The fluorescent overhead emitted a dull hum. It filled the cramped office overflowing with untidy boxes of files with a too-bright white light. It flickered, drawing her green eyes up to the humidity stained ceiling.
âAnd you like to be called Penny,â said the frumpy, rail- thin woman. She peered at Penny over thick glasses that magnified her chunky mascara. âHm⊠Penny. It's cute. Hm⊠your last case worker didn't leave me much to work withâŠ.â
Penny kicked her feet, her toes brushing the floor. âI think they didnât stay even a year?â
âHmâŠ,â the case worker murmured noncommittally. âSt. Brigidâs Home is your primary residenceâŠâ She looked at Penny over her glasses. âAre you forced to go to Mass?â
âI donât know,â Penny said, still swinging her legs.
âDonât knowâŠ.â The case worker flipped through the folder. âBeen in care since infancy. Surrendered⊠Nothing else on the mother⊠No mention of father whatsoeverâŠ.â
âMy other name is Fox,â Penny said helpfully. âThat came from my mom.â
The case worker gave her a tired, thin smile. She set the folder aside but kept it open. She set her gaze on Penny, keeping silent long enough for the small girl to start squirming.
âDo you like living in the group home? Do you feel you get enough attention?â
A soft knock sounded on the doorframe, the office having no door but only half a curtain. The young womanâs plain, dark shoes, black stockings, and ankle length blue-gray skirt were visible before she gently brushed the curtain aside. She wore a matching blue-gray veil pinned to her black hair and a smile that matched the softness she had knocked with.
âSister,â Penny greeted joyfully, jumping off her chair.
âI assume youâre from St. Brigidâs,â the case worker asked.
âI am. Sister Mary Agnes,â she said with a small incline of her head. She smiled down at Penny, offering her hand. âAre you ready to go home?â
âCan we talk a moment first,â the case worker asked. She gestured to the open file. âHer file is really bare. I could use a little help.â
The Sister hesitated. She gave Penny another smileâthis one more forcedâand gave her a light push towards the doorway.
âPlease, wait in the hall for me,â she said. âIâll be along shortly.â
Penny gave the Sister a quizzical look but went into the hall without fuss. She leaned against the wall and casually looked up and down the hall at the other case workersâ offices. Murmurs and mutters from the other doorless offices filled the hall in an uninteresting muddle.
âMary Agnes, you said? How long have you been involved with Penny?â
âAlways⊠to some degree. Iâm acquainted with her birth mother. In a caretaker role, Iâd say the last two years. âŠOf course, Iâm only one of many Sisters.â
âHm⊠she was in specialized infant care, I assume? Then to the home⊠then to a familyâŠ. What happened there? Itâs more common for young children to stay with families than go back to a group home. Learning disability? Behavioral issue?â
âYou would have to ask the Mother Superior.â
âWould you oppose her placement with a family?â
âMy opinion matters naught in that.â
âIs she forced to attend Mass and other religious activities?â
The Sister laughed lightly. âMaâam, she missed Mass for this interview with you.â
âHer file is still unusually bare.â
âWell⊠Iâm not sure what sorts of things are usually in a six-year-oldâs fileâŠ.â
âThank you, Sister. Iâll be in touch.â
Penny eagerly took Sister Mary Agnesâs hand as she left the office. She watched the rundown town give way to ill-kempt lawns, and then to a stretch of woods after a sharp turn in the road. A large building that looked like an old one-story nursing home sat on top of a gently sloping hill behind an iron fence that was rusted in some areas and broken in others.
An old woman with gnarled hands and sagging eyes met them in the foyer. She had a tallness to her despite being stooped on a walking stick. Her outfit was the same color blue-gray as Sister Mary Agnesâs, but her veil and skirt were longer and she wore a clunky crucifix around her neck.
Sister Mary Agnes hastily dropped Pennyâs hand.
âHow did you like your new case worker, Penrose, dear?â
Penny shrugged. âGuess okay.â
âAn okay first meeting can only go up from there. Run along and wash up. Snack will be served soon.â
Penny hurried from the foyer, but slowed when she realized Sister Mary Agnes was not following. She turned a corner, waivered, and doubled back.
â--found a family for her.â
âShe already did? And already called you?â Sister Mary Agnes scowled. âThat is a bit too fast, isnât it? I only left the office fifteen minutes ago.â
âPenrose is a pretty child. Foster mothers can easily imagine dressing her up and doing her hair.â
âForgive me, Mother Mary Clare, but I worry about the foster mothers wanting a pretty, little girl to play doll with, and I worry more about the foster fathers also wanting a pretty, little girl.â
âYou should not think the worst of people, Sister Mary Agnes.â
âSorryâŠ.â
âI donât need an apology,â the Mother said. âIt is not me that wants you to bring the good out in others.â
Penny shifted uncomfortably where she stood. Sister Mary Agnes wore a strange, uncharacteristically disgruntled expression on her fair face.
