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The Ambassador
A Tale of Ace Gallagher Short
July 29, 2024

Ace walked stiffly through the long corridor, uncomfortably sandwiched between two Valiant guards. Another guard led the way, and a fourth brought up the rear. Despite visiting the Valiant palace as an ambassador, he felt much like a prisoner being escorted to his execution. The relative silence, save from their footsteps on the stone ground, did not help matters.

His light blue tabard, bearing Kalgara’s colors and coat of arms, stood out among the gray cloth and chain maille that surrounded him. It was far from the first time the Daethen had worn the country’s garb, but this, too, singled him out among the group as they passed others who lived and worked in the palace.

Soon, they came to a stop in a foyer decorated with white and purple banners on the walls and an intricately woven rug across the stone floor.

Two more guards stood on either side of a wide wooden door, and when one received his whispered orders, he turned to knock on the door.

“Enter.” A woman’s voice returned.

The guard entered, closing the door behind him.

Ace swallowed, rocking on his feet in an attempt to work out his nervousness. He had nothing to worry about; he was simply there to relay the Kalgaran king’s orders and return with the Duchess of Valiant’s response to the matter. But, it was his first mission as Dorian’s ambassador, and he was unable to shake his unease of the situation. After all, the guards had escorted him far from the throne room where royalty usually held such discussions.

The door opened and the guard returned to the foyer.

“Her Highness, Duchess Vashta, will see you now.”

Ace nodded with his lips pressed tightly together. He then straightened his posture and stepped away from the guards at his sides. He entered the room and jumped as the door closed heavily behind him.

“Ah, Sir Gallagher.”

Ace turned to find the fair-skinned ruler of Valiant standing beside one of four high-backed wooden chairs around a round pedestal table. She was dressed in a thick velvet robe tied at her waist, a silver circlet crowning her forehead, and a small, lace eyepatch covering her right eye. Her long blond hair curled around her shoulders and spilled down her chest.

The table was already set with two crystal glasses, a tall glass pitcher, and a small corked flask, all etched with a shimmering gold “V.”

“I will admit, I was expecting King Swift when they announced a visitor from Kalgara had arrived.” The duchess eyed him as she poured the dark red wine into a glass that was already half-full. “But you’ll do just fine.”

Ace glanced at the glass as she pushed it towards him before looking up beyond the table. Lavish purple hangings created a backdrop for a cream-colored chaise lounge, and an immense canopy bed was tucked behind the hangings against the far wall. A small army of candles flickered on the ground on either side of the couch, while tall stained glass windows cast the scene in a lavender light.

“I wasn’t aware I was gaining access to your personal chambers,” the knight finally admitted. “Have I caught you at a bad time?”

“Oh, no,” Vashta set down the pitcher and swirled the contents of the glass. “This is perfect. When my husband, the duke, is away, I prefer to host visitors in my chambers, rather than that cold, dark throne room. Please, have a drink.”

“No, thank you,” Ace raised his hand.

“Please,” Vashta stressed, “your journey has been long and you need refreshment. It would honor me if you shared this wine with me.” She held out the glass toward him.

Ace bit his lip. As an ambassador, he assumed it was best to be polite and accept her act of hospitality. “I’ll admit I’m not much of a wine drinker, but if it pleases Her Majesty…” He reached forward and accepted the glass. He took a sip and was unable to quench a soured expression as the liquid burned his throat. “Thank you,” he choked out as the duchess’ grin widened.

“Now, what was it you came here to discuss?” The duchess took her glass and turned from the table.

“Well, Your Highness, I was sent on behalf of King Swift to discuss the trade agreement between Kalgara and Valiant. You see–”

“How is the King?” Vashta glanced idly over her shoulder as she stepped up to the couch.

“Um, he’s fine. Busy, as you would expect; hence why I am here. So, basically…”

He trailed off as Vashta yawned loudly and stretched backward against the couch. The robe stretched tight against her body. Ace cleared his throat and looked away.

“As you are aware,” he tried again, “the Pontus Market was founded on both Kalgaran and Valiant land where our countries can come together to set up shops and trade with each other. Lately, our merchants–”

“Your merchants?” The duchess set down her empty glass. “You’re a Daethen.”

“I am a Kalgaran Knight and a dual citizen, Your Highness,” Ace shifted his arm to display the circlet that proved his rank. “Kalgara is my country as much as Northaven is.”

Vashta huffed. “In the history of Kalgara, has there ever been a Daethen dubbed as a Kalgaran Knight–or Ambassador?”

The ambassador’s brows lowered. “I don’t know, probably–but that’s not really the point–”

“Fine!” She turned her body to lean against the couch’s arm rest as the robe threatened to open at her chest. “Continue if you must.”

Ace didn’t have to be an ex-gambler to read into her dismissive attitude. “I can come back at another time if you’d prefer,” he eyed her.

“No, no, no,” Vashta waved her fingers at him. “Please, continue. And drink up–you mustn’t get faint.”

Ace’s mouth hung open for a moment before he looked down at his glass and took another swallow. The bitterness of the wine left a strangely sweet aftertaste, and, in an effort to get her eyes off of him, he finished off the glass before continuing to speak. He let out a breath and set his glass back on the round table.

She turned aside with a faint smile on her lips. “Now, what were you saying?”

“Kalgaran merchants have worked to keep prices reasonable in order to provide Valiant with necessary goods. However, Valiant merchants have–”

“Have a seat,” Vashta patted the couch with her hand.

“Oh, I’m all right here–”

“Sit.” Her words grew sharp.

Ace took a seat on the far edge of the couch begrudgingly. He frowned, awaiting Vashta’s attention as she idly pulled her robe above her knees. “To continue,” he glanced out the stained glass window, “Valiant merchants have not been following the basic rules of the Pontus Market and have either greatly lessened their stock, or are charging much higher prices.”

Vashta pulled her legs onto the couch and offered another yawn. Her golden hair fell on her arms as she drew them over her head.

“This is creating an unfair situation for Kalgara, which defeats the very reason the Pontus Market was founded after the Battle of Recovery. The purpose of my visit was to appeal to you on behalf of the–”

Her bare foot slipped under his thigh.

Ace yelped and shot to his feet. “Excuse me!”

