There was little noise coming from within Rowlettâs Mechanic Shop as the sun waned overhead. The white-washed concrete building stood out among the dusty road before it and the open field of tan, swaying grass behind it. Two barn doors fixed on metal tracks were rolled open at their widest, and just above them were the freshly painted red letters that bore the shopâs name.
Within the shop, rows of shelves, stacks of metal, and parts of every kind lined the walls. Short windows butted against the tall ceiling and lined the back and side walls to let in air and additional light into the room. The occasional metal clang was surpassed only by short bursts of the rhythmic clicking of a ratcheting wrench.
All the while, there was not a single word uttered from the two men working within the shop, building the silent tension between them and thickening the air.
The older man, with his tanned skin contrasted against his short, peppered hair and a dirty white work shirt, was frowning so much the wrinkles of his face were tugged downward. His bushy brows were furrowed over narrow eyes, and the dark brown irises within glanced across the stuffy room at the second man. Despite his short stature, he more than commanded his presence in the room thanks to his wide shoulders.
The younger man was also tan-skinned, but he was tall and thickly built. The hair on his head was black and shaggy, while dark hair ran down his muscular arms and peeked from the top of his own dusty work shirt tucked under a pair of overalls. His youthful face was lightly weathered from spending his teenage years in the shop; but, while he did appear disgruntled, his dark eyes held much less contempt than the man at his back.
âHow was your visit with Ms. Stephanie last night?â The older man, at last, broke the weighted silence.
The younger man paused his work as he tightened his grip on his wrench. âIt was fine.â
âYâall datinâ yet?â
Hudson scowled, thankful his face was turned away. âNo.â
Timothy straightened his short posture, pressing his hands on the panel of the tractor between them. âWhat do you mean, âno?â She invited you toââ
âNo, Paw,â Hudson shot over his shoulder. âI told youâI ainât interested in her like that. âSides, sheâs real sweet on Adrienââ
âSo, youâve lost another one.â His voice was cool, yet acidic.
Hudson shut his eyes and attempted to redirect his mounting anger in a deep breath.
The silence returned, and the two continued their work. Timothy was still clanking around in the tractorâs chassis, while Hudson remained near the motor to check for loose nuts.
âI'm startin' to wonder if it's the clutch goinâ out.â The older man scratched his chin. His eyes darted to his son when there was no response. âHudson!â
The younger mechanic jumped and straightened up. âOh,â he blurted, looked at the wrench in his hand, and returned his gaze to the tractor motor. âThe struts?â
âThe clutch! Pay attention, son; your headâs in the clouds today!â
He grunted and ran his hands through his hair. âIâm sorry, Paw.â
âHenry canât get any work done without his tractor, so we need to get it fixed!â
âYes, sirâhere, lemme check it.â
The two men switched places, the older supervising the younger to ensure he was performing his duties properly. Sure enough, Hudson went straight to the gear box to inspect the inner workings.
Unfortunately, despite his sonâs accurate work,Timothyâs frown only lengthened as he stood idly by. âWhat about Lillith? You twoâve always been close. Sheâd make a fine wife.â
The wrench nearly slipped from Hudsonâs hand as he turned to face his father. âPaw, you know I donât see her that way.â
âThen maybe you oughtâa start!â He snapped.
Hudson froze, his expression a mixture of outrage and shock.