âYou are much too close to this,â the Mother said. âYou did right to disclose your relationship to her when you requested to join us, but you also promised that was secondary to your vows to serve our Lord through our Lady.â
âYes⊠Mother Superior.â
âShe may be your niece, but you are to serve all the children equally. You are an aunt to all of them. And you should do what is best by them, and that is placing them with families.â
âYes, Mother SuperiorâŠ.â
âTake heart, Sister,â the Mother said kindly. âWe often receive updates and Christmas cards from former charges. This will not be the last you hear from her.â
Two days later, Penny found herself once more in the car with Sister Mary Agnes. The ride was much longer than going into town to visit the case worker. It was quieter with an uneasier air.
The scene outside the window had a few rundown houses, some mobile homes, and a lot of trees that somehow came across sad and old. One of the homes had nicer flowerbeds and a littering of toys in the small, front yard. Three cars were crowded in the narrow driveway. The case worker stood outside in the yard with a middle-aged couple, a teen girl, a girl near Pennyâs age, and a toddler dressed in blue overalls.
âThey look nice,â the Sister said. âThe little girl could be your new best friend.â
âMaybeâŠ,â Penny muttered. âDo Sisters have last names?â
âWe do,â she said, looking in the rearview. âOur birth names are still our legal names. My driverâs license doesnât say Sister Mary Agnes, for example.â
âThen⊠we still have the same name,â Penny asked.
The smile slowly fell from the Sisterâs face. She turned in her seat, fixing Penny with a surprised and sad expression. She offered her hand which Penny reached forward to take.
âCall, write, whatever you want whenever you need me,â she said. âIâm only an hour away. You can visit if you want.â She nodded towards the family. âYou just have to ask. They seem kind. Iâm sure theyâll allow it.â
The placement lasted six months.
She found herself in her case worker's office with her about-to-be former foster mother. Her toes dragged now no matter if she was kicking or not. The light above still buzzed and flickered in an annoying way.
The case worker stared at the new notes in the file with a puzzled frown. She pursed her lips and straightened up, setting her stare upon the foster mother.
âIâm not understanding the issue,â she said carefully. Her eyes momentarily darted to Penny. âSheâs six.â
âAlmost seven,â Penny chimed up.
âI canât explain it any better,â the foster mother said stiffly. âAnd I wonât with her sitting here.â
âMaâam⊠you want to give her back because she believes in fairies,â the case worker said bluntly.
âNo. No, that makes it soundâ. Itâs more than that. ItâsâŠ.â She shot to her feet. âIâm allowed to give them back if they donât adjust to the family. Weâve tried. It isnât working.â She looked down at Penny with pity and apprehension. âI hope you can get the help you need, Penny. You didnât do anything wrong, okay? It isnât your fault.â
She stalked from the office, nearly colliding with Sister Mary Agnes on her way out. She muttered âgood luckâ at her before vanishing down the hall.
Penny smiled and waved eagerly at the Sister as she came to stand by her chair. She rested her thin hand on her shoulder, and returned her smile.
âCan I take Penny back now,â the Sister asked.
âYou donât want to know why the placement didnât work?â
âI believe it not appropriate to talk about that in front of the child. The Mother Superior is expecting a full report though.â
The case worker tapped her fingers on her desk. âHm⊠if you have time, Iâll give her a call now to give her the gist and see what she wants to do from there.â
She took the Sisterâs hand and went out into the hall. She tried to settle against the wall just outside the open doorway, but the Sister took her further down, away from the offices, to an old, beaten bench at the start of the hall. Penny leaned forward to stare back down the hall at the office.
âCurious,â the Sister asked, a smirk tugging her lips.
âDo you believe in fairies,â Penny asked.
âOf course. Iâve seen a fairy or two in my time.â
Her green eyes lit up. She stopped looking down the hall and stared up at the Sisterâs face. There were no signs of lying; her smile was gentle as usual, not teasing. She peered down the hall to make sure no one was coming, and slid closer to the Sister.
âIs this because weâre related,â she whispered.
âI think soâŠâÂ
The Sister also checked the hall, more apprehensively. She held her palm flat, turning to shield it from the hall. She held a finger to her lips to indicate quiet, and a second later a bright, golden light emanated from her outstretched palm. The light bubbled like a fountain slowly turning on, and formed into a tiny golden flower.