“What?” She pursed her lips.

The knight shook his head. “I apologize, Your Highness, but I’m no longer comfortable with this meeting.”

Vashta grabbed him by the end of his tabard. “Where do you think you’re going?”

“Away.” He grit his teeth.

She grabbed his belt and tugged him closer. “I have a better idea…”

“Nope!” Ace tore from her grasp.

A conniving grin twisted the corners of her lips as her form slunk across her couch.

Ace’s eyes narrowed coldly. “Why didn’t I see this coming? Let’s invite the Kalgaran ambassador into the duchess’ bedchamber and give him wine, all while the duke is conveniently missing…”

Vashta laughed from her throat and curled her arms around her chest, tugging open the edges of her robe. “You talk too much.”

“Because this can go two ways,” Ace held up his fingers, “I shun your advances and you start screaming that the ambassador has attempted to violate you, which incites hatred toward Kalgara all over again; or, I play along with your plan and you scream that the ambassador has actually violated you, which incites hatred toward Kalgara all over again.”

“No wonder good King Dorian chose you,” Vashta rose from the couch. “You’re a smart one.”

“Believe me, I know the tricks because I used to use them.” The knight sneered.

“Then, why did you fall for it so easily?” She took a step towards him, her good eye catching the light of the stained glass window.

“Because I thought maybe, as Duchess, you were above that.”

She winced. “Ooh, that hurts,” she muttered, drawing her hands across her chest. “Why don’t we just get this over with, then.”

“Sorry, ma’am; I’m not on the market for an adulterous relationship.” Ace stepped backward.

“Oh, shut up,” she cooed.

Ace’s eyes darted to the candles. "Oh, shoot," he blurted.

The duchess whipped around fearfully.

The man flew toward the door.

Vashta’s face initially twisted with outrage when she realized she had fallen for his trick, but the grin returned when Ace was found tugging on a locked door.

“Nice try,” Vashta sneered, “But I told them to keep the door firmly locked.”

“Oh, so you’ve got them involved too; all the more Valians to corroborate your story!” Ace slipped away from the door as Vashta squared herself up with him. “I’m surely in for it, now.” He muttered sarcastically.

“You certainly will be when that potion kicks in.” Vashta smiled.

Ace’s stomach turned. The sweetness had not been the wine. 

“I suppose I fell for that too,” his words were guarded, and he immediately began scanning the room for a different way out. His eyes fell upon the crystal flask on the table.

“Now, why don’t we move this to the bed,” she gently tugged the side of her robe to expose one of her thighs. “After all, my husband is away visiting the Daethen King, and surely you understand the power of desire…”

“But of course! I love throwing away my morals and letting my manly desires rule my life.” He mocked through his teeth and flexed his thin arms.

“How about this,” her lips curled impatiently as Ace continued to sidestep around her. “If you don't lie with me, I’ll start screaming right now.”

Ace brought a finger to his mouth. “Screaming now, or screaming later; I’m honestly not sure which I’d prefer.”

Outraged, Vashta roared and leapt at him.

Ace dodged her and ran to the table. The empty glasses clattered over as the table rocked in their wake, but he still managed to slip from her grasp. He skipped a few steps as he adjusted his boot, but he was quick to slide over the back of the lounge as she fell upon it. He pulled one of the purple hangings from the ceiling, tossed it backward, and laughed as it literally tied her up for a moment.

Now at the foot of the bed, he found a tall candlestick with a heavy base against the wall in the corner. He swung around the bedpost and grabbed it, turned to locate the closest window, and only then did he discover daylight shining through a cracked door just on the other side of the bed. Unfortunately, he was forced into the corner when a fuming duchess blocked his path at the end of the bed.

“What do you think you’re doing with that?” She spouted.

He looked at the stand in his hands. “I was thinking you could use some more light in here.”

She looked down her nose at him. "Cut the jokes, Gallagher. You’re only delaying your inevitable degradation." She took a sauntering step closer. “You said it yourself; either way, you’re going to lose. So, why fight it?”

“Oh, I don’t know,” he said, setting the bottom of the stand on the ground. “I think I’ve got a pretty good chance of convincing everyone that this was all your doing.”

Vashta let out a laugh. “As if anyone here will take your word against mine!”

Ace bent down to reach into his boot. “They might believe me if I show them this.”

The duchess’ eyes widened as the knight produced her small crystal flask, still half-filled with the pink liquid of the potion. But, just as before, a dismissive grin tugged on her lips. “You could have brought that here. You were trying to drug me, after all, so you could seduce me…”

“I would bring in a royal flask with your monogram etched into it?” Ace turned the golden “V” toward her.

Her smile soured. “All right. You win. Hand it over and I’ll let you go free.”

“No can do, Your Highness. I give it back, you scream, I lose.”

She took another step. “Give it to me; you have my word.”

“I think it’s best for me to hang on to it for safe keeping,” a smirk painted his face as he slipped it back into his boot, “You know, in case you ever try to accuse me of something I didn’t do in the near future.”

The duchess bared her teeth. “You sneaky, crafty, son of a–”

“Here you go!” Ace threw the candlestick at her, buying him enough time to leap onto the bed to reach the doorway on the other side. A wave of dizziness slowed his movement just enough for Vashta to grab him by the boot. They wrestled for a moment as she attempted to wrench the boot from his foot, but he kicked her hand with his other leg and rolled off the bed. He staggered back to his feet and shoved through the back door. 

He found himself on a small, round balcony overlooking an orchard. Lacking the time to survey any further, he bit his lip and climbed onto the ledge.

“Don’t you dare!!” Vashta hovered in the doorway behind him.

“Please send a letter to the Kalgaran palace detailing your plan for returning the market to our accepted regulations, and we’ll call this meeting good. Thank you!” He saluted her and jumped from the wall.

Ace sliced through tree branches until he hit the ground and rolled to withstand the force of the fall. The potion’s effects were beginning to weigh on his limbs as he got back to his feet, but with Vashta’s angry screams belting behind him, he knew he needed to get out of the area immediately.

He zipped through the orchard, scaled the stone wall that fenced it in, and shuffled down the hill back into town. With every step, his movements grew sluggish. It was becoming difficult to keep his eyes focused as his surroundings swirled dizzily.