The older man thrust out his hands. âDonât look at me like that! I donât know how youâre expectinâ to continue on our legacy if you donât quit dilly-dallyinâ anâ get married!â
The younger man averted his eyes. âPaw, maybe Iâm just notââ
âIâm not gettinâ any younger, you knowâand neither are you!â He interrupted. âOne of these days this shop is gonna be yours, and how are you gonna pass it on if you ainât got kids to pass it on to??â
âItâll get passed on to someone else in town, just like how Grandpa took it over from the Romanoâsââ
âWho else in this town would take it over? Everybody elseâs kids are following their parentsâ trades.â
âI donât know; but Iâll figure somethinâ out by then!â
ââBy then,ââ Timothy repeated mockingly. âSo, youâll pass on your problem to somebody elseâs family?â
Hudson scooted closer to his father. âIs it so hard for you to think I wouldnât follow exactly in your footsteps? That I wouldnât check off all the boxes you think I oughta check?â He shook his head as if perplexed, âI am not you!â
Timothyâs initial surprise from Hudsonâs outburst had faded into a caustic sneer. âBoy, is that abundantly clear.â
The son winced, his eyes piercing into the floor.
âI guess Iâd better accept that our line will end with you!!â
The wrench clattered on the floor. âIs that really all I am to you?â The young man stepped forward, seething. âJust aâa person to fill a hole??â
Timothy did not speak as a mixture of outrage and regret smouldered on his face.
Hudson grimaced and walked out of the shop.
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âAnd, this is why in RomansâŠâÂ
Williamâs practice sermon was cut short as a figure stepped into the open doorway of the chapel. He set down his Bible onto the podium, recognizing the tall, bulky silhouette. âHudson.â
The man in question said nothing as he stepped inside and started up the aisle. He passed the rows of wooden pews neatly lined within the small chapelâs white-paneled walls and thin stained glass windows. His form hunched further the closer he got to William until he slowed to a stop at the front pew.
William frowned, noticing Hudsonâs haggard expression. He also quietly slipped out from behind the podium and gestured to the pew beside them.
Hudson slipped onto the wooden bench, hot tears already stinging his eyes long before William had begun to speak.
âAnother disagreement?â He asked gently.
âMy life is a disagreement,â the man muttered caustically.
âI wouldnât say that.â
âPaw would.â
William frowned and leaned on his thighs to match Hudsonâs slouched back. âYou know, despite everything he says, he cares about you. Ah,â he held up one of his hands when Hudsonâs head darted in his direction to retaliate. âJust listen to me for a moment.â
He grimaced and drooped back forward.
âYou know as well as I do your father has become very shop-oriented these days. He lives and breathes that shop, and heâs always concerned about its future. So, at times, he may see you as a part of that shop too.â
âA part that needs replacinâ,â he scowled.
âA part that he wants to hone and protect.â
Hudsonâs dark eyes slowly slid to Williamâs pale blue.
âHe wants to make sure you are all set to continue his work; whether thatâs training you in all he knows, or making sure you have a future in place.â
âBut his future ainât gonna happen,â Hudson scowled. âHe wants me to âhurry up and get marriedââbut to who??â He huffed in annoyance. âThe girls in this town are great anâ all, but⊠I donât see any of âem as romantic partners. Anâ most of âem already have their eyes on someone else anywayâor theyâre too young to be courtinâ a lug like meâŠâ
William remained still as Hudson worked through his thoughts.
âIs there somethinâ wrong with me?â He turned his head toward the older man ever so slightly, tears again stinging the corners of his eyes.
âAbsolutely not,â William asserted.
âThen why canât IâŠâ A tear fell from his eye and he opted to leave the sentence unfinished as he wilted in his seat.
âIf I may attempt to stand in your fatherâs shoes,â the preacher continued carefully, âI think his biggest concern is not you, or your actions, as much as it is his sense of control.â
The mechanicâs eyes lost their focus.
âTimothy prides himself on being able to fix anything that comes in the shop. He has full control over his tools and his work. But, he does not have control over youâand thatâs a struggle for him as much as it is for you. So, while I will admit he could use so much more patience and kindness in this matter,â William set his hand on Hudsonâs knee, âI do believe all of this is him trying to make sure you are okay.â
Hudson rolled his head backward against the pew. ââCept he doeânât have any patience or kindnessânone whatsoever!â He huffed in distress. âHe justâhe canât understand that Iâm diffârent than he is! He canât understand how I can look at somethinâ another way! And heâs never understood it!â He gnashed his teeth. âGosh, Williamâif this is really how heâs tryinâ to help me, heâs doinâ the complete opposite!â
William watched Hudsonâs expression scrunch and turn away.