Penny gasped and clamped her hands over her mouth to stop her squeal of delight. She gave a small, disappointed âawwâ when the flower was snuffed out.
âMagic sensitivity is strong in our family. I think thatâs why youâre having trouble in your placements; because, this is not something most people have.â
âIs it a secret,â Penny asked breathlessly.
The Sisterâs expression turned from gentle into something Penny couldnât define. She seemed sad, but also kind of angry.
âNot on purpose,â she said carefully. âPeople just⊠stopped believing. I donât know if forcing belief would do more harm than good.â
âLike with God?â
âSimilar, at least,â she said with a small laugh. The light fell from her dark eyes as they fell upon her hand. âThis is a gift from God, but sometimes people dispute that. Even those who have high faith.â
âDoes Mother Mary Clare know you have magic?â
âShe does. She serves the Holy Cor same as me, but the other Sisters and Mother Mary Bernadette do not. Mother Mary Clare believes it is best to do our service in silence, and keep our connections to the Realm quiet.â She smiled at Penny, patting her hair. âIâll explain what I can of that later. Now that youâre older, Iâm sure the Mother wonât mind me tutoring you between my other duties.â
âAm I a witch too,â Penny asked eagerly.
âIâm not a witch. Iâm a mage. Witches are something different. As for you, I donât know yet. You might just be sensitive. Your mothâ.â
The Sister stopped. Her eyes went over Pennyâs head, down the hall. She stood with a gentle smile once more on her face, and stepped forward to meet the case worker before she reached the bench. They exchanged some words Penny couldnât hear from her seat before the Sister returned.
âMother Mary Clare wants us home,â she said. âThe goal is still to place you with a family, but we have all the time before then.â
They reentered St. Brigidâs hand in hand, but Sister Mary Agnes quickly dropped Pennyâs hand when Mother Mary Clare stepped from her office to cut them off. A large woman, just as old or older, joined them. Mother Mary Bernadette wore her usual severe expression.
âWell then, Penrose,â Mother Mary Bernadette said, staring down at Penny, âback again? No matter. Iâve decided to add my resources as well.â Penny shrank back from the Motherâs attempted smile. âWe will find you a proper home. Never fear.â
The two elder nuns exchanged a look as Mother Mary Bernadette walked off. Mother Mary Clare gave Penny a nervous smile and a pat on the head.
âIâm sorry, Penrose, dear,â she said. âMother Mary Bernadette was in my office when your case worker called.â
âIs that bad,â Penny asked.
âNo⊠Thatâs too negative for her want to help you,â the Mother said. Her pale, watery eyes met Sister Mary Agnesâs. âSheâs heard about the fairies. She doesnât believe it to be more than a childâs imagination, but she wants to keep an eye on it. âŠThe foster motherâs notes were rather hysterical.â
âActually, I was telling Penny that sheâs old enough to start learning about the Realm,â the Sister said. âAfter all my other duties, of course. And, only until her next placement.â
The Mother took a long, hard stare at Penny, making her squirm. âDoes she have magic?â
âNot that Iâve noticed. Sheâs still young, so she could. Or, she could just be sensitive to it.â
âOne is more manageable than the other in placing her with a familyâŠ.â The Mother hobbled towards her office. âIâll hold Mother Mary Bernadette at bay. We at the very least need to know if sheâs a mage before sheâs placed again.â
Penny beamed up at Sister Mary Agnes once they were left alone. She grabbed her hand and yanked her into a brisk walk, eager to hear all about magic.
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Using the Dragon Orphans (but abbriviated) for the title! I'm not sure how to ex[lain/better show the group home structure. There aren't any nun run orphanages anymore, but there are still group homes (usually for problem kids) that have some Catholic Charities influence, so nuns will go serve in them. But, since Penny's early story touches more on the Holy Cor, I'm mostly showing the nuns with case worker meetings.
The Brothers and Sisters follow a lot of the Marian Order traditions, so all Sisters have 'Mary' as the first half of their name. I picked Agnes because my great grandmother was an Agnes, and it is apparently a commonish name for nuns to pick if they've experiences some type of loss. Agnes also starts with 'A' the same as her birth/legal name. (Mary Agnes is named Aisling and will be called that in chpt 2, so not a spoiler.)
I was going to have Penny spot a fairy as she was being passed over to that foster family, but it was much more jarring to not do that. Then you get the confusion with her case worker like 'okay she's a little girl and they like fairies'. Case worker was not named because, not a spoiler, Penny will have a different one next chapter. They have a very high rate of burnout and turnover.
I did not expect this chapter to urn out this quick, lol. I'm rushing a bit to get what needs covered in her childhood done.