He found himself in a dark, empty backroad of the city. He squinted through the fading daylight, but he couldn’t determine where to go. He staggered through the road, pressing against the buildings for balance. 

He leaned against the glass of a wide shop window and peered inside. Intricately carved wooden creatures looked back at him. Their sandy forms began to move, inching towards him.

Ace gasped and backed away as his heart pounded in his ears. He could scarcely turn his head to look at shops across the street before he saw the same figures in their window, silently crawling up to the glass. Their movements blurred as if they were trailing mist. The figures began to morph until they resembled Mioko holding Athena in his arms.

“No!” Ace shouted, mashing his eyes shut and shaking his head as fear and horror gripped his chest. When he opened his eyes, the window had returned to normal. He let out a slow breath–but before he could take another, the forms again began to swirl. More and more figures seemed to rise from every window, every doorway, every dark corner–all of them bearing Mioko and Athena’s resemblance. He could see the pain in Mioko’s eyes as he trudged toward him. He could see the way Athena’s body hung lifelessly in his arms. He shrieked and threw up his hands as he rushed away from them.

He ran blindly down the street until he reached a wide square, but the figures were still lumbering towards him from every angle. 

“Get away from me!!” He yelled, his knees weak and his body trembling. “This isn’t happening–it’s–it’s not happening!”

But the once silent forms began to rumble in his ears. They had surrounded him like a terrifying mist. Hissing, like the sparks of faulty electric wire, pierced through his brain and threw him into a panic.

He ran one way, stumbled, caught his balance, and tried to run in three other directions as the forms held out their hands toward him and stopped him in his tracks.

“Go away!!” He cried as tears streamed from his eyes, “Get away from me!!”

The rumble became deafening. The figures closed in.

He let out a horrified cry as he was grabbed forcibly by the shoulders.

“Sir! Snap out of it!!” The older man cried, his face bent in worry as the man writhed in his grasp and shouted various syllables. He lost his grip and panicked himself when Ace ran straight into his wife, screaming.

Grabbing his walking stick, he swung it and struck the knight square in the forehead.

Ace froze, silent and still. He dropped to his knees, his eyes then drooped closed, and he collapsed onto the cobblestone.

“What’s all this racket?” A Valiant knight rushed into the square, pushing through the small crowd that had formed as a second followed.

The elder man was still gripping his walking stick over his head. “This–this man was in delusion! He tried to attack me and my wife!”

The dark-haired knight hurried over and nearly gasped when he saw the color of Ace’s tunic. “It’s the Kalgaran Ambassador!!”

“How was I supposed to know?” The man spouted, “he sure doesn’t look Kalgaran!”

“Just–everyone, go back to your homes; we will take care of this!” The dark-haired knight waved his arms as the second knelt down beside the unconscious knight. Once the square had been cleared, he, too, crouched beside him. “The duchess was screaming about him breaking out of her room–but then she told us not to go after him. What on earth could have happened?”

“I’m not sure, but she made it very clear we were to leave him be,” the second knight mentioned, wincing when he turned Ace’s head to find an open gash across his forehead. "If word gets back to her about this, we were not the ones who struck him.”

The dark-haired knight shook his head, though he stopped when he caught a glimmer tucked into the side of his boot. Curious, he grasped the flask in his fingers and removed it. “Stealing from the duchess,” he gaped when the golden “V” was spotted. He pulled out the plug and sniffed the remaining liquid. His eyes bugged from his head. "Is this vendelirium??”

The second’s face paled. “Put it back–now.”

“But shouldn’t we–”

“Put it back.” He stressed, adding with a hiss, “This is why the duchess wanted us to leave him alone…” 

The dark-haired knight glanced at him. “I don’t understand: why wouldn’t she want us to remove this evidence against her?  Are you sure we can trust him not to speak about this?”

The bottle was plucked from his fingers and returned the flask into Ace’s boot.

“We have no other choice,” the other stood after the deed was done. “The duchess stressed that we must allow him to leave. If we take it, he may suspect we are covering it up for her. For now,” he sighed, “we need to get him to a doctor and explain he was struck in the head, but do not breathe a word of the potion. Our royal family's reputation must not be tarnished.” 

“Of course,” the dark-haired knight narrowed his eyes toward the castle, “although, it seems the duchess has grown incredibly careless…”

The two knights scooped Ace up from under his shoulders and walked him down the road to the nearest doctor.

As soon as the knight came into view, the king urged his steed and hurried down the hill. He practically leapt from the saddle and ran up to Ace with a wearied expression.

“Ace–what in the world happened??”

“Hey, Dorian, how’s it going?” Ace smirked as he held his horse’s reins in his hand.

Dorian raised his visible eyebrow. “You know, it’s hard to stick to formalities when someone is a day late and shows up with a gash across his forehead.”

Ace glanced up, as if looking at his own head. “I suppose you have a point. It’s an awfully exciting story–and one you’ll never hear from a single Valiant.” He grinned toothily.

“Okay; explain.”

“Basically, Duke Oscar was out of town, and when that happens, Duchess Vashta’s meetings are relocated out of the cold, dark throne room and into her bedchamber…”

Dorian paled. “Oh, no…”

“She had a pretty elaborate plot in place. I mean, think of the scandal when the Kalgaran Ambassador was caught trying to take advantage of the Duchess of Valiant!”

The king was already wincing. “What did you do?”

“I found a loophole.” He bent down and removed the flask from his boot and handed it to the ex-potioneer.

Dorian didn’t even have to open the bottle. “She drugged you with vendelirium??”

“Yes, and it was not my finest hour when they found me roaming the streets in a panic. Honestly, that's… that’s something I hope I never have to experience ever again.” Ace cleared his throat, “But–as you can see–I took the undeniable evidence with me.”

The king turned the flask in his fingers. The golden V shimmered in the light. 

“My best guess is she told her cronies to leave me alone, or they got one look at the flask in my boot, knew what it meant, and then they couldn’t get me out of there fast enough. When I finally came back to my senses in the hospital this morning, my horse and this letter were waiting outside as a ‘go away’ present.”

Dorian looked up from the bottle as Ace produced a wax-sealed parchment from Lady’s saddle bag. He traded the flask for the letter, broke the seal, and opened the letter.