âHe makes me feel useless.â His words moaned into the empty chapel.
The preacher allowed the silence to return before continuing. âIâm sorry, Hudson.â
âJust âcause I donât wanna court nobody here⊠just âcause I donât have a way to start a familyâŠâ
âYou never know what will happen,â he tried.
âThere ainât no one left!â Hudson darted his head back to face him, tears again running down his cheeks.
William bit his lip. With each generation, Westfallâs inhabitants were slowly dwindling. Children were not being born in numbers they used to, leaving a shallow pool of young men and women to choose from. And there was an even greater chance this generation would bear even fewer children.
Hudson sighed, heavily wiping his face in his hand. âIâm sorry,â he admitted through his fingers.
âDonât be; I know this is very hard on you.â
âIâd like to think thingsâll work out. I keep prayinâ every day that they do. But Paw⊠heâs never gonna be happy.â He let his broad hands fall to his lap. âNot if it iânât how he wants it.â
âThen, what you need to focus on is how to make you happy,â he pointed a finger at Hudsonâs chest. âYou canât control what other people will think, but you can control what you think.â
Hudsonâs eyes were still focused on where Williamâs finger had pointed.
âI want you to try to look for peace where you are.â
âThatâs not gonna be easy when thereâs not peace in the shop,â he frowned.
âThat will be the biggest struggle; yes,â William returned his hand to Hudsonâs leg. âBut you can find peace knowing you are doing everything the best you can.â
The mechanic was beginning to tremble again. âBut, am I?â
âWhat do you mean?â
He squashed his lips into a frown and shook his head. âDo you think I should just... marry Lillith??â
William blinked and tried to stifle his smile. âIâd certainly ask her first.â
Hudsonâs face turned to him, and his expression hesitant.
Williamâs smile warmed and he patted his leg. âHudson, I would only do that if you want to. Donât let someone else push you into something you donât feel is right.â
The young man huffed a sigh and leaned over his knees. âMy momma wouldâve understood.â
Another pang tugged at William Bauerâs heart. It had been a little over ten years since Josephine Rowlett died from complications in childbirth. It ripped a gaping hole in the Rowlett family and was only the beginning of the great divide between father and son. Josephine had always acted as their bridge; without her, Timothy no longer knew how to cope with a son who was so much like her.
âShe would have,â he admitted softly. âAnd I hopeâand I will prayâ that one day, your father will too.â
The chapel again fell into silence as Hudson wrestled with his thoughts and William sat by his side. It had not been the first meeting to discuss Hudsonâs feelings of inadequacy under Timothyâs watch, and he knew it would not be the last.Â
William could only hope that his words were true: one day, the great divide would be mended.
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Part 2 of Worthless/Useless is now Hudson's struggle with marriage expectations. In as much as Westfall does not have arranged marriage, the marriage pool is so small at this point, it ironically almost ends up that way. Anyone eligible has probably already had their eyes on someone else as they've grown up, and Hudson just hasn't been looking at anyone else that way. I understand because I was the same way đ
Unfortunately this frustrates Timothy who can't relate/understand why Hudson doesn't. William was a close friend of Timothy (before Josie's death shuttered him away from everyone) so he also understands Tim's mindset, but he can absolutely see how this frustrates Hudson. It's very much a mess, just like Gemini and her family. Also, these shorts take place when both Hudson and Gemini are 21 years old.
But, spoiler alert, although you may already guess, things finally begin to mend between Hudson and Timothy in the main story - not just because Hudson finally finds a girlfriend, but also because certain circumstances (and people) get Timothy really thinking about everything and realizing how harsh he was. He, at least, is given a chance to make things right :)