged Penny back to the bathroom. She ordered her to clean and threw down a musty smelling mop.
Aaliyah gave her a gloating smirk before stalking off to her room.
Penny began wiping the floor with shaking hands. Her ears strained for the slightest sounds; Emily returned home and gave her an exasperated glance on her way to her room, Mr. Lambert returned and angry hisses between him and Mrs. Lambert quickly ensued. She had the floor finished before her nerves settled.
She crept back to her room. She moved her desk chair in front of the door. It wouldnât stop the Lamberts from coming in, but it would be more of a hassle than just walking through the door. She shed her wet, muddy clothes, and changed into Goodwill sweats. Her phone was clutched in her hands.
She listened hard for a second to make sure all was relatively still outside, then hit the contact number for St. Brigidâs.
âHome of Hope,â a woman answered.
âOh. âŠSorry. I thought this was St. Brigidâs HomeâŠ.â
âIt was. Can I help you with anything, young lady?â
â...Why is the name different,â Penny asked uneasily.
âHomes change names from time to time. Itâs nothing to worry about,â the woman said. âAre you looking for help? Can I have your name?â
âIâm looking for Sister Mary Agnes. CanâMay I speak with her?â There was a pause. âAisling Fox? Her non-nun name is Aisling Fox.â Her heart was starting to beat rapidly at the increasing tenseness coming from the other end. âIs Mother Mary Clare there?â
âNoâŠ. May I ask again who is calling?â
âP-Penny. My name is Penny Fox.â She gave a hearty sniff. âPenrose. They might have me under Penrose Fox. I-I used to live there. Aisling is my aunt.â
âOh⊠I see,â the voice said sympathetically. âIâm afraid I donât have any contact information for anyone from before the changes. You see, Penny, St. Brigidâs Home was found to be in violation. Too much influence from outside of the state.â
Penny was having trouble catching her breath; it coming in short, rapid bursts. âW-when?â
âLast summer. I believe near the end of July. Start of August. Sometime around then.â
Roughly a week after she was sent to the Lamberts. It made sense why none of her letters went answered. It made sense why contact had completely stopped. Aisling was not her legal guardian in any respect. There was no obligation for anyone to let her know where sheâd been sent. She may not have even been allowed back to St. Brigidâs, going from her motherâs funeral arrangements right into being cast aside.
âIâm sorry I canât give you your auntâs contact, but is there anything else you want?â
âN-no,â Penny choked out. âI-I-I just wanted t-to know why she stopped writing. Bye.â
She held the phone feeling numb. Aisling was gone with no way to find her. No help was coming in her distress with the Lamberts.
She slowly focused from nothing to her muddy clothes. She opened her phone, and a small, sad smile formed as she stared at the picture she had taken of the ball of light.
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I think Penny's been with the Lamberts for around 5 months in the first part and 6 months in the second. I cannot remember the name of Penny's cellphone. I think it was an early Samsung with one of those edgy teen focused names that they used to do when they had stripped down versions of cellphones for kids. The lime green was the most common one that popped up when I typed the name in to an image search. (LG Rumor, I found it in my search history.) Man, they used to just make things with personally as far back at 2012. This phone could take photos but not videos, and I believe there was no internet access (and data plans, calls, minutes used to be such a big thing).
Appalacia/West Virginia has a whole lore with will o' the wisps too, but they're more commonly/locally called haunts/haints. The blue-white ones are not supposed to be malevolent. They apparently come in green, yellowish like a candle, and red too.
"Forgotten" Gemini Initial Sketch, unknown
Protection, 2013/4?
The Panic in Me, 2014
Ian Sticky Note Art, 2015?
Sparrow Sticky Note Art, 2015?
Cinder Sketch, 2015
The Outlier Awakens, 2020