“‘His Majesty, King Dorian Swift,’” he read. “‘Thank you for sending Ambassador Gallagher on your behalf to discuss the matter of Pontus Market. I assure you that these citizens do not represent the spirit of Valiant as a whole, and that this behavior is uncalled for. From this day forward, Valiant merchants will adhere to the rules and regulations set by both Valiant and Kalgara to ensure the success of the market. This letter, written in my own hand, is signed by Vashta Barclay, Duchess of Valiant, under the rule of His Excellency, King Rei Laude of Daethos.’”

“Mission accomplished.” Ace pointed at Dorian.

“‘Post Scriptum,’” Dorian added. “‘The Duchess would appreciate that the matter of my missing flask remain unspoken in order to protect the reputation of both of our countries. Thank you for your understanding.’”

A smile finally found its way onto Dorian’s face. “You can be awfully crafty when you want to be, Sir Gallagher.”

“So I’ve been told.” He batted his eyes.

Dorian shook his head with a chuckle. “All right, so how did you bust your forehead?”

Ace’s lips twisted. "Remember when I said it wasn’t my finest hour when I was under the vendelirium? I apparently scared some old guy with a cane…”

Dorian clapped his hand against his bearded chin, but was unable to stifle a laugh. “And here, I was expecting some exciting addition to the ‘matter of the missing flask’.”

“Hey–it may not be glorious, but it still hurts!”

“I’m sorry,” the king managed to get out. 

Ace rolled his eyes as the two started up the hill. Ace’s appaloosa and Dorian’s gray buck followed loyally behind them.

“You know,” Dorian said after a moment, “you really risked a lot in order to protect Kalgara’s reputation–not to mention your own. We all would have taken a huge hit if Vashta’s schemes had come to pass.”

Ace shrugged, but glanced at his friend when Dorian patted him on the back. 

“Thankfully, Vashta didn’t know who she was dealing with. But thank you, Ace. Thank you for doing what you did.”

“Like I wouldn’t have?” Ace appeared amused. “Come on.”

The king grinned almost sheepishly. “I knew I made the right choice appointing you as ambassador.”

“I mean, honestly, as the King of Kalgara,” Ace fingered his chin, “you need all the help you can get.”

“Thanks, Ace, I’m glad your sense of humor remains unharmed.” Dorian replied dryly.

“Now if you don’t mind, Your Highness,” Ace huffed with a hand on his temple, “I’d like to go sleep off this headache before I head back to Fortanya.”

The king nodded as Matthew met them at the palace gate. “I believe that can be arranged, Ambassador.”

 

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I originally wrote and shared this in 2020 but I tweaked it a few months ago to match where the story has progressed since I wrote it. Recent discoveries definitely makes the venedelirium sequence more poignant since it's showing Ace one of the worst moments he's had this entire series (vs just random terror--it's now targeted terror, heh)... and why I was hesitant to repost it since it's spoilery.

I may do a Some Story Talk (Some Spoiler Talk? lol) to go through some of these changes, especially since the Athena one hit me as I was driving listening to a song that popped up on my shuffle...

I also redrew the sketch I had made back when I wrote this too.

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“Tabard… right… I need one of those…” Ace was muttering to himself as he shuffled through the bustling streets of Montrose. “At least they’ll give me armor and a… a helper person; and I’ve got my sword,” he glanced at his shoulder as the owl on his shoulder made a clacking sound with her beak.

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Ace stopped and joined the others gathered at the booth, eyeing the selection or wares hung from poles along the back. He perked up when he found tabards in traditional colors of each country: red and gold for Daethos, red and blue for Northaven, green and white for Weiva, and lavender and gold for Valiant. He frowned when Kalgara’s gold and blue was not found among them, but he was not surprised. Despite the peace treaty signed after the war, Kalgara was still not considered part of Daethos’ reign.

But then, a tabard in a simple shade of red with a black stripe down the middle and along its edges caught his eye.

“Excuse me!” 

Orfea hopped onto his head as he squeezed between two women to reach the booth’s front table. 

“Aye, how canna’ help ye’?” The red-haired man stepped up to the opposite side, blinking when he found himself face to face with a barn owl.

Ace coaxed Orfea to step onto his hand, and he returned her to his shoulder before pointing to the back wall. “What country are those colors for?”

The man glanced backward, following the direction of Ace’s gloved finger. A smile tugged at his lips when he saw the red and black fabric. “Oh, that’s one for the Spades District in Southern Northaven.”

“The Spades District,” the gambler began to grin. “Of course.”

“Aye, my new seamstress just made it th’ other day,” he turned back to Ace. ”I assume yer’ familiar?”

“I was born and raised in Fortanya.”

“That’s th’ heart of it, all right.” The man nodded.

“Ill take it,” Ace started to reach for his money bag.

The man’s smile grew genuine. “Oh, thank ye’, sir. My daughter will be–I mean–”

“Your daughter is your new seamstress?” Ace paused when he caught the slip.

The shopkeeper shrugged with open palms. “Aye, just… tryin’a get her interested in th’ family business.” He turned back to the wall and pulled it down from the pole. He handed it to Ace and watched as he ran his thumbs along the black edges. “Since we moved here, she’s become enamored over Northaven’s districts. I think she just likes th’ emblems.”

Sure enough, Ace’s thumbs found a pair of small embroidered swords crossed over a black, leaf-like spade on the top right of the tabard. “She does very good work,” he said, setting the fabric down on the table. “This will be perfect.”

“Very good, sir. The tabards are thirty silver pieces.”

“Thirty?” His hands froze in place. He knew he didn’t have thirty–not since buying Orfea and food for them both over the last two days; still, he felt compelled to sift through the bag nonetheless–if only just to show he was trying. “...I’m very sorry, sir; I only have twenty-two. I didn’t mean to waste your time,” he frowned and started to hand the tabard back to the man.

The man held up his hands. “No–I’ll split the difference.”

“What?”

“I really want her to sell her first tabard,” the man set a hand on the cloth to stop its movement. “Fifteen pieces, and it’s yours.”

“Sir, at least let me give you what I have–”

“Fifteen,” he stressed. “It’s going to a good home. ‘Sides, ye’ll need provisions while yer here for th’ tournament.”

Ace smiled, then bent down to count out fifteen pieces. He handed them to the shopkeeper, who accepted them gladly. “Thank you sir, I don't know what to say.”

“I’ll accept yer name,” he reached out once his hand was free of the coins.

Ace grasped his hand and shook it. “Ace Gallagher.”

“Ace?” He repeated, cracking a wide grin. “It really is goin’ to a good home, isn’t it.”

Ace simply smirked.

“I’m Robert Murphy. My wife, there at the other end of the booth, is Charlotte. My daughter, Rose, is not here at th’ moment, but I’ll be sure to tell her she’s made a sale.”

“And tell her when I have more money, I will buy all the Spades District gear she’s got.”

Robert gave a hearty chuckle. “I'll do it. Enjoy th’ tournament, Ace; I assume you're rooting for th’ Knight o’ Northaven?”

Ace chewed on his smile. “Yeah, I sure am.”

“Well, I’ll wish th’ best of luck to Northaven tomorrow on your behalf!” He raised a fist.

“Thank you, Robert, I’ll...” he paused, “I’ll bet he’ll need it.”

“And that’s one very well behaved bird ye’ve got there!” He pointed to Orfea. “I’ve been meanin’ to say so.”

“Oh, thanks,” he reached up to gently stroke the bird’s feathers. “She’s a good judge of character.”

Robert simply chuckled. “Good'ay, Ace.”

“Good day,” he nodded.

Ace returned to the crowd, again weaving around the groups of visitors, vowing to save the rest of his money for absolute emergencies. He almost immediately caved when he passed a booth selling sweet pies and savory pastry pockets–and the rumble of hunger in his stomach convinced him to stop for lunch. Thankfully, the meat-filled treat was only one more of his silver pieces, but the dwindling number in his money bag reminded him how much he needed the prize.

“I sure hope I can win this thing,” he again began to mutter to himself as he returned to the arena with his new tabard and dinner in hand. He took a bite of the pastry and then pinched off a bit of the shredded pork inside to hand it to Orfea. She swallowed it gladly.

“‘Cause, if not… well,” his focus turned inward, “I don’t think Athena’s going to give me another chance.”

 

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More from the jousting story! This one happens before the tournament (as I'm sure you gathered) and also stemmed from me realizing how little Ace really has when he goes into this thing. I really kinda glossed over that in the first draft... ha.

Also figured out how I could still work "Spades" in since I changed the country's name to Northaven. Now Spades is a district! The only other I know of is the Diamonds district (the line of distinction between the two is very apparent) and I assume the other card suits have their place too.

Lastly, I swapped Ace buying a mini dragon to Ace buying a barn owl off an old lady. I did kinda forget Ace gets her in this story... so she should still be around in Book 5.

Fun story for Orfea's name: my old boss/friend Ken and his wife took me to go see the opera "Orfeo ed Euridice" at one of the colleges one evening when I was working with them. We ate at Cracker Barrel  before, where I found a snowy owl plush that I had to purchase. We went to the opera, and enjoyed it, and on the way home I decided I would name the owl Orfea (because even the "actor" playing Orfeo/Orpheus was a girl/alto and I wanted her to be a girl owl). So even though Ace's owl is not a snowy owl, I still like the name for an owl. And Orfea means "darkness of night" so it works well for an owl anyway.

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September 01, 2024
The Final Joust
A Tale of Ace Gallagher Short from Book #4

“And now: the final match of this tournament,” Havar proclaimed from atop his dusty friesian. “The two knights who have fought with the most skill, prowess–and even some cunning–will take to the ring one last time and prove who is, indeed, the best of all knights in the realm!”

Despite some booing left over from the outcome of the previous joust, the crowd, as a whole, was feeding right into the hype the grandmaster was giving them.

“One knight, seasoned with experience and adeptly skilled; the other, a young challenger who has proven his worth with ruthless determination. These knights: Sir Lucas Santiago of Daethos, and Sir Michael Gallagher of Northaven!”

Ed blinked. “Gallagher? You’ve got to be kidding me…”

The crowd burst into a lively cheer around him.

Havar turned his horse and began to pace her slowly across the field. “As these knights suit up one last time, let us recall the daring feats we have witnessed today.”

While the grandmaster began to recall the first joust, Ed took his chance to slip out of the arena. He staggered to a stop, noting the number of patrolmen stationed at the door had doubled since he had entered. They glanced at him for only a moment, but soon turned their attention back to the field. His brows lowered, he continued past them without another look.

He hurried around the hill, finding a worn path that led into the knights’ courtyard. He scanned the canvas tents, each decorated in the colors of each knight, looking for any sign of Ace among them. He stepped into the camp and immediately crossed the open tent of Sir Santiago. He was turned away as his squire fastened his breastplate. His black and white tunic was stained with mud, sharply contrasted by the brighter colors of the banners hanging around him.

Beside it, Ed found another tent bearing Daethos’ colors and crest–along with a second crest with a golden lion on a field of red. The tent was closed, but there was clearly activity going on behind the canvas. The next two tents were empty, bearing the green coat of arms for Weiva, the lavender shades of Valiant. The next tent was closed and only had a few red and black banners tied to the posts.

At last, Ed approached the tent with the coat of arms of Northaven, but he found the tent flap closed. He frowned, debating bursting into the tent to catch Ace off guard.

“Here you are, sir.”

Ed abruptly turned around to face the stables across from the circle of tents to find an older man adjusting the pauldron on a young man’s right shoulder.

“Holy mother of dracleons: that is Ace Gallagher in a jousting tournament…” Ed whispered under his breath.

He discreetly slipped into an empty stall, blending into the shadows as both Ace and his armor-bearer were facing away from him. He held his breath, watching the man tighten the straps of the knight’s armor one last time.

“Ow–careful,” Ace winced, grasping the sleeve of his red and black tunic.

“My apologies, Sir. That shoulder’s taken quite a beating,” Wayland mentioned gently. “You would do well to not fall from your horse another time.”

“That’s easy for you to say,” he puffed air through his lips. He then squared up with Wayland as the man lifted the silver helmet from the rack. As it was held in the air between them, Ace’s lips tugged to a smile. “Thanks for all your help, Wayland,” he said.

The older gentleman simply slipped the helmet onto the knight’s head and offered, “I am here to serve.” When he stepped back to survey his work, he caught Ace’s green eyes–barely visible beneath the shadow of the helmet.

“You show great promise, Sir Gallagher,” Wayland nodded, crossing his wrists as his arms hung at his middle. “Keep up your training, and I wouldn’t doubt this land will one day be filled with your tales.”

He let out a short laugh. “I’m not sure I want that anymore, to be honest.”

Wayland’s half-grin stretched beneath his gray mustache, and he turned to retrieve Lady from her stable. He assisted Ace into the high-backed jousting saddle, then adjusted the red and black caparison beneath it that covered the mare’s white and brown fur. Lastly, he carefully attached the shield to Ace’s already tender shoulder.

“Are you ready, sir?” he asked.

“As I’ll ever be,” Ace quipped, gathering the reins in his hand.

The hired armor bearer nodded and followed silently behind the Knight of Northaven as they entered the tiltyard. The clouds were continuing to thicken in the air, dulling the once vibrantly sunny day. It seemed even the weather knew the end of the tournament was near.

Back in the shadows, Ed’s lips were skewed. He was shocked no one had bothered to check Ace’s true pedigree; stunned no one realized Ace was only a knight in honor, not in skill. He, on the other hand, had worked up the ranks and trained daily to earn his position as a knight in order to join the Daethen Patrol–although it had all been stripped upon his departure from the program. How could Ace simply slip through and gain a position in one of Daethos’ most prestigious games without doing any of the work to get there?

Cheers wafted into the stables as Sir Gallagher waved his hand to the crowded stands. 

Ed took a step into the middle of the room, watching the spectacle unfold.

And yet, somehow, the former thief and gambler had advanced to the final round.

“It has to be luck,” Ed muttered under his breath. “That’s all that kid has going for him.”

“Excuse me,” a voice came from behind him.

Ed scooted aside to find the black and white knight and his armor bearer entering the stable. He watched the armor bearer take the golden-colored mare from her stall and hold her reins as the knight climbed into the saddle. They then entered the field to a similar cacophony of cheers.

A bellowing voice was quickly approaching from the opposite direction. He slid back into the stall moments before a bearded knight in red and gold entered the stable with a purpose. His squire was running to keep up.

“Fetch my horse!” Sir Laude growled, adjusting the pieces of his armor as he stood in the center of the room.

The squire, however, was heaving to catch his breath with wide eyes. “Sir–I don’t–”

“Don’t what?” The knight roared to the squire, “Are you getting cold feet, Ratlin?”

The squire shook, raising up his hands as his eyes darted between the cries from the field, the snorting of the horse, and Rei’s seething breath.

“Well?”

"I just don’t–what if it doesn’t work?"

The squire could not move fast enough by the time he noticed the knight’s hands were on the golden hilt of his sword. He was slashed across the arm as he rolled away, shrieking as blood began staining the gray sleeves of his tabard.

“If you’re not on my side, I have no need for you!” Rei gripped the draconic sword with a tight fist. “Get out of here!!”

The squire staggered over his own feet and bolted out of the stables.

“You! Stablehand!”

Ed jumped, finding the knight glaring at him through the dim light.

“Fetch my horse, will you?” He slid the sword into its sheath. “The black stallion.”

The man swallowed and ran to the stall of the black stallion. He flinched when the horse pawed at the ground and snorted when he opened the stall, but he took the reins in his hand and led it out with a firm hand. The horse tried to back away more than once, but each time, Ed regained control.

Sir Laude watched the man work. “You have a good hand with horses,” he commented.

“Thank you, sir.” Ed nodded as the knight climbed onto his horse.

The knight turned toward the camp. “Attend, ho!”

Out of habit, Ed stood straight and fell in line behind Sir Laude–as a handful of other men rushed in and joined him.

Rei’s stance perked up at Ed’s gesture. “Are you a knight?”

Ed remained still under Rei’s scrutiny. “I was,” he emphasized the past tense.

Rei fingered his beard. “Daethos?”

“Northaven.”

“That will do.” The Knight of Daethos shifted in his saddle. “You lot–stay behind me and wait for my signal. My plan will not fail because of the men currently on this field.”

Ed swallowed again, glancing to the field before him as Sir Gallagher lined up for his final joust.

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This was on the shorter side, and I remember writing it when I realized Ace would probably be assigned a random armor bearer to help him when he joins the jousting tournament. Wayland is an elderly fellow who ends up really helping coach Ace through everything (along with Sir Lucas being a very kind opponent).

Also, as much as Ace seems to be getting along off luck -- in Ed's opinion -- ironically, it also sets things up for Ed's future...

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August 31, 2024
The Rant Session
needed to switch to article mode

Said it'd be a post, so here it goes. I put all the Rook stuff in the chat since her situation isn't part of the rant, it just is happening on the tail end of things. (This being written at 8/27 17:30, so any changes will just be tacked on at the end.)

I know I've mentioned it here at some point, but when I had to pick a pediatrician I went with one about an hour away. The doctors in this area aren't great, and one of the things I wanted was to do vaccines on my schedule. We know people who have had kids have awful allergic reactions to some vaccines, so doing things like splitting the ones grouped together was what I wanted to do just on the off-chance Minerva had some type of reaction. Figure out which she had the reaction to easier and all that. And, there are some vaccines kids--babies especially--should not get because they don't need them. These are for sexually transmitted (or needle transmitted) diseases. Now, if people want to have the conversation why they're injecting kids and babies to prevent a sexually transmitted disease, then let's have it. But, it's easier to just ignore the why and shoot a preventative into them. And easier to pretend these preventatives don't come with adverse side effect a great deal of the time.

This brings me to her birth. Or extraction. And I'll have to talk about what that was like a little. In a word: horrifying.

It wasn't the c-section that was horrifying either. You can mentally prepare for that to some degree. You know they'll cut into you, and that recovery is going to suck (even if you don't know how much), and that you'll be limited greatly (even if you don't get how great). You know you'll get a spinal, and that you won't be able to feel any of the cutting. And you know you won't feel your legs or be able to walk for a while. Even if you know 'a while' is 8 hours, it doesn't really prepare you for how completely horrifying the spinal is.

It doesn't really hurt when they do it. Kind of like a pinch and pressure on your spine. But, then you instantly get this burning, and you feel the burning flowing down your spine and that burning is the last thing you feel. You feel it travel and as it makes it's way down, you lose all feeling and sensation right down to your toes. And that's it, totally helpless. Can't sit up. Can't roll. Paralysis completely, except you can feel them pulling and tugging once they have their hands inside of you and once they're stitching the different muscle layers back together. Doesn't hurt, but you feel it. 

Nurses move your legs. Nurses throw you from table to bed. And they constantly check after surgery to make sure you aren't paralyzed for real by asking you to move things. But, what's really bad, is that you know somehow what position your legs are in, and you know that normally it isn't very comfortable--or that you've been in that position too long and need to change it up. And you can't. Your brain keeps sending the signal, and nothing happens. And you know why so you can talk yourself out of panic, but there still is a little bit of it just because your body doesn't work.

Oh, and the spinal travels upward a little after they pull the baby out. So, they drop her two inches from your nose, and you can't really see her without seriously crossing your eyes. And for me... I didn't have that magical, instant bonding experience. I was just going, 'okay, I can barely see her and my right arm is going numb, and I want to get out of here so I can actually meet her properly and start bonding'.

So, they take her away. My mom goes with her so that she isn't sent to the nursery. And then starts the 30+ minute process of stitched me up. Which you can feel but not really feel. The doctor is tugging the threads so hard your body gets jerked and tugged, but you don't feel pain or anything. You just know it would be nice if it was sped up. (Like them actually removing her which I mentioned in the chat--it's 8/29 now). I don't finally get to hold her until all this is done, so somewhere between 30-45 minutes after she's born.

And it was barely a minute. My mom handed her to me. I got to pretty much look at her before a nurse or someone comes in and takes her, puts her off to the side, and hands me two consent forms to sign. Vitamin K shot and Hep B shot. So, I'm trying to remember what Vitamin K was used for. I skimmed about it many months ago, and my only experience with it is that the feral vet used it on Pim Mattie when he was crashing. I'm going 'wait she looked okay to me though for the half a minute I saw her'. But then you get the Hep B. I was going 'that's the one I don't want... isn't that the one I don't want, I thought I had a month before they tried to give her that'. My mom, who knew all the stuff I looked into, flat out asks what the Hep B was. And the b*tch lied to her and said it was a SKIN TO SKIN CONTACT. So now I'm like... is this the other Hep? Because they told my mother Minerva could get it if someone held her! Which is a complete lie! And so, less than an hour old, and I messed up by saying they could give her both shots.

My sister looked it up that night and confirmed it was the sexually transmitted/needle transmitted Hep that I originally thought it was. That I wasn't given any time to process. And somewhere in my gut I knew. I was watching them stab her in the thighs just mentally going 'this is wrong'. I pretty much consented to them hurting her, maybe really impacting her negatively later down the road. I still can't think about it with it really messing me up, because part of me says maybe if I instantly bonded, I would've been more protective and stopped them.

But, we're not finished yet. Minerva was awake the entire day and well into the night she was born. Very unusual (and extremely likely because of the Vitamin K). I went about the motions of holding and feeding her. My mom had to stay until after 9 to change her diapers since I still couldn't move. It was getting better by the hour in that area, but it was still surreal and out of a sci-fi horror to have your body just not respond to your brain. I think I was starting with fairly big movements for the situation because my brain was screaming for 8 hours to move. I was up and walking without help (despite the nurses' efforts) right around he 8-hour mark.

Now I'm starting to get tired. The adrenaline is gone. I can walk again, and it's just me and my baby. And she's also finally starting to fall asleep. Naturally, I'm going 'good we can both get some rest because today was a lot'. But, not so. And I don't really blame the night nurse on this part. He--yep, it was a dude--kept coming in to wake us both up. He had to make sure she was eating every three hours. Had to make sure I wasn't bleeding out/change my pee bag/check me pee bucket once he got rid of the pee bag (childbirth is gross y'all). The only problem with all this was it meant I wasn't sleeping. First night: 15 minutes. Minerva just slept. It was a lot to get her to wake up, and to eat, and I ended up asking how normal all that was, but also remembered she being awake for over 9 hours straight was not normal. But, since I kept asking about the feeding, he did go find formula and see if she wanted it off his finger. Which she didn't, so he guessed she was eating enough off me. But it still didn't feel right.

[Quick break with some funny regarding that first night nurse. He was a gay man. So, when you get a c-section, because you're dead from roughly the bottom of your lungs down, nurses with come violently massage your stomach every two hours to help your body get rid of clots. Once you can move around, you pee into a bucket in the toilet so that you can see if you have clots bigger than a golf ball. Those are bad clots. Well, my day nurse--a girl about my age--explained it to me like period clots. If it just looks like a period, no worries. If it's too much or too big compared to that, call the nurse. Well, I had a clot not golf ball sized but not a tiny thing. Not anything unusual, so didn't call my night nurse. He went into the bathroom to check the pee bucket, quietly freaked, and called a more senior nurse in to look. She's like 'no that's normal'.

Second funny story with him, when I was really starting to complain about how I didn't think Minerva was eating enough, he goes 'let me show you something... can I touch your breast' but the way he said it was like 'noooo'. And he kind of air mimed and just told me want to do instead. Like, his hand got close, flinched, and he just instructed me. I was so tired at this point (and starting to worry about my kid) that I almost laughed.

He must really think the whole new baby thing is magical or something to want to work that ward when his interest in the female is so limited.]

Night nurse goes to day nurse, and now it's a new set of people coming in to introduce themselves, check vitals on me and the baby, and all that. I meet the pediatrician assigned to her for our stay. I bring up eating with all of them, because something is just not seeming right. And now all she does is sleep. She's up a few random minutes to eat. Doesn't really dirty diapers. I'm told in her first 24 hours she'd dirty one diaper and pee one, and the joke was she was ahead of schedule because she had around seven dirties/pees in her first few hours (why my mom stayed so long--this is also likely because of having a vitamin shot into her veins). The lactation consultants visit, I bring up the feeding with them. They keep showing me a circle pinned to their uniforms the size of a red, seedless grape telling me that was her stomach size so only a few drops of the super-rich colostrum would be what she needed. Nurses wore the same button, told me the same thing. During the day, blood is taken from Minerva to send to the state for various reasons they're unclear on. Just drops on a piece of paper, not a vial. And she screamed and cried and it still is unclear why they did that. Test and public safety or something. No specifics.

Second night nurse comes in. I bring up feeding. Same story with the grape pin. She takes blood from Minerva, and she doesn't cry or barely wake up. And I'm like 'hey she didn't cry or anything and you just sliced her heel and squeezed the heck out of it to bleed a vial full'. Nurse says she's good at her job, then asks me to take a quick survey and to shout out specific people. First off, I wasn't paying attention. Second, WTF? I mention the previous night nurse, the housekeeper, and I just offhandedly 'I guess you too because you cut her and bled her and she didn't wake up or cry'. She goes, 'cool your pain meds are scheduled for 6am, see you then'. I never saw her again. 

By 7am, I really, really needed those meds and I said something to a midwife (my group that was supposed to do all my care and delivery would send someone to check on me since they were not doing care because of the c-section) and she just told me to call for a nurse since she couldn't give me meds. I call. No nurse. 8am rolls around, shift change. I meet my day nurse about fifteen minutes later, get meds and water, and bring up the eating thing again. She gives the same speech, but also obviously knows I keep bringing this up, because I got a whole swat team of lactation consultants later. ...Who all gave me the same speech, showed me the button, and just kept squeezing my boob. And at this point--another sign something wasn't right--all the boob stuff was hurting. I was actually bleeding. My day nurse came to me with a 'so you have four days here but you could get out today if you want'. I heard this before from others, so of course, 'if my baby is all good and healthy, I'm taking her home'. My discharge orders are put in, doctor comes to check Minerva out, says she's all good, and we get ready to leave.

Oh, but I didn't forget about that Hep B or that night nurse. When she did her survey I brought up the shots, just coming from the OR and being blindside. So, when the new nurse leader for the day shift came to check on me because I was leaving, she wanted another survey. Brought up the shots, and then 'oh yeah... I never got my pain meds from that night nurse, sort of uncomfortable'. I hadn't met the day nurse at this point or the hearing tester, because they were both cool enough. One brought me a whole team of--unfortunately useless--consultants and the other let me hover and take pictures of the test she was preforming. Very curious when they found out Minnie's "origins". Thought it was neat and beautiful (I still think it's kind of weird and I'm the one that did it, lol).

We're almost to the end of the rant. But first, a nitpick annoyance that happened all the way back when I was getting out of surgery, because I forgot until I was in the shower. Night before, I'm told no food or drink after midnight. So, light dinner as late as possible, and no fluids by I think nine or ten, because, y'know sleep. When the nurse went to find a vein she's like 'wow you must be dehydrated, I'm having trouble'. Umm, yes? And I told her yeah, no food and drink because of surgery, and she's just 'oh yeah that's right'. So, first time she tried she popped my blood vessel (the huge bruise is finally not dark purple anymore, and I remembered all this because I saw it in the shower). This bruise is on my right forearm. Second time, left under-wrist. No luck, I watched the needle bend, so if she had pushed it like the first attempt, also would've bruised. My mom is going 'why not the crook of her arm, you can see those without tying off'. And they said they do that as the absolute last resort because it interferes with holding/feeding the baby. Okay, understandable. But where did they put the IV? In my right wrist joint. So... just in my dominate hand in a spot that is in constant motion, including feeding and holding the baby.

But now the end. Discharged Friday afternoon. Have an appointment with Minnie's actual pediatrician for Saturday late morning. The other option was Monday first thing in the morning, but since I live so far I went 'aw man, I wanted a rest from doctors and stuff, but no way let's do Saturday'. First thing when we check in, they ask if the hospital gave her those shots. I said yes, they ambushed me after surgery, and we are not doing the follow ups for the Hep B. They ask if I have concerns. Yes, I'm starting to get very paranoid about her eating because something isn't feeling right about the whole thing.

Her weight had dropped significantly from when they discharged me (her weight loss was in normal levels according to them), her blood sugar had tanked, and it was recommended to take her back to the hospital through the ER so she could be monitored and fed around the clock a few days. She backtracked a bit when I said where I delivered, recommending I take her to the hospital arund the corner instead if I really need to go to the ER. I basically excused myself at this point before I completely freaked out, and left my mom to get all French-Canuck to sus things out and go off on the hospital.

Well, after talking to my mom, they tried her on formula and she held it down. So, I was given some to take home and to just go thru the weekend. I guess my mom mentioned to her I had a c-section, and the doctor was like 'and they let her leave after two nights!?' so, yeah all that is crazy too. I had to look this up, because I wasn't told and absoluetly should have been, but when you do a c-section you get your milk in later. So, this kid of mine was kind of being starved and hurting me in the process because I had no milk and wasn't making near anywhere enough colostrum. I did finally get it in, but that was Monday night and Minnie was already on the formula to make sure she was eating/tolerating it. Plus, it was bloody. Hopefully I didn't accidently give her a taste for human blood. That'd be awkward.

I am going to try to combo feed, and ween her back to milk. It'll just have to be in a bottle. She makes the most disgusted faces when I try it natural. It's funny, mildly insulting, but I'm not going to complain too much since that freaking hurts.

I suppose enough time has gone by for me to start forgetting stuff (now it's 8/31). The take away from it all is that the hospital with the bad reputation that I wasn't supposed to deliever at, I delivered at, and it was a horrible experience. Mostly because of the ambushing with the shots she doesn't need and shouldn't've had. I have my own medical junk tied to the whole thing too with the cutting open and recovery of that. but... oh, I remembered another thing that hospital did.

To end for real, they gave me a prescription for oxycodine to take home, and offered it the whole time I was there. While they knew I was exclusively breatfeeding. I thought that was very odd, so didn't take it and just kept to a single motrin every 8-10 hours. I checked when I was discharged, and my suspcions about it were correct: you don't take that while breastfeeding because you can cause health issues on top of getting them addicted. No wonder they treat all newborns like crack babies and there is an addiction problem in this area.